haiz.. oh ya.. i've break my promise.. i choose 2 go out wif fren.. haha... guess i cant help it.. frens is juz 2 impt 2 me.. god.. im such a failure.. cant even keep a promise 2 myself.. i sux... i noe.. haha? day 1 of sch n day 1 of the wk actually.. but.. i would wan 2 meet my fren is bcuz i noe we cant meet next time anymore.. haha... she's 2 bz by then..organising her sch, spinelli n ntuc work huh.. got bf thing oso cant cope le...cope wif me? haha..frenship is burden.. so i better nt bother her any longer.. felt so sway!! during orientation stick wif 4 guys... 2day? stick wif 2 guys! stupid lah.. so sway meh? 2 girls in my group absent? but fun.. aizat n joni r veri gentlemen.. ^__^ it was tiring 2day.. real tiring.. everyday carry so heavy de bag.. strain on the shoulder.. after tat cannot tahan go buy laptop casing.. zzz... waste my $... broke soon.. my house coming n muz pay 4 furniture.. help!! even retake o's oso muz pay myself.. haiz.. my mum juz like 2 scam me.. haha.. shld b every1 likes 2 scam me.. luckily im ok wif it.. everyday muz do projects... its kinda like pissing me off... dun like 2 tok oso muz tok tok tok.. come back still muz do reflection journal n proj de thing... stupid... i felt tat im losing more n more of my time.. travelling from bedok 2 woodland will take up 1hr plus.. total 2hr per day wasted... its so tiring... emotionally n physically.. tired.. frens is easy 2 make... but.. dun seems have the mood 2 make 1... do i fear frenship tat much? yes i do... 1 is enough le ba... i will make another 1 if the 1 i have now ends... now im working so solo... no longer enthu... dunno y... solo until i cant even noe its me or nt... tis no life moments... im starting 2 lose myself.. the real me... but... thr's nth i can do... i wanted life... but... how? find who 2 have better life sia? so lazy 2 make frens.. but haha... christina is interesting... wif all the COOL words wif they way she speaks.. im so english now... who can speak chinese 2 me huh? haiz... i do really wish tat life would b like in the past... fun in the past n everything... but i dun seems 2 picked myself up.. sad.. argh... my back aching now.. dun feel really gd bout 2day... the rest of my life will b like nightmare... trying hard 2 cope... see as time goes ba.. in frenship.studies,work and my life... wisk myself luck....TIRED!!