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Tuesday, April 28, 2009

I chabo-ed class today!
N its like.. only my 2nd wk of sch?
-.-'''

Im so easily influenced..
tsk tsk tsk to cindy n hy..
lol!

Juz joking..
Watch '17 again'
wif mar,sarina n bad influence 2..
haa..

PS auntie 10..
they kept me bz the entire day..
*4got to msg u back, until i realised.. its like 11pm le* SORRY!

Alrite.. back to the topic..
I wonder y im so zai wif everything too..
Actually didnt wan to leave..
But..
*beat cheast*

Hmm..
Guess tis is the me afterall..
Whenever its for a friend..
I try to give my best for them..
N if its for a bestie..
God.. I would give u everything for u to hold that trust in me..

It seems pretty sucky..
Bcuz..
I can be scolded for being a good friend..
sensitive yet dull..
Auntie 10 can scold me.. u think u veri rich huh.. then give me all ur $..
Elena can scold me saying i always put others b4 myself n i should care bout "ME"
Besties said that im too quiet(blank) and sometimes too talkative..
Being scolded bcuz I think too neutral (i have not much feelings)
Being too serious wif everything..

My flaws seems exceptionally special ya?
beats me..
but..
What i noe is that..
Im constantly changing to be a better friend..
I seriously am..

Its hard to come by being almost "perfect"..
Not as in saying im perfect but being a friend worthwhile having..

If you could rmb..
I used to be some friend that is so full of myself as im good in sports as well as studies(yr1,2)
I only bother bout how I think n felt.. nth bout others..
I was sooo CMI wif my sec looks..
I used to be so "keep out" kinda friend..
I dun bother bout friendship.. "so what has it gotta do wif me? I survived wif food not friends logic"

yeah.. It used to be me..
but bcuz of people that have entered my life as well as those leaving me to another world..
I started treasuring every single ppl that considers me as a friend..
Moreover if u're my bestie that have changed me..

I dunno if throughout all these yrs..
It has been smooth or painful..
filled wif tears or joy..
But im changing bcuz I've learnt how to cherish..

A little to late for some ppl that have once sacrificed so hard for me..

Hoping for a chance...

But, Has already ended..
It'll never be the same again..
A memory i'll rmb..
sisters.forever.

- LifeGoesOn~

Monday, April 27, 2009

Was supposed to jog...
Again, we leave it aside..
LOL!
Oh well..
Who wouldnt be tempted by shopping or eating than to exercise?
That's how we do things..
Be it right or wrong..

=D
Was 1.5hr late..
N tis girl isnt a single bit mad bout it..
Cool right? Cool right??
had dinner tgt + shopping~
brought tis shirt tgt as auntie 10 first noticed the orange smilie shirt..
but was a lil too small..
So.. 2 for $30..
1 for her.. 1 for me..
Miss white vs miss black..
haha..
Had a great day today bout some plannings..
tok soo much leaving her arh arh arh only..
So tired now..
haha!
Meeting her n prissy again on fri..
N bcuz will be meeting her late in the evening..
YEAH! midnight movie on fri..
I WANNA WATCH FRIDAY THE 13TH!
N.. u 2 r so gonna watch it wif me..
lols!
i muz get started wif my psyco-ing skills..
haha!
U sure u can win me auntie10?
Im so gonna psyco prissy la..
Xp

haha.. thanks for ur commend bout my problem..
U nv failed giving me a win-win solution answers..

Anyway..
The meeting turned out to be.. alright?
I supposed..
At least we all had better understanding of each other..
ok.. STM..
I've 4gotten what I have to say..
U loh auntie..
say too much bout ur stuff liao..
haha!
I juz enjoyed looking for trouble with her..
she always bully me 1 k..
So..
-.-''' im a GOOD friend OK!

ok.. not convincing..
nvm.. bye!

*that idiot.. back to that 3min temp again?*
hopefully not..
haiz..
watever..

- LifeGoesOn~

Sunday, April 26, 2009

Alrite..
<-- taken on friday, 24th April..

Shall update tis as i've finally transfer the pictures to my com..

Oh well... What can I say bout tis 2 stupid girl i've named bestie..

