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Friday, February 27, 2009

My pay is so fuking lil n u still FUCKINGLY count my pay wrongly!!!!
FUCK YOU!
Seriously.. U dun come mess wif the old bird if u're merely juz a stall manager..
Im the pioneer of spinelli airport..
Even the DM has to give me face at work..
So if u fuking count my pay wrongly, ADMIT IT FUCKER!
Dun beat ard the bush blaming the HR or tell me CRAP..
I've nv been so irritated n pissed..
All thanks to tis fuking ppl..
Made me lose my cool..

Wat's wrong wif 2day?
It really pissed me..
Went to the library..
Bcuz I had to clear the overdue payments,
It tooked me quite a while bcuz that fuking machine was so damn slow..
Mum told me to clear her's n bro's too..
N after tat..
*lights out*
NABEI!
It was the closing time..
FUCK!!!!!!!!!
I wanna borrow books n its closed!!!
ZZZZ..

Mummy had get herself a new hp..
I got none!
Bcuz the 1 i wan was out of stock..
I wonder whr is all tis SWAYNESS coming from today..
The only good thing i had was a tok wif elena over phone ;what hp shld i get..
She have always been the 1 that speaks my mind..
thank you for always calling at the right time..
Nevertheless...
Im getting a cheap phone..
A less than $100 after upgrade phone..
A phone is only for calling n msging..
I dun need a gd hp now..
Not until i get into the society.
Thanks..
Sorry for choosing not to meet up..
2day is really not a gd day for me..
Thanks huh.. For being so frank that u've fallen aslp..
Many ppl r so broke nowadays..
But I would like to tell you..
Get over wif saving money n not spending money by staying at hm..
TSK!
U're so gonna go out!!!
We'll eat grass tgt..
-.-'''
Haiz.. I noe u're trying ur best to save $..
N u've 'bones' to not rely on others..
But looked who ur best friend is..
ME!
U noe what im trying to say..
Its not always bout what u think is right u do..
Its we in friendship..
Meet up soon?
SOON! juz not 2day.. >.<

Will be meeting auntie 10 n prissy tml le..
topping up my fuel~

hmm..
Received another $100..
Words from mummy n daddy really struck my mind..
I've always gotten the best compared to my brothers..
gotten the most $ and they have always suited to me..
Am I taking them too much for granted juz bcuz I've always tot they nv cared?
Aint I the selfish 1 now?
Haiz.. im really thinking too much of everything thing recently..
STOP?
Its enough..
Seriously.. im so tired..
I dun even noe what the fuck am i doing n what the fuck i wans..
So screwed..
Im starting to hate myself so much...

- LifeGoesOn~

Thursday, February 26, 2009

Mummy is bringing me to M1 shop tonight..
Stupidly... Once again gonna pay for the phone I get..
Super retard..
Dat pai 1..
Wan me to spend my own money..
But.. Im so gonna get rid of this cui hp of mine..
Actually its alright la..
Juz some cracks on the screen, easy control bar coming out and juz doesnt look quite presentable..
LOL?
Ahhh..
Im so fuking broke to buy a phone..
HAHA!
Always broke to buy smth..
N not broke to buy gd food and enjoying spending $..
That's me...
Perhaps this proves why my size is so big n I had nth to show off?
T____T im so gonna change tis..
Get good stuff and not spend the $ on eating and to enjoy..

Hmmm..
Random blog hopping juz now..
haha.. I dunno y..
Does ppl wif lots of good friends proves that you're a good friend of theirs too?
True that I envy ppl with great social of friends..
But..
Nothing is comparable to my friends i've made..
Not wide but always true and long lasting..
My assets..
=D
Or rather im always lazy to make new friends and I never approach ppl that I do not noe?
haha.. guess this is y my cold n silent treatment often makes 'unture' friendship go and 'true' friendship stays..
Its alright to have all kinds of friendship..
Childish ones, silly ones, crazy ones, love ones, boring n quiet ones..
As long as its juz you and your friends that enjoyed doing..
What else could matter more?
I noe I dun have any rights to comment bout friendship..
We can have a lot of friend..
But always treasure them like u'd meant it..
not bcuz when u're in need of help u have lots to count on..
I despise such friendship..
Oh well..
U can choose not to agree wif me...
But as u grow old..
U noe which is which will be the 1 that will stay by ur side till u grow old..
I only have 7-8yrs of friendship(still counting on) to start wif..
So I shall keep my mouth shut until I have 10yrs to start wif..
>.<>
time flies...
wouldnt be showing my pics..
buang photo of me in the past..
HAHA!
Hopefully im gg out 2night for supper..
Hopefully u dun tua me!!
-.-'''
bye~

- LifeGoesOn~

Had this yesterday..
bro's treat..
Shall not mention bout the boring stuff..
Cuz tis blog of mine is getting more n more boring..

wooohhhhhhhoooooo~
Was Extremely tired at work..
made some latte art coffee..
But due to it being too buang, didnt take any pic of it..
Hmm.. shld I join the barista competition?
Nah... nvm..
Wat matters is me noeing my own capabilities..
It's also better to make coffee for ppl that enjoys coffee than using it to compete wif others isnt it?
>.<
Hopefully..

Oh ya..
Despite me being tired,
I still had my 50mins jog..
Sweating is great~
What could be better than jogging after the rain?
The only destroyer was the burning smell of the haze..
Nevertheless, it didnt stop me from enjoying my run..
Feeling damn tired now..
Once again, Im feeling too full to head for bed..
ARGH!!!!

Have been thinking so much lately..
I need to read some books!!!
How I wish I can go jogging once again wif my mp3..
juz me n music..
Hopefully tml is a better day..