Was actually supposed to go for gym..
but.. as usual.. I was seriously veri late..
I muz have been contaminated by tat 10's late virus! -.-'''

In the end..
Guess what..
Lol.. met up wif auntie 10 first while prissy was shopping wif her sis for Mday present..
Both of us started looking for food at tam1..
-.-'''
Ate sushi n drumlets..
when prissy came..
We had Carls junior..
Was tempted by the ice cream shop right infront of us..
So.. We had ice cream..
Auntie 10!
How to slim down like tis???
Haha.. anyway..
dunno if its me or bcuz i've changed my weighing machine batt..
I've lost weight!!
Xp
*P.S. (tis is only meant to gek some auntie tat told me she has gained weight during tis period of time)

Haha..
alrite la.. im meeting her tml after sch for a jog nearby her house.
So.. *beats chest* (wo ting ni)
Cuz i've 5more kg to lose..
>.<

would be meeting them again tis fri..
Cuz its GOOD fri..
=)

Had lots of fun the other day..
See the both of them..(inside the pic)
Definately u noe la..
I always kana bullied 1..
Eat ice-cream oso wanna make my cone crack..
-.-'''
Kiddy right?
tsk tsk tsk..
But.. wif them..
U cant help feeling young again..
Something I sooooooo loved u all bout..
=D
We juz enjoyed too much things in common..
owwww..
Awaits fri..

Swimming on thur 6pm wif auntie lisa!
wanna tag?
-.-''' had to get her 1 mp3 bcuz of my big mouth..
god..
what elena told me is really happening..
=
hopefully I would be spending more on my friends instead of her mum..
Nvm.. its the same anyway..
is it?
lol..

Anything.. As long as im happy..
Definately.. maybe...
ha?

- LifeGoesOn~

Received $100 from daddy as usual..

Had to entertained my relative;gambling..
Paid $64 for sch fees..

DAMN!
I've been like losing $ every wk..
Fuk!

N bcuz daddy gives me $..
Mummy intended to stop giving me $..
Zzz..

ARGH..
Its so unfair..
How to lived wif $100/wk?
N even worst after gambling..

....
Even if its $150/wk..
Im still struggling..
I wonder what should I do..
haiz...

Nvm the $..
haiz..
the other problem..
I dunno what to say..

screwed..
Even that idiot wanna find trouble say..
Ahiya u dun understand 1 la..
@$%&&$#

I think I needs a break from everything..
A bit reluctant to go jogging wif auntie 10 tml..
>.<
haiz..
I dun like it!!!!
I dun like to feel so sad over problems..
but I guessed if u're a true friend..
U'll be feeling the same way too..

Shall let it be..
the best way..

- LifeGoesOn~

Saturday, April 25, 2009

ARRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHH...
Y cant u see that im doing otherwise but juz not picking a quarrel?

I nv even aruged so much wif my besties..

Damn.. SCREWED!

I swear if its my besties..
I'll nv apologize..
-.-'''

Haiz..
sorry..

- LifeGoesOn~

Thursday, April 23, 2009

update on yesterday's stuff..
Sushi-ed yesterday..
brought clothes and had lots of fun at tam..
Thank you for not dissappointing me..
brought 5 shirts.. N had my sinfulious meal..
=)
haha.. guess 1 day I've already spent $100+..
But.. I swear its so damn worthwhile..

At least u can see my emo-ness gone..
Im happy..
I really am..
Haha!

Keeps me gg happy..
WOOOOOHHHHHHHH~

Swimming wif auntie lisa after school.
Its so OMFG happy..
She've learnt how to swim frog style..
Im such a great coach aint I?

2day was a little funny thou..
While swimming..
It will definately feel kinda weird when ppl kept looking and smiling at you right.. Moreover, its an auntie..
Trying to be polite, I smiled back..
Then suddenly..
She talked to me while I was coaching auntie lisa..
Couldnt blame..
I have 0% killing aura..
but.. As u moved on, u noe I had 100% coldness to strangers..
-.-''' (girls of few words)

But their conversation ended pretty well wrapped up..
Saying I was good..
WAHAHA..
Hey.. Who would waste time teaching bestie's mum how to swim? On a 1-1 guiding..
N within 3lesson, she noes frog style..
Lol..
Juz joking..
I was only wanting sum1 to noe that even her mum says that I am a good friend loh..
Ahem.. y doesnt sum1 says tat to me huh..
ok ok..
Im gg too far..
Anyway..
Of course im helping her bcuz of my bestie..
Duh..
N it juz so happened tat I can click wif her family..

We even have convos like 2day..
me, elena, her sis n auntie lisa chatting n joking tgt..
Lols bout it.. (mie mie)
Thanks.. for letting me experience the gd times of a family.. =)

<-- their pet kitten.. cute right?
Its only a palm sized big..

Alrites..
Damn..
Im tired..
But still..
=D
Im happy..

Tis is my something im so proud of friendship that has finally returned..

definately I would be happy..
but.. haha?

A matter of time?

Perhaps?
Defiantely?
Maybe..

goodnight..

- LifeGoesOn~

Wednesday, April 22, 2009

Im really really really =D 2day..

The only thing I could say is..
It takes a lot of yrs to nature an old friend..
For one that understands you more than family could..
To allow urself to be who u really are..
It's one in a million..

I noe I am one that cherish almost all friendship that is imp to me..
But..
The friendship that I have give in until it seems almost impossible for more..
There could only be one..
The reason being..
1) U're the bestie that knows the shit out of me.. shit that literally means EVERYTHING..
2) The ONLY 1 that I could answer without thinking.. (kind self; I've always put others tot b4 mine.. true self; thinking wif ur heart juz make me more human..) I think tat's the reason y i only likes to make u difficult.. N! take tis chance to say.. Sry.. Nt purposely.. U sway loh..
3) I tok n tok n tok n tok.. Seriously.. throughout.. (perhaps its juz bcuz u noe what keeps me gg like a woodpecker)
4) We juz enjoyed eating gd stuff tgt..
5) We thinks the same.. Yet have different characters.. N different ways of handling stuff..
6) I realised I have more feelings.. lol.. eg. anger that other doesnt get a chance to experience..
7) N.. thr's really so much more..(*ps, couldnt list more.. gtg prepare for tml.. sch sian)

It veri hard for such friendship to come by..
Especially when they have their own things n stuff to get bz wif..

Fades,Neglectance,Priority, is often the factors of putting a strong friendship at risked..
However..
Trust.. Holds everything tgt firmly..

Its almost impossible to let someone u called bestie fades..
The term bestie juz holds that much bondings that we could actually 4give and 4get..
Giving a lil..
Asking for no returns..
but juz u to see..
The key that YOU possessed to keep this friendship gg..
As well as leaving it aside..
To ruined or nurture..
........

See how powerful bestie could be?

omg tired.. ciao..

- LifeGoesOn~

Monday, April 20, 2009

I'd intended to let some friendship fades..
But..
It seems that its pretty much.. impossible..
I could tell juz thru a phonecall..
To meet up wif an old friend.. aka the bestie i've always used..
Working schedule cancelled..

However.. it does really keeps me wondering..
How true could a friendship be?
those time whr u could hardly contact to even update..
N now.. seems almost a complete different story..

But for what I noe bout myself..
I cherish every friendship that I have..
For a bestie, u'll forever be a trump card that I would always treasure..
*sighs*
I've promise myself not to make any1 difficult anymore..
Shall stop..
All those why's sould be 4eva left untold..

OK!
sch is B.O.R.I.N.G~
As usual.. was late..
Luckily today's class i got to noe april,cindy,eugene,jac n mar..
tml's n fri's class is OMFG sux cuz i dunno a single person..
T.T
Oh well..
Used to being solo n emo..
haha..

Lesson ended fast..
dunno if its me or the new timing..

Anyway..
Because I've great ppl ard..
I dun get to suffer from gastric anymore or isnt happy at all..
=)
haha..
juvenile..
A secret, a nightmare..
Hoping it will nv come back again..
For I noe im doing better than b4..

The reason i've more smiles on my face..