Ok.. I noe tis blog is getting too boring..
Shall say smth interesting..
ATTENTION ALL!!
Due to miss pitiful huiling being super duper broke..
She has to collect egg shell for a living...
T______T
She cant afford to eat too much eggs..
<-- N tis is all she can get...
If you her friend...
Please collect some for her..
It will be veri much appreciated as 1kg=5cent..
>.<
So poor thing right?
So please... help her..
Erm.. rmb to take out the membrane..
Seriously, it stinks so much wif the membrane..
lol...
Start helping her now!!!!
5eggs a day keeps the doctor away..
-_______-'''
its getting bored~

- LifeGoesOn~

Wednesday, February 25, 2009

Owww..
Dun u juz like rainy days?
But the thunder is scary.. >.<

Sooo tired after work..
Working would be something gd for me as I can control my diet..
However, eating less juz makes me tired..
yawns..
Damn reluctant to go out for dinner..
-.-'''
finally not tempted by big feast...
Im feeling so dead.. excited? next time perhaps...
didnt get to borrow books today..
shall do it tml..
Im saving up for friday's late night supper too...
=D
thou it wouldnt make much difference..
hmmm...
Am i getting more n more lazy to interact wif others?
My words seems to be getting lesser n lesser...
Or maybe im always tired to speak?
oh well..
doesnt matter..
Life's getting too bz..
cant seems to cope well wif ppl ard..
Perhaps im really born to have lesser frens...
>____<
or born to have talkative frens?
=X
Kinda felt tat im losing so much of myself ever since holiday started..
or am i looking for trouble?
cuz if im not working, im gg out..
owww.. sudden urge to lie on my big bed...
At hm.. yet i miss hm sooo much...
I noe its not a big deal to go out everytime..
>.<>
lol.. i sounded like a zombie or vampire..
the only thing to keep me energetic is....
eating gd food..
but doing all the eating without sum1 to eat as much as me is.. =(
too full makes me tired too..
LOL!
In short..
Faster finish ur exam n go out wif me!!!
u noe who u r..
what could be better than a day spent wif ur bestest friend who noe ur every single pattern?
Friends without words but noes what u're thinking..
hmm..but that doesnt mean i dun wanna go out..
-.-''' hopefully i dun offend any1..
muz start eating wif me..
LOL!
haiz.. tired..
ciao..

- LifeGoesOn~

Tuesday, February 24, 2009

Yesterday's photo... kooped again
lazy to upload all..
haha.. been veri camera shy lately..
>.<
went for fyp meeting today..
Have been spending a lot on food lately..
oh my..
shall stop this habit after meeting up wif bestie..
sooo gonna enjoy good food..
Have been slacking a lot lately..
This proves the 4kg i've gained during the holidays..
ZZZZ

Will be working tml..
Damn reluctant..
but upon hearing that bro will be treating dinner..
Excited..
But.. Damn him..
For wanting to sell me tat stupid camera for $500..
-.-'''
I wouldnt buy even if its half price or watever..
unless its free..
lol..
$500 isnt worth to start wif..
so bulky, ugly, out-of-fashion..
perhaps i dunno cameras well..
$500 for food is so much better for me..
Or I'd rather get a new phone than that..
He cant tricked me..
digital camera would be sufficient if i were to buy 1 ba..
isnt it?
but..
hmm..
If it wasnt for my friends I wouldnt even beg mummy to buy it..
N mummy would stop my allowance for 5wks to get that camera..
NOOOO!
fark..
dulan..
Nvm..
all use money to dei me..
juz u all wait..
Damn..
Im so pathetic..
I WANNNA STOP EATING TO HAVE MORE $$$$$$
lol... anyway..
y am i dulan?
haha..
maybe cameras is not into my consideration ba..
more importantly, I shld get a new hp soon..
this cui hp of mine is at its life n death stage..
ARGH!
im still so pissed over the camera thing..
I seldom lose..
I will see if i likes it tml n decide on my 2nd move..
hmm.. not a day to blog bout everything that happened..
Use treat to tempt my entire family summore..
Y cant i juz lived without food?
sian..
bye~

- LifeGoesOn~

Monday, February 23, 2009

Went out wif the sweetgirls for job agencies 2day..
As usual, I was late..
Sorry for the wait ahxiang n ahyan.. >.<
After that went to sebawang shopping centre wif melia n ahyan while peggy went out wif frens n ahxiang meet her bf..
waited soooooooooo long for the stupid ssc bus.. -.-'''
shopped for 1hr..
brought shorts from cotton on again..
N random stuff from daiso..

A day gone juz like tat..
Owww.. tml will be having fyp..
wed n thur will be working..
fri night will be gg out wif elena to have supper.. (YEAH~ driving out~)
sat would be late night movie wif auntie 10 n prissy..
sun would be bee's baby first mth...
PACKED!!
omg..
im gonna spend soooo much this fri sat n sun..
but soooo blissed..
those "I miss" is being fulfilled..
Life's so much better this way...
pay day is coming.. lol.. $184 tis mth..
As lil as it could eva be..
damn..
I guess things would work better if i cont scamming my mum's $..
-.-'''
NO.. dun anyhow think.. definately im not a blood sucker..
IM NOT A SPOILT BRAT!
I do work.. juz that I dun earn much.. -.-'''
ahhhh... but as compared to my besties..
guess they juz worked harder than i do..
couldn't seems to find the chiongster me nowadays..
energy seems to be running low too..
feeling kinda tired everyday...
perhaps due my slping disorder..
or im always feeling too full to fall aslp?
-.-'''
I need to charge some battery of life or pump my friendship fuel..
feeling weird lately...
but couldn't seems to tell whr the problem lies..
(sighs)
anyway...
Im not feeling sad ya?
im feeling happy 2day..
LOL...
once again..
killed by the pms...
I wanna start swimming, jogging, badminton, basketball and gym~~~
I wonder whose gonna control my appetite nowadays?
hopefully i aint much eating bcuz i was feeling empty n bored..
hmm..
I need some books to kill time..
things will get better after thur..
bcuz..
haha.. dun tell you...
LOL.. -.-'''
cuz EXAMS OVER~
=)
shall blog when i have more to tell..
gonna get more pics too..
bye~

- LifeGoesOn~

Sunday, February 22, 2009

Have 100% faith in my answer...
=)
Sometimes you have to believe that u're better off than others..
Not bcuz u're better than them or is more worthwhile to be wif..
but bcuz u r who u r... Therefore u cant be missed to be a good friend of mine..
We should never compare ourself wif others..
Cuz true friends never will..
Juz sometimes when they need some assurance,
that friend will always be thr to acknoledge the importance of their existence..
perhaps you would have felt happy over it...
but i would like to tell you that..
U've made my day...
Thanks...
Perhaps words juz cant prove everything...
someday, time will reveal its answer..

*ps..old sch quotes
Friends are like stars, Some cannot be seen but is always there...
friendship is talking to your best friend without words..(countering ur sentence)
or rather im not 1 that has lots to tell and could bore ppl out easily..

alrites..
slpy..

I may not be a gd friend..
but I'll always make myself worthwhile being ur friend if u treat me as a good friend..
Im sure i will..

Ciao~
random?
cuz its not meant for u..
haha...
not random..
tio liao..
for u...

- LifeGoesOn~

Hmm...
Stayed over at jiu ma house..
Feeling much better now..
Getting over the pms period..
Finally.. My appetite has gone back to the usual..
No more eating like crazy and no more eating too little..
3 meals a day, swee.. gum gum ho..
Perhaps its oso bcuz I have let down a lot of burden in me that I can start eating less..
haha.. nvm...

Haha..
had a lot of "I Miss" recently..
I miss my secondary sch days..
I miss the fun I had during TAF lessons and competition whr I am my frens would play like kids..
I miss the days whr I was in band, having the one for all, all for one spirit..
I miss my sec sch life, juz bcuz my hair was gold, frens will call me da jie..bcuz Im the only 1 that was only called to see the principal while the rest were warned to dye back their hair..
Bcuz the principal has no idea what to do to me..
haha.. N he did rmbed my name even when im in poly.. LOL?
I dun look like a bad kid.. but.. my results, my attire n hair n ear studs always prove otherwise..
>.< Was named the silent killer in my secondary sch days?
haha.. oh yea..
I miss zahidah!!
Recently she sent me some mails bout frenship..
Made me rmb our past whr we had so much fun tgt..
Thou i still hated her messing up my hair n she would call it fun..
haha...
I miss my bunch of cuxz..
whr we would hangout tgt..
gg clubbing, bbq,ton-ing over at ea other hse..
having fun tgt, drinking and mj-ing and yet talking our hearts out to ea other over difficult problems..
but bcuz bee had a kid to look after now..
everything seems to have drifted away..
however, I still miss you all.. bee, lian,ling and rachel..
I miss my cuxz!!
It was kinda sad that we werent able to rule the entire bus again during cny juz bcuz we didnt had time to meet every1 out..
I miss guitaring wif guitar siao siao girls..
striving for performance and everything juz paid off bcuz our hard work is felt by the audience..
doing the best for our passion..
I miss sweetgirls + miss eugene..
Where we would have fun taking photos tgt, outing tgt, gossips tgt...
so much fun and always that enjoyable..
Perhaps afterall,
they r the ones that makes my poly life so worthwhile coming for..
=)
I miss the times when my entire family would sit tgt in the living room to chat even if its crapping..
I miss my the times wif my besties 10 and pris..
I miss those time whr we would play so crazily..
That they make my secondary life so damn jialat..
those u dare me n I dare you, you challenge me n I challenge you attitude..
time whr prissy will share all her fan club thing n we would be so obbsessed with her over it..
I miss my bestest elena..
miss the time we had lots of late night movie..
miss the time whr I clique so well wif ur family n u would think ur mum is making use of me..
I miss the time whr u would FORCED me to study, n in the end everything juz paid off so perfectly...
I miss those memories..
I misses everything n every1...
Another pms day?
A gd 1 thou...
Loves...

- LifeGoesOn~

Saturday, February 21, 2009

AAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH...
Im seriously coping wif the worst cramps in my life..
=(
It felt as thou I had my lower body is paralazed bcuz of the pain..
Feeling so weak all over..
Intended to go out.. but in the end gave it as miss..
BUT, I really wanna go out..
haiz..
Only ate 3 biscuit..
imagine me only eating 3 biscult..
Can u feel the pain?
LOL!
Tis stupid da yi ma is juz making my pms mood worst..
All I could do is slp n rest.. N its only the first day.. =(

Is tml gonna be worst?
Anyway...
Im still waiting for elena to drive me out..
but if pms visits the both of us..
LOL.. rather not go out..
U noe..
Pms can be so scary at times..

Life's rather simple the past few days..
enjoying myself wif frens,
Working when I shld be working..
eating out wif mummy for breakfast and gg shopping wif her..

Had tis meerubus..
Wif a mini fish..
SCARY?
Oso brought a computer table from IKEA while gg out wif her..
Nth could be better than a mummy's girl.. cuz u juz dun need to spend any cents.
As for daddy's case(Ever since he started working)..
If you could receive $100/wk..
$400/mth..
N if u're schling..
U have all tgt $600/mth..
excluding transport..
bills that u've spent were paid by ur brother..
On top of that u have a part time job..
Will u be more than happy?
Sometimes..
Its better if my family were poorer..
Tis is bcuz mummy wun be gg out everywks to gamble..
Or rather my relatives wouldn't be coming to gamble..
Daddy wouldn't have the need to work 7days/wk n think that i will be feeling happy bcuz I was given $..
thou his job was easy $ bcuz of his experiences in his field..
But..
sometimes it does really hurts to see him being so packed wif work..
But arnt i a spoilt brat myself to treat $ as nth?
Is $ really happiness?
I hated tis empty feeling..
Were frens my frens juz bcuz I can lend them without hesistation?
Will not mind if they 4got bout it?
Or is it bcuz of $, I had good frens rather than my capability of making 1 myself?
Haiz..
I really hate my pms day..
it makes me think so much..
Soo tiring...