P.R.I.O.R.I.T.I.E.S.

ps. thanks for making me jealous that u can be a pig at hm while i am already at sch! u nv fails to make my blood boils.. -.-''' what gd weather to slp..
=)
At least the first laugh to have a gd start for sch..
Thanks! *beat chest*

- LifeGoesOn~

Saturday, April 18, 2009

Things didnt seems to turn out fine..
Working straight tis wk..
It was already so tiring..
Suddenly received a call from mummy to return hm immediately..

Her hands were injured..
Thanks to my fucking bro..
Bcuz they were fighting over some hmwk stuff..
He actually used weapon to hurt my mum!
N bcuz of that mummy was hospitalized..
The veins could be seen..
Had 9 stiches on her hands..
Kept me bz the entire day looking after her and taking over the chores..

Luckily she's sleeping soundly now..
If whatever happens to her..
I'll fuckingly KILL him..
Since i've nv liked tis brother of mine..

Zzz..
Im feeling so damn tired..
I dread gg to sch on mon..

Am I.. gg back to the same routine that I used to have?
Those i've gone through in yr 1?
haiz.. what else could I do?
A good chance to not eat anyway..

I dunno what's wrong wif me...
But everything juz seems different now..
Perhaps tis is the best solution...
Start wif nth..
End wif nth..

Haiz..
What's wrong wif me?
Im losing touch of myself..

- LifeGoesOn~

Wednesday, April 15, 2009

I went crazy..
Hell beyond my control..
The previous post was.. -.-'''

I dunno if its juz me..
I can lived without anything..
But..
If I were to live without the support of my family n friends..
It seems almost impossible..

Perhaps those r the reason y i'd often wan ppl to reckon my existence while I lived up to their trust..
I dun have much support from my family..
They are the reason y I value friendship more than my family..

Family to me..
Is juz having a house for shelter..
N $ to spend..

I do love them..
Not as if i dun..

My family is not rich..
But they pampers me a lot..
I noe..
Bcuz I can have a lot of things if i juz asked..

I juz dun feel happy tis way..
I wan a family whr I can tok to,
A family that arn't tat bz..
A family whr we could all stays in the living room to juz sit on the comfy couch to watch tv and have dinner tgt..
This.. Is really what i wished for..

Maybe its true that im childish..
Those "grow up la huiling"
No..
How it feels if ur entire family were at hm..
N the whole day..
U merely speak more than 5sentence or worst, none?
haha..
Perhaps thats the reason y i dun like toking..
ITS THE GENES..
haiz..
retard..

Turn to my friends instead..

Sorry to friends that i've relied too much on..

Thank you.. bcuz you all are that allows me to show my true self..
I seriously cant do any better without u ppl..

But..
Perhaps..
I should stop relying on friends to cause such misery upon them..
It juz seems that im becoming more like a burden instead of a friend..
N.. sharing n concern should stop too..
Im too tired to give..
I wouldnt be getting either..
A full stop to it.

So.. I truly wished ppl would accept it..
dun give.. I dun wished to feel guilty..
Concern for me is juz a waste of ur own effort..
(i dun wan any1 to feel that i took them for granted)
alrites..
tat's all..

*A wrong call/or a right call.. which allows me to see that spark of light once again for something i've once called friends forever..
Will everything be alright soon?

I brought tis 2..
To balance off the 1 that i've lost..
Is the brown 1 boyish?

- LifeGoesOn~

Monday, April 13, 2009

Deleted my previous post..
I dun think im gonna blog anymore..
I juz dun wish to do so anymore..
If disappearing in this world is that easy..
I will..

Sometimes I really wished I have no family and friends ..
I've give in juz too much..
too much to others..

I cant even feel a single bit of happiness for myself..
Im tired..
It's tormenting..

No 1 bothered!
NO 1 ever does..
fuck tis piece of shit..

- LifeGoesOn~

Sunday, April 12, 2009

Sometimes..
I felt that we should always clarify with others when we have doubt wif them..
Not only to make ourself feels better.. but oso be fair to the party u have always been thinking that what he/she is...

Tis is what i've learnt..
U can never be sure about everything..
Even god makes mistakes..
So how sure are u that u're always correct?

Give others a chance..
They deserves better that what ur brain thinks they are..

But obviously..
If someones doesnt wish to ans u..
U dun forced them for an ans..