- LifeGoesOn~

kooped from ginny.. =)

- LifeGoesOn~

Wednesday, February 18, 2009

Sometimes I really wonder if I could be a fren worthwhile to make..
But afterall..
I still failed..
It's true that there after friends better off than I am..
Bcuz their words sounds nicer to ppl ears but mine juz doesnt bcuz I'd rather speaks the truth..
I learnt it from my bestie that, if they are feeling sad.. As a good friend.. U should totally agrees with them to make them feel better.. N if u're a gd friend urself.. u will..
But perhaps..
There are people really that handles friendship better than i am..
therefore I could not do anything or the slightest bit of things when people are in need of help..
Or is it bcuz im often too neutral in a grp..
I could only stand alone?
Or I shld be like them?
To drift n be better off with them?
Its true that sometimes.. things are better if we didnt face it..
To fade as time goes by..
But i'll always stick wif my own principles and goals..
'u never try u'll never noe..'
'Friends will only drift away when they are not constantly thr 4 ea other'
'True friends and besties are the 1's that puts trust in one another'
Haiz.. but thr's always otherwise dun they?
perhaps..
I'm not a good friend to start wif..
I dun even noe how best is my best friend..
Or how best am i to them..
If I really think bout it.. who is the 1 that cares bout how I feel other than me caring bout how they feel?
Haiz..
2.30am..
I'm thinking too much..
I shld get some rest..
pls do not tag bout it..
I juz wished to feel better blogging..

- LifeGoesOn~

Advance Happy Birthday To Yu Xiang~
=)
Haha! welcome to the 20 yr old club when it hits 12..
A great day today wif the guitar siao siao..
Meeting up was acutally 6pm..
But had to meet up earlier to buy yuxiang's present..
So chien yu, ginny n me had to meet up earlier to buy present..
Meet up at 3pm and we shopped the entire orchard n couldnt find anything that was suitable for her..
In the end.. finally stop by at orchard cineleisure n finally got her a bag..(laptop cum shoulder bag..) it was nice thou..
N b4 meeting her up went to get the cakes..
thou it melted when we had our buffet at sakura.. its still nice..
Again.. we had our sukura buffet again when the 4 of us meet..
hmm.. haha.. had lots of fun joy n laughter..
Its almost impossible to be emo in this clique..
Juz simply bcuz they r too siao siao..
U'll juz keep laughing tgt until the end of the day..
funny things like aladdin prawn joke, siew mai hiding, knife prank, sticky honey joke..
lol.. almost everything is funny wif them ard..
buffet was great.. had a satisfying dinner..
=)
but laughing wif a stomach full is -.-'''..
haha..
took some photos and went to cineleisure again..
To double check if the bag was wat yu xiang wans..(can be exchange)
happily.. it was..
brought some anklet bands wif them..
Veri Nice..
haha.. but nowadays..
ppl dun really likes it anymore..
=(
but im happy we does..
hahaz..
after tat.. hm sweet hm..
A long day...
But everything was worthwhile..
the outing..
Something once in a while,
Could actually contributes so much more to the happiness and joy that people strive to achieve as compared to those u meet often..
Sometimes.. things juz works miraculously dun they?
haha.. alrights..
picture will be uploaded when i've got the pics from them..
=)

haha.. isnt gg out juz better than rotting at hm?

- LifeGoesOn~

Monday, February 16, 2009

Gratz to elena on getting her driving lesson on the first attempt..
Yeaaaa...
-.-''' anyway..
already noes that she'll pass..
haha..
Cuz she's a person that strives for what she wans..
Using hardwork,intellegence and perservarance to succeed..
In short, A total opposite from me..
owww...
Im not sad..
Im happy bcuz she sets an example for me to strive..
Im happy.. bcuz she's my friend..
haha..
Random..
Drive me out!!!
vroom vroom...

- LifeGoesOn~

Sunday, February 15, 2009

hmm...
Today is goooooddd...
A day where i can finally stay at hm and slack..
but still...
Im sooo tired..
Basically.. today is "scam mummy's money day"
Too bad I only manage to scam $20..
Oh god..
How to live wif tis pathetic $?
>.<
Sry sweetgirls.. didnt mean to fly plane..
haha.. now u noe y I dun feel like gg out?
I've been gg out everyday..
Transportation is like omg?
Making my $ deplete soo fast..

Hmm.. Really had to manage my $ well..
the $100 that daddy give on fri is like.. Gone?
ARGH..
So i'll awaits every fri from now...
Hopefully the amt always stays the same..
LOL!
=(
But mummy definately wun allow tat..
ok..
I have to start working more..
However.. ZZZ.. have been giving lots of available dates..
but in the end they gave me pathetic shifts..
IM SO GONNA CHANGE TIS FCUKING JOB..
Heck le..
Im chionging..
I need to live up to my surname.. LOL? CHEONG AR~

Rmbing that I had to work tml sux..
waking up at 5am sux!
Or shld i take rotating shifts?
oh F***
suddenly so desperate for $..
-.-'''
N its all bcuz lil bro currently has more $ than me..
=\ if i got $100, y muz he have $50 when he doesnt even noe whr to spend the $ on..
Ok.. No excuses..
Like what big bro says..
I sux..
*giving that watever face*
...
AHHHHHHHHH... tis is killing me..
>.<>
juz dun like losing to my idiotic brothes..
Gonna save up to buy a new hp too..
My current hp is at its "cui-ness" stage..
But its ok..
=)
The time I could be more mature in handling $..
but.. lol.. would be 4getting it after a while..
$ is nth more than juz some useless paper..
-_______-'''
I HAVE SOOO MANY THINGS THAT $ CANT BUY..
lol?
entertaining myself..
haha..

Anyway..
Nikon D 60..
This is what my bro's gonna get in 1wk time..
If his not selling..
YES~~~
Its mine..
But.. hmm..
If I were to tell him to give me..
Believe it or not..
He will..
Tis is my brother...
HAHA!
Its our genes la!
However.. I couldnt be as generous as him to lend $4000 to frens to GAMBLE..
I dun have tat much $..
T.T
But if u're imp to me..
I could go as far as risking my life..
jiang yi qi.. *pat chest*
However.. bro's case is plain stupidity..
gamble is like.. WTF?
but somehow.. we belong to the same kind..
Its hard to tell y..

Ok..
A New card on my notice board..
thank you elena~
oh ya.. N 10 for the jing sha? LOL..
that's all folks..
bye~

- LifeGoesOn~

Saturday, February 14, 2009

Fri,
Cupcake session on fri over at amelia's house was great...
Had lots of fun baking cupcakes..
The first time I've bake smth..
N.. for those who have received it..
Count urself lucky as its filled wif 100% of my love..
hahaha!
dun vomit..

Was super tired today..
had a long chat wif chris after getting back yesterday..
luckily he had to be called back for duty..
If not I dun really noe how to reject others..

Woke up at 5am.. worked am shift again..
After working went to meet elena to pass her my cupcakes..
It has been soo damn long ever since i've last meet her..
Gd thing everything stays the same..
But perhaps bcuz i was too tired..
Lil words come out of my mouth..
Anyway.. thank you for ur card..
LOVES!
however.. in the end the cupcakes were invaded by the ants and had to be thrown..
sadded dao~

After that bus hm..
it was already reaching 9pm and pris n 10 came over to zou bo..
In the end they gambled "rabi" wif my family n relative..
Something new to them..
N we've each won $5~ wooh~ lol..
N they bused hm ard 12am..
this is how i spend my valentine..

was contacting chris via sms when I had time..
polite, understanding, n he could still rmb the 20bucks thingy..
a nv "turn off" 2day..
however.. nope..
frens r frens..
I shld always rmb..

Was super broke now due to spending too much on transportation..
Having too much "activities"
Some other reasons..
So...
I truly hoped u all wun ask me out until next mth..
LOL!
Im serious..
Kinda headache now..
too much upcoming events..
gonna reject most if its not impt n will be spending a lot..
Pls pardon my BROKENESS~
lol..
bro juz won a nikon D60 during his D&D..
wow?
random..
Hmm...
juz feeling rather complicated..
The one i care doesnt care...
the one i doesnt care cared so much..
I'm tired...
How I wish ppl could swopped..
Nvm..
I still loves every1 for who they r..
my bestest n besties..
A happy valentine..

haiz..
Sometimes.. I dun even noe what i wan..
I wonder if u cared as much as i did..
Over some incidents.. I juz cant bear to not feel sad...
haha..
I noe its hard to understand..
dun figure le..

- LifeGoesOn~

Thursday, February 12, 2009

Working is fun 2day..
Especially wif sha..
Gossip a lot bout tonny(manager)..
He sux!
Tua me to work..
Im soooo gonna make him suffer...
go tua 1 old bird.. he sure have guts..
lol..
hmm.. wonder if i shld cont working at spinelli..
its really a super flexible work..
can work can dun work..
take immediate off..
Its only the pay that's so pathetic.. $5/hr.. zzz
Thus.. finding new job is oso not easy as we gotta apapt to new env..
mummy n daddy oso discourages me to find a new job..
ahhhh.. wat shld i do?

Helped ahyan buy her 'new moon' at airport after work..
INDEED! Its cheaper.. hehe.. 1 gd thing bout airport staff..
lol.. really wonder what's so nice bout storybooks..
4 what i noe..
Its heavy n bulky..
HAHA..
nth's better than self-help book..
gonna get myself 1 soon..
X)

Went to get my typhoid injection after that..
Damn.. my arm hurts.. n im down wif a fever..
was told to have panadol by the nurse after I get back..
but, oh my.. I dun have panadol at hm.. -.-'''
hopefully will get well tml..
Cuz tml is a long n fun day wif the sweetgirls...
doing smth for Valentine's day..
owww...
Sweet eh?
I think so too.. hahaa..

but too bad.. im working on V.day..
N shld be gg out wif my besties..
Wondering if I shld go out wif him..
Juz bcuz he said that he'll be alone..
-.-''' but to go out on V.day..
it will only makes the situtation weird if thr r so much couples outside..
ok.. set.. last min retreat..
Since im asking my super duper gd besties out..
owww... arn't u all the fortunate 1's?
LOL!
>_____<
dun bash me up..
ok.. i shall not be too high..
temp wun drop.. haha..
bye~

How would you celebrate ur valentine's day?

- LifeGoesOn~

Wednesday, February 11, 2009

Kooped picture from ginny...
sweet?
really had a lot of fun with themm..
haha..

- LifeGoesOn~

gonna keep it short n sweet...(tired)
picture were taken on mon..
(kooped ahyan's photo cuz... T.T no 1 send me photos)
went vivo after interviewing..

went to ah yan's house on tue for sushi making..
(pictures not wif me again)
wif amelia and peggy..
after that mj session..

Its so gd to say out loud that
I HAVE GREAT POLY FRENS~

today, went out wif guitar siao siao~
(pictures wif ginny)
WOOTS..
despite me not inside guitar club anymore..
my spirit is always thr to support u all.. LOL!
haha... gg out wif them next wed.. yu xiang's birdday... haha!

Brought a kappa bag..

sooooo cheap!
lol.. they r as usual so fun to be wif..
so laughable n tokable.. haha
oh... im missing guitar club..
but for wat i noe from them bout the club..
it ok.. HAHA!
ok.. shall practice my guitar tml after work..

Was asked to go out yesterday and 2day wif chris..
but.. juz brushes him off wif not msging..
N telling him i was bz wif frens..
Perhaps.. I wanted my friendship more that juz sum1 to ruin my life..
nvm... leaving him aside...