Sometimes.. Its also better if we talk things out..
Nothing is impossible..
U dun keep them in heart and sentence urself to death sentence and gets all emo over it..
If the problem is right in front of u..
Face it..
Not hide..
The more u try to cover it up, the more its juz gonna show..
I dunno..
But..

nvm..

- LifeGoesOn~

Thursday, April 9, 2009

Cried 2day while walking the long stretch of path towards hm..
Held it for veri long..
Until thr's no 1..
I broke down into tears..
I tried to tell myself im tired..
But my heart tells me otherwise..
Wat hurts is my own heart but not me being unable to cope wif my physical state..

Perhaps meeting up auntie lisa was a bad choice..
I swear I nv wanted to step in her house if I could..
It seriously breaks my heart to see every myself toking to auntie lisa and her sis but juz not my bestie..
"what you wans from me"..
U really made me looked stupid..

What's wrong wif asking what's wrong when everything juz seems so obvious that smth is wrong?
Or u juz dun bother?
Im really lost..
Tell me what's friends n what's not..
those that onli contact when they had to..
or those that is countlessly thr..

Y do friends need to have such drastic change when they grow up?

Why cant u get the pt that bcuz im concern bout tis friendship..
I dun mind stepping on ur tail juz to ask u what's wrong?
Y do i bother to ask if u're doing well.. N u'll always give me shit replies or not even a msg..
Y do i teach ur mum swimming juz bcuz she's ur mum..
Put my patience to the limit.. u noe my limit of friendship.. n u're still pushing ur luck..

Y u juz dun bother to understand bcuz u're my bestest bestest friend..
The 1 that used to helped me sooo much..
To juz understand for once..
that im cherishing ur friendship more than any other bcuz u r who u r?
If all u could see is me making u difficult..
haa..
I don't noe..

I really have cried enough..
Tell me what to do..
Will u?
Tell me how to maintain ur friends forever..

*ps.. To the worst friend that is best suited to be huling's bestest friend..

Im really giving in a lot to tis friendship..
Tell me how to rmb ur BFF..
Or juz leave it entirely..
U now wat i meant..

- LifeGoesOn~

Wednesday, April 8, 2009

=(
I lost my speedo watch 2day after fyp..
FUCK!
I guess its $140 gone..
Lol...
Im too tired to even bother to look for it...
Juz let it be..
Anyway.. guessed its time to get another..

IM TIRED!!!
TIRED TIRED TIRED..
My entire body hurts..
My legs hurts..
My left hand hurts!
FUK FUK FUK..

=(
I need a rest..
Seriously..
Im so dead tired..
I dun like to be out everyday..
Sucks..
haiz..
Im at my limit once again..
watever..

- LifeGoesOn~

Tuesday, April 7, 2009

Ouch Ouch Ouch...
-.-'''
1st ouch is bcuz my body is still acheing badly..
2nd ouch is I've stand for veri long hrs 2day as I went shopping wif auntie 10 after work..
3rd ouch is... -.-''' tis auntie suddenly has the urge to get her 3rd ear piercing..
SO.. evil her.. dragged me wif her..
>.<
Guessed that what friends are for isnt it?
I dragged her to get the 2nd n she drags me to get the third..
Hopefully thr's not 4th 5th or 6th..

lol!
I dun wanna end up like those indian taboo freak ya?
Wow.. I ate so much 2day..
BK chk meal, hotplate noodle, auntie anne's and mos burger..
tsk tsk tsk...
Some1 say jian fei in the end temp me to eat so much things leh..
haha.. but!
Thanks to her..
I've got a really really PART-time admin job..
Only need to work 1 or 2 days..
3-4hrs.. $6.5/hr..
LMAO..
However just like what she've said..
Its working for the experience..
Thanks loh..
U're the best!

Best until huh..
When she noes that im having muscles ache..
She kept gg to places that muz climb up n down the stairs..
I guess she cant wait for me to sit wheelchair so that she can pushed me la..
Rite?
LOL!
I noe u veri gd 1..
haha..Hmm...Seriously.. thanks!
My ALMOST the same as me friend..
Juz that im slightly better!
WAHAHAHAHA~
ok.. CIAO~
Hey.. I tooked the initiative to thank u here leh..
got gan dong mah?
haha..
No more 4th pierce ya?
-.-'''
I'll faint the next time..
I swear..
haha..