Oh ya.. valentine's day is coming..
=)
duh... if u're thinking im gg out wif chris..
NOOOOOOOOO?
I have better plans..
4 my love ones..
*wink*

I wonder if I could pass them to all..
hopefully yess...

Ok.. I'll awaits fri cupcake session wif sweetgirls again..
gotta slp..
waking up at 5am tml..
I miss you all..
miss me 2..

haha.. im soo happy everyday...

With love,
huiling..

*note.. wif bestie its uncomparably EVEN MORE happy..
so.. dun jealous luh..
jia you wif ur test, fpt n main exam!
N the other 2..
main exam and coping wif hardship..
Im soooo free... yet u all r not..
kinda envy frens that always hang out tgt..
miss those days..
alrite..
I shld stay happy..
Bye~

- LifeGoesOn~

Sunday, February 8, 2009

Forever My Best friend..
A simple sentence that makes so much difference to the friendship..
It aint easy being my besties..
Bcuz im my true self when I am with them..
They were the 1's that could stay silent wif me, yet it was a fruitful communication..
The ones that witness my craziness, being so talkative that they ask me to shuddup..
accepts me being sensitive juz bcuz I've always expected "perfect" friendship..
Tolerates my nonsense when they can choose not to..
.
Im really glad im still the friend u could confide in when troubles came..
Perhaps bcuz u couldnt get thru ur bf at that moment..
but its more that enough for me to feel better for this friendship..
I noe u wun wanna rely on any1 but urself when hard times come..
So the only thing I could say is..
U're forever and always my bestie..
Sorrow or joy.. im forever thr to share..
.
Next, I was rathered happy yesterday..
First thing I noe..
I have a fren that treasured friendship as much as I do..
It felt gd..
bcuz im not alone..
N..
If u're one that is true to friendship..
HEHEHE...
-.-'''
It'd be friends I will hold on to..
shall not mention too much.. =)
Second, thanks chris for helping me out during bad times..
lol.. N thanks to him.. I'll zong you qing se even more..

Alrites.. Im happy 2day..
yet i couldnt express myself much..
sometimes..
Its better to not blog bout everything..
bcuz.. things r meant to be...
somehow juz u n me..
Not meant to be shared..
HAHA?
ciao~

- LifeGoesOn~

Saturday, February 7, 2009

(please view ahyan's blog to noe what happened yesterday..as i dun really have the time to do so..)
;thanks for the accompaniment for the job interview...and thanks ahyan keeping us when we had no whr to go..

Was rather tired today..
Yet.. bcuz of it being family day..
My relatives "had" to come..
Somehow the sound of the mj irritates my ears..

I was filled wif so much enthusiam to blog bout what happened yesterday..
However..
zzzz.. tis niece of mine is getting on my nerves..
juz bcuz she wans to play the com..
she intrude into my privacy!
N rushes me to use the com..
Sometimes I really hate tis family day excuse whr they actually come n gamble...
A family day..
Yet I was always not a part of it..
Freedom?
I guess they dun even bother bout my existence..
I hate them for being bias and treasured my brothers so much more..
I hate them for always using monetary as concern to think that I would be happy..
Family?
I dun even feel that I had one..
It had never been something important to me..
Was never my priority..
I could hardly even count how much happiness they have gave me..

Haiz.. Y am I always at my limits nowadays?
It really pissed me..
Y do I have to act as if im ok when Im not ok at all?

If crying helps..
Y does it gets more and more painful?
Juz bcuz I felt tat no 1 cares bout me..
Im making a big fuss over here..
How mature could I be..
but sometimes..
I'd really wish I wasn't that understanding and giving..
I juz wish to give in a bit to tat constantly bleeding heart..
To noe that im striving so hard for recognition is wrong..
Yet im still falling deeper and deeper to my deadliest flaws..
If I ever die immediately without goodbyes..
Will u cry for me?

Sometimes I dun really noe what or why im crying..
It sux that I've always bottled things up N explode when it couldnt hold on anymore..
I've always been understanding..
So why wun the people I cared for understands me for once?
Y cant I be selfish to care bout how I feel first for once?
Im getting soo tired..
Im losing myself soo much faster than I can handle..
Im sick of everything...

- LifeGoesOn~

Thursday, February 5, 2009

was rather disappointed..
tot that could meet up..
but..
but ur bz schedule ruined it..
was in cloud nine..
the next moment I fell to the ground..
haha!
its ok!
meet up soon..
I hope..
haiz..

- LifeGoesOn~

Juz got to noe a moment ago that bee gave birth to a cute cute baby girl last sat..
Shall go n visit her soon!
imy!

Finally finished reading the power of female friendship..
I like the last chapter 'best friendships'
somehow or rather..
the same.. hehe.. tis means i've really got my ultimate friendship..

No matter how best friendship loses its mutuality , consistency , their sharing , even their positive emotions..
*note, as mention from the book ( missing even one of these can cause the rest to tumble down)
Best friendship goes beyond the master checklist..
There is this sort of glue that keeps best friends together through thick and thin, through fights and small betrayal , lies and temporarily bad behavior.
It has something to do with King/Queen, Warrior, Magician and Lover, KWML personality..
There's an unbreakable bond in frenship of opposite of KWML.
Queen paired with Magician and Warrior paired with Lover.
They may have a period of win-lose or destructive behavior between them,fail to share tgt,be seperated and communicate poorly.
However, the glue keeps them bound potentially even if all four pillars of the master checklist have hallen down..
A true soul-mate friend can make us grow even when we are at our worst..
Remember, character is destiny..
mature character always and without fail leads to quality friendships.

haha.. My frenship used to be sooo soo imature..
Its bcuz "we" r being the false self in taking different roles of the KWML.
Now...
After sooo much thick and thin..
I believed that we've grown sooo mature that this glue is the unbreakable force that keeps our frienship gg even up till now..
LOL?
I really didnt noe that unbreakable best friends were actually friends of completely differnent personality..
-.-''' to think of it..
yes.. our personality is completely opposite..
u sux.. i rock!
haha..
im joking!
>.<
juz to say..
If im a great listener, I thank you for being speaker that could advice me in almost everything..
I thank you being confident in whateva u do.. that u countlessly boost my self-esteem..
Alway being so full of energy to charge me up..
being decisive to accommodate my indecisiveness..
but if u r mature im not childish ya???
perhaps tis is what u've told be.. bcuz we r different.. therefore we are best friends..
Thank you for being that what the book mention!

Thanks to tis book..
Im treasuring my besties even more..
Despite the fact that there thr might be friendship problem without "communication" logic..
Word can only convey 3% of communication
muscles of face in person can convey 97% of communication
I believe somehow this glue will work fine..
Its the trust that counts..
Right?
X)

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I wonder if u feels the same..

- LifeGoesOn~

Wednesday, February 4, 2009

Didnt have much energy to work today..
Its super tiring to wake up at 5am to prepare for work..
Can no longer ask daddy to send me to work place..
His FINALLY working again..
After sooooo long..
Kinda envy daddy's n browie's job..
liked their working clothes "overall" where it is in a full piece, top n btm linked tgt..
white is the nicest.. n daddy's got it..
bro's 1 is orange..
I wonder if im working in sci industries what colour will i get.. LOL.. am i dreaming too much?
Be it engineering or science field.. im not gonna put my dip to a waste..
So wanna work at big big factories when i complete my studies..

hmm.. soo... what job shld i get?
i mean.. for now..
mummy told me to cont tis Spinelli job..
cuz I dun need to work hard for $ now since daddy's working n its only a 2mths break..
but.. Spinelli's getting bored..
tot of working at minitoon; $5.50/hr..
shld i?
already brought soooo many sets of newspaper..
Yet I couldnt find a job that suits every1's request..
shall not mention bout it..

Sometimes I'd really wonder if im doing the right things..
Have I gone too far for others that I've forgotten everything bout myself..
It drains me dry..
Perhaps im juz too tired today..
Nevertheless.. I muz blame myself..
afterall im the 1 that decides my own scheduls..
ahh... sometimes.. I really wish my besties were here for me..
selfish.. but they r the only 1 that decides for me..
the only ppl that helps me..
the only ppl that I could rely on..
Haha.. to be honest..
Im not sum1 that likes deciding for others..
I dun like interfering in something called "life"
I dun like being the big boss to call the shot..
but often.. reality forced us to be who we dun wan to be..
juz like the job im having now..
I dun like interacting..
I dun like smiling..
I wish to work alone and my colleague would stfu cuz he/she is juz a colleague but not my friends..(im not anti.. but I juz dun like it when I dun feel like toking n u kept toking)
but its not possible isnt it?
hmm... im being sooo childish nowadays..
y am i so worked up?
im losing so much of my cool..
I seems to start neglecting how others feel..
haiz..
I need to calm myself down n get more rest..
my patience level is at its limit..
or rather pms is coming?
ARGH.........
=(
I wish to put a stop to everything..
Juz dun feel like interacting wif this world anymore..
Life's is getting a lil too out of hand..
help?

I really wish thr r ppl who could feel how I feel...

- LifeGoesOn~

Tuesday, February 3, 2009

Working in spinelli is getting boring..
Super reluctant to work..
Slacked too much..
Went to renew my airport pass..
thanks! love you to the max for helping me everytime when im in need of help..
bcuz of ur help.. I dun need to attend the stupid 9-5 course again..
=D
thank you soooooo much!
after renewing the pass.. went to shop ard.. and asked bout my sakae vip card..
They took almost 1mth.. and still the card was yet to be rdy.. tsk! im so not gonna be the vip next yr..
shopped ard.. brought some food and some random stuff..
then hm sweet hm..
tot of exercising..
but my entire body was acheing..
immm soo fat n old.. -____-'''
muz start exercising.. to lose this freaking 2kg that i've gained..

Can only meet fyp advisor after 20th feb..
Sooo wish to find admin job and work..
Hecking whateva that comes in my way..
But.. Possible?
No... It's not..
HAIZ!!!!
I WANNA EARN BIG BUCKS!
stupid fyp..
Tot I can work as much as I like tis 2mths..
Everything is ruined bcuz of fyp..
*sobz*
I SO WANNA GET RID OF TIS $5/hr JOB!!!
Juz need more $ so that when my besties are having their hol..
Then I could enjoy more than usual..
True that $ doesnt bring happiness..
But $ can gives sastifaction...
Im so not gonna waste this 2 mths..
But somehow...
I feel that I dun have much energy to keep me gg..
kinda get tired too easily..
I need some fuel of friendship..
shall hang in thr for another 1 mth..
until they all complete their main exam..
=)
wish me luck...
hopefully u'll see a better me by then..
JIA YOU to u!
JIA YOU to myself!

- LifeGoesOn~

Monday, February 2, 2009

Have been reading this self-help book called
"The Power Of Female Friendship"
Came upon this chapter..
'Friends in need..'
kinda leaves a deep impression..
N.. i shall share wif u..
Or u can choose to ignore.. (its ur choice)

Sue; party A that has just lost her love ones..
Kate;party B,her friend.
the story goes..

The sense of thickness in the air embraced Sue completely that she barely noticed when the doorbell rang. She told herself she should answer it,but her body failed to follow the command.Instead, She continued to try to make the turkey sanwich for Aunt Jess that she'd been trying to make for the past 10minutes.
"I came as soon as I heard"
Sue recognised the voice, but didn't register at first. Only when Kate wrapped her arms around her did Sue realize that her friend was here.She was more than a lil surprise to find Kate in the kitchen with her. In fact, She wasn't even sure how Kate knew what was going on.
"You must be horribly sad," Kate said
Sue's eyes brimmed. "I miss her so much"
Kate hugged her again and then took her hand. "Come on, Lets go."
Sue: "go where?"
Kate: "somewhere quiet. There are so many people here."
Sue: "I really should be here right now.Some people are still on their way."
Kate: " you need a break for this. Come on."