- LifeGoesOn~

Monday, April 6, 2009

Hmmm..
A day is gone..
My entire body is still acheing from the after effect of badminton session..
Owww..

Fyp at my house..
Had a great laugh in the rain..
While picking hy it rained..
While picking amelia n peggy..
I rained more heavily..
God muz be playing trick on us as the rain comes in all direction..
In the end..
All was soaking wet..
peggy has umbrella skills, she didnt get soaked by the rain..
-.-'''
4 me.. I swear I can squeeze a cup of rainwater with my clothes..
haha?

Hmmm.. they said the same thing besties..
Really wondering if a rm like mine is gd..
As compared to all my friends room..
Those i've visited b4..
My room.. felt.. dead..
Too much of an adult I guess..
dun like..
Needs sumthing more.. cosy..
Nvmm...

Working tml.
Maybe shopping wif auntie 10 afterwards..
Fully packed schedules again tis wk..
Jia you!

ps.. should i take the initiative to care for ppl i cared for?
Or.. not?
sighs..

- LifeGoesOn~

Sunday, April 5, 2009

Woke up early today..
Went to the temple to pray to my dearest grandma,grandpa, 6gu and sok sok..
I'd really miss the time when they are still alive..
Its kinda heartbreaking that because of grandma existence, we gathered..
N bcuz of paying our respect to her, we gathered again..
Dead or alive..
She's the 1 that brings us tgt..
I really thanked her for my wonderful, sweet and unforgetable childhood memories..
lol..
Damn.. im tearing..

Guess im tired..
Badminton session after praying..
Wif my "u pay everything for me" brother..
LOL..
My arms n wrist hurts..
body acheing..
Seriously.. I can really really really slim down a lot if i were to tag wif him to exercise..
swimming n jogging were no sweat things for me..
N juz by playing half an hour of badminton..
WOW.. I can fall flat to the ground..
SCARY..
ok.. im tired.. no more nonsense.
ciao~

- LifeGoesOn~

Saturday, April 4, 2009

Your view on yourself:
Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them. (wow? what's wif the hiding your true self? -.-''' N i really dun like the 2nd n 3rd sentence.. It makes me seems fake.. guess.. i am..)

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true. (Definately... Maybe...)

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person. (Mr.Right got lost)

The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love. (yea.. tis is true.. hell agrees wif it.. same applies to friends.. I dun like wasting time wif ppl i dun get along wif..)

Your views on education:
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can. (Do i? lol)

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life. (tat's wat it's supposed to be in life isnt it?)

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous. (I dun like failures.. Never will happen..)

What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear. (hmmm.. I've lost myself trying to be acknowledge by others.. It sounds stupid.. but its me)

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve. (omg? heart rather than ur head to solve? It couldnt be any true-er.. I'd often like to let my brain conqueur my heart.. that's y i've always speak sense isnt it? lol.. >.<)

Tis test makes me feel as thou I lived for others instead of myself.. wat learn to be yourself with them.. will do anything or everything for ur true love.. afraid of failures(recognition).. concern bout the way others sees me.. not believeing in who i am.. Heart rather than ur head needs to solve..

But i guess its juz a test..
Is it true?
-.-'''
Now im doubting myself.. lol..

anyway..
http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx
i noe u're dying to try other than reading mine..

- LifeGoesOn~

Woooohoooo~
feeling much better now.. bye bye fever..
Worked as usual in the morning..
N the next thing i noe is..
Im stucked once again in my own world;room..
"Nothingness" something carefree.. yet so hollow and empty..

Guess i've made a fool out of myself from the last few post..
No doubt..
Childish..
Perhaps the fever burned away my most of my smart cells
Making it difficult to differentiate the difference btw saying what I feel n bullshitting..

Things muz have been rather bored for u reader too..
To witness my life as work, fyp, sports and plain rotting at hm..
Maybe a lil entertainment here and thr..
Fair enough..
Couldnt ask for more.. Greed kills..
Oh well.. I've learnt to be more optimistic..
I cant forever be feeling shitty bout almost everything that doesnt comes in my way isnt it?

Im all better now..
BUT.. guess its a matter of time before I get hit back into my emo self..
haaaaaa... useless me..

Nevermind those nonsense..
Should be feeling rather happy bout having tis fever..
Cuz..
I finally! finally dun eat as much as B4..(my own perspective)
Thanks to tat..
Kinda meet up wif long lost hip bones..
-.-'''
ok.. guess that wasnt funny..
But if i haven lose any weight..
Where has all the fat gone?
hmmm...

ps. It's Never Enough If We Kept Wanting More From What It Already Can Be..

emo now? beats me..

- LifeGoesOn~

Thursday, April 2, 2009

Kooped pictures..
Tue;Movie session wif peg n amelia..

Wed;fyp
Was super tired de loh..
Forced to take photos de..
>.<
Its nice thou..

2day, worked as usual..
Stilling thinking to go dinner or not tml..
My entire body feels as thou its shattering..
Fever is still thr..
After work, went to singpost to pay O's retake..
Shopped for auntie lisa's swim board..
-.-''' should have brought 1 from royal sporting house.. instead brought from arena bcuz she likes pink..

^__^
I guessed its like mother like daughter..
Both toks a lot.. both doesnt noe how to swim..
Both learn veri fast..
However.. My bestie is elena.. not her mum..
So..
I had a tough day pretending to be ok..
Went for swimming while having slight fever..
Haha..
Well.. still gg stong..
But..
-.-''' after returning to her house..
the fever feels as thou it gushed back again..
So.. had to head back asap..
....
Was rather sad..
Bcuz.. I didnt even tok to my bestie..
Instead.. I was toking to her mum all the while..
It sort of feels as thou we acted as thou we were stranger..
What's worst is..
I will be meeting up wif her mum more than meeting up wif my veri own best friend..
How GREAT!
*deep breathe*
sighs..
Should act as thou my friendship is ok next time when her mum is thr..
Cuz it really feels weird 2day that we didnt even chat when we saw ea other n called ourself bestie..
Hard to describe that feeling..
But it sux..
The feeling of..
The no longer thr friendship..
N.. Thr's nth u could do to save it..

If u readers have anything bad to comment bout tis friendship..
STFU!
Screw tis shit!
I noe I sux.. Leave it alrite?

- LifeGoesOn~

Wednesday, April 1, 2009

Had lab session 2day..
Was damn reluctant to wake up..
Tot it was plain laziness..
So forced myself to go to sch..
Meet up wif the usual gang and head for sch..
still..
Was damn tired..
Had lunch..
thinking that i woould be feeling more energetic after intake of food..
But still..
Was feeling tired..
Tot it was juz me..
However.. the rest could see tat im tired too..
until i head back..
While lil bro was pretending to be sick wif the thermometer in his mouth..
Took it the next instance n put it in my mouth..(of course i got wash)
Lol...
FEVER~

Great!
I tot i was knelt down by my bz schedule..
Perhaps it really is..
LOL!
Thank god..
Im eating less bcuz im only not feeling well..
Tot wat..
Cuz its the first time i felt tired eating almost everything..
the wanton mee i had yesterday n the chicken cultlet i had 2day..
lols!

Ok.. am seriously veri veri veri tired..
Find it so fuking irritating when i head for bed at 1am,2am or what..
I call only fall aslp after 4am...
Its gonna be worst 2day as im need to wake up at 5am later..
Even worst, im meeting auntie lisa tml for swimming session..
GREAT~
hopefully I wun faint..
lol.. cuz i had times when I was feeling giddy..
Anyway..
Good..
=)
Its what I wanted to make myself really really really tired..
Then i wouldnt have the time to think of other things..
19days before sch reopens..
Wondering if i could really enjoy myself..
haiz..
whatever...

ps. dun copy me sick hor.. lol! get well soon!

Haha..
Feeling tired..
But cant help on-ing my lappy..
Feeling tired but awake..
Oh well..
Its pretty hard for me to look as thou im sick..
T___T
ming ku ar...

ciao~
its virus day 2day.. better not use the com too much!
fun trust me but trust the news?

- LifeGoesOn~