Still feeling as though she was out of sync with the rest of the world, Sue followed Kate to the tiny guest bedroom next to the den. They sat on the bed facing ea other and Kate said,"tell me everything you're feeling"
As dulled as Sue felt, she allowed herself a little inward chuckle. This was classic Kate. How many times had they sat together with other friends while Kate played armchair therpist to the group? Sue wondered why Kate never finished her degree in psycology, choosing to become a paralegal instead.
Kate had a unique way of approaching any problem a friend might be having.She'd ask probing questions and then develop the some life lesson based on her own experience. Sue remembered the time she had a drink with Kate after Brad broke up with her. Kate pulled all kinds of stuff out of her, including things she'd never told anyone else about her love life.Sue had had this kind of experience with Kate before, And it always made her feel a little uneasy. Yet when Kate started sharing intensely intimate details about her own love losses to give Sue some perspective, Sue felt a little consoled. Eventually she herself propping Kate up that night, helping her to overcome regrets over an ex-boyfriend who'd done her wrong.
.....(too much.. cut short)lol?
Over the next few mins, sue shared the details of some of those conversations while Kate offered advice and reflection through her own stories. Sue already knew from several late-night talks that Kate had a very diferent relationship with her mother than Sue had with hers.Kate parents divoced when she was a child, and it was obvious that had left some scars. In fact, it was a rare night when the conversation didn't veer to the divorce at some point.
"Its tough, Sue, I noe. Believe me, I really noe. Getting over the loss of a love one is incredibly difficult. even when you've had some time to prepare. I mean, I knew instinctively that my parents were going to split up because of all those fighting. But when it actually happened, I was devastated."
Kate wiped her eyes and Sue felt a little twinge of sympathy. "I knew all about death in the family," Kate continued. "My parents' divorce was just like death.
Tears now rolled down Kate cheeks. Sue felt the urge to confort her.
And then she drew herself up short. Through the haze of her grief, Sue suddenly saw something with crystal clarity- Kate had come here under the guise of supporting her but she was really seeking support instead. Now that she thought about it, Sue realized that Kate's " counseling sessions" always turned out this way.
She was endlessly needy.
Aruptly, Sue stood up from the bed. "you must go now"
Kate sniffled. "No. I'm going to be here for you."
"you're not her for me,Kate. You're here for you. Please leave."
Kate seems baffled , but she slowly stood up and headed towards the door.Before she left, she turned back and said, "this is no way to treat a friend."
Sue decided not to respond. She knew this was exactly how to treat this friend.

So are u sue that is constantly a needy friend.
Or Kate that goes the extra mile for buddies .However on the long run , depleting themselves and become the worst friend ever?

how to be a supportive.. but mature friend.
you may feel proud of yourself for being a good friend who "goes the extra miles" for your buddies.However, in the long run you tend to deplete yourself entirely and become the worst friend ever, crashing completely and unable to give even the smallest amount to others.
When you continue to give love to a friend who does not or will not grow better boundries(with doors instead of walls;pics below) you will deplete your own energy.

there goes the important part.
When you say no to a friend because you just do not have the resources to share, this is far better than trying to give to others what you don't have to give. This action is not friendly, honestor empathetic. It is childish, even though it might make you feel like you are important and caring.
Think of the instruction they give us at the beginning of airline flights.They tells us that if cabin pressure drops, we should put on our own mask before even helping our children.They don't say this because they want us to be selfish. They say tis becuase they know we need to be strong(have enough oxygen) before we can help others effectively. The same is true of our relations with needy friends.
When you do this, you can avoid being depleted by her and you can show her that she has it in her to be successful and happy. It is just a matter of telling her that her boundary can be fied by getting better at tolerating and hearing the word NO. Doing this makes you more trustworthy as a fren rather than less so. You will be seen as honest and reliable enough to show your friend what's real about life.

argh..
im so lazy to cont how to avoid being a needy fren..
Cheers to myself for lending the books ba.. lol~
but its true..
be it if u're a needy fren or an abundant fren..
we must always know our limits..

the notion of being consistently needy is not an advantage in friendship. Consistencyin friendship needs to be the kind that amplfies good emotion between you. If, when you feel needy, you were to consistently strive for solution to your problem and autonomy over them. You would build your relationship. Seeing this makes your supportive fren feel good even though toy feel bad.
Likewise, if you are supporting a needy fren you can help the friendship by being consistently on message with your belief that your friend can and will learn to solve her problems herself.

while males may handle needy friendship just by avoiding them, a women have that special reptilian-brain challenge of feelings that avoiding a frequently needy frens is "not right"
In your needy friendship , you will have and want to contimue sharing feelingsand ideas with ea other, but this does not mean that you have to have lots of holes in youe boundry in the ways you connect. You can both share and recognize that your fren problems are theirs not yours.

CRAP?
Nono..
after reading this..
I wondered if im that person that doesnt say no to others and in the end cause ppl to have too much reliance on me..
Till the end..
Would i end up like Kate that doesnt even noe she could no longer give but is constantly taking and receiving.
and was actually harming them instead of helping..
Do you feel the same way too?
I believe that im a needy person too..
From what I noe..
I relied too much on my besties..
Im sorry if i were like kate..
Haha..
Now im afraid of giving in too much for others..
could it really be me??
OH GOD..
im scared..
i muz learn to say no and no be a needy fren..
>___<
sry elena..
to think that she'd actually help me for the job thing n resume n so much more despite her being so bz..
set to much reliance on her le la..
T___________T
Im not a bad fren ya?
AM I?
AAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH...
Haiz..
Im sorry to all if im not a good fren..
Serious..
no joke..
nvm.. suan le..
gtg help ppl solve some misunderstanding of others le..
sometimes i really wonder how to say no..
It has always been my nature to agree and say ok or yes..
T____________T
I sux..
haiz..

- LifeGoesOn~