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Thursday, April 24, 2008

today.. 25th april 2008... i shall tell a story! excited? nope.. its 4 my own leisure!

Once upon a time... haha? JKing.. not so lao tao...

There was a girl.. let's named her ling.. ling had never felt that she like any other girl.. she felt that she is uncompareable to them, because.... she tot that she is ALWAYS ugly.. as she is being flawed by god.. leaving her wif ugly features, broad shoulders,fat and worst, ling did not have the long silky hair which ever girl deserved, she was merely reaching bald... knowing it herself that she wasnt perfect, she'd tried all ways to perfect her inner beauty that made her a rather plesant gal...

ling was blessed, with loyal frens and understanding family.. yet, low self-esteem never bare to leave her every second.. she felt she was being pity by everyone.. ling think that she's veri fortunate to have frens who are willing to stick wif her.. therefore she tried her veri best for every1.. and even frens whom are not so worth...

her life was incomplete... ling never believed in love... infact.. she was afraid to do so.. "people are just playing, who would fall for a freak like me" therefore all her reliance falls onto her frens that has brought great misery to her friends as well as herself...

people had told her, she's perfectly fine, build with great personally and looked fine... the more others explained, the more imperfect she felt she was... it doesnt stop bugging her.. infact her thinking get worst as she grows old... her "beauty" seems to be lost with her age...

I may be a pity for ling to felt tis way.. but, without such flaws, ling will never put others into consideration b4 her own, tot of others highly and sees their flaws as something good..

Living with such pain, she was not forgiven by the relistic,cruel beings..
The incident:
child: mummy, what happen 2 her hair
mum: if u're naughty, u'll be like her..
child : i dun wan.. so ugly
Both: *laughs*

ling cried endlessly that night... does she deserve it? why does she have to go through such pain? she tot... but why? its something she cant change? she didnt blame others who said her.. she felt grateful.. For her to once again realise her limitations and not be proud over her inner beauty which people has been praising..

critics has strengthened her in becoming a better person... tears has made her stronger... however.. she has lost herself.. more and more... she has lost the chance 2 voice her opinion... she accommodiate as she was afraid she will lose others for good...

Now, ling is still struggling wif herself... until one day... she TOT that there's some1 that has changed her life... that some1...

=) shall cont if thr's respond.... gtg study le... T____T

loves, huiling...

- LifeGoesOn~

Friday, April 18, 2008

Friday,18th April 2008.
Im so tried? it feels as if my brain is literally squeezed dry and my bones shattering? felt extremely exhausted.. science science and MORE SCIENCE everyday... chem,bio,phy then material sci... n guess what? why can all facilitator speaks english clearly? No to say bout me being racist... But i've really got no idea what those INDIANS and FRENCH ppl is say? their english just seemed so " ALIEN LANGUAGE"? science is already that stressful yet they still give me this crap stuff..
something bout my class ba... one word to describe.. "COMPETITIVE" everyone was like schling everyday.. yet what i do is just plain slacking.. the whole class almost know ea other and i was like gg ard "???" on my face what the **** is his/her name... haha? sry... i juz dun rmb who u r.. but thr's 1 person... find him rather kind.. perhaps he noe's that im not that into schling type of person then a lot of things he will keep me updated... eg. next fri rmb 2 buy ur lab clothes if not cannot go lab.. etc.etc. juz find this attitude worth praising loh... nothing bout interested or not.. ^^the rest is like.. so i hate to the core is overly expressive type of ppl juz wanna showoff what you noe.. (brings suffer to my grades) hate them to core... but the girls thr are rather reserved... juz like me... guai guai de... haha!!
ok... something bout my personal things.. im really thinking real hard in falling 4 others or not? to put another person into account or not when i myself dunno whether i should go into a relationship or not? its veri veri irritating when u keep reminding urself bout something u cant solve.. find it real hard to accept some1 else when my life is perfectly fine juz like that kind of feeling.. but! I REALLY DUNNO? haiz.. but to be honest... i felt that the guys is only playing... but im not taking anything seriously either... juz that... should i even waste my time???? headache... SILENT SCREAMS!
huiling...

- LifeGoesOn~

Tuesday, April 8, 2008

WOOOHOO~ It's my first day of sch... or rather second? -___-''' yup... u're right... skipped my firsy day of school... went shopping wif frens juz bcuz my lappy is nt working! haha! dragged andrea n lyvia down juz 2 repair my lappy.. they insisted... thr's nth i could do.. BUT.. thr's gd frens u could make in poly ya? juz gotta try.. HARD.. finding... luckily i had many many gd frens in my guitar... juz that they r all ENTHU ppl...
oh ya... juz to say its the 8th of april 2008.. tuesday.. so happy tml no sch... but! stupidly.. guitar meeting.. n i had to go all the way to woodland?? zzz.. anyway... school sux... new sem.. stupidly i had to wait 4 millions n millions of bus until i can board that idiotic 161 to school??? cant stand those yr1's students.. their lessons starts at 9am the so enthu wanna squeeze with all those seniors that had to reach sch by 8.30? lame rite? ahiyo... KIASU~ Seriously? get to know my new class 2day.. god.. i think i will not interact with them much... cuz i already had my clique to click wif? used to my class ppl thru photos... tot they r all ah beng and ah lian type.. photos are juz so deciving... lol... a lot of nerd nerd kind of ppl in my class.. LOLS.. some gals are like thick specs, metal frame kinda gal.... =) gd anyway... no competition.. HAHA..
btw, yr 2 le... gonna JY!! as a senior and as a student! future guitar pro n diploma holder to be!! CHIONG AR~ so tired.. didnt had much sleep almost everyday.. then when frens tok 2 me i was like.. *nod* hmmm... ok.. kind of attitude... sry... but im juz TIRED.. had to wake up like pri n sec sch kids.. 6.15am bath... 7+am go take bus... squeeze wif crappy ppl... juz that go back later than they do? esp when i have guitar? which is like 10pm? T_T my life... so simple ya?
anyway... its been long since i've update this blog.. bzing wif my own diary.. frenz n peeps.. something to comment on relationship stuff.staying single doesnt mean no 1 is concened bout u.. and being attached doesnt mean u're being cared.. something random but its true.. as a gal.. we shld learn how to protect ourself than admitting that we are bound to lose out for guys... rite auntie 10? haha... guess thr's more to learn for myself in guys as well as gals... ^^ future psycologist... i mean.. part time... haha!! jk... if i can noe what myself n others think is happiness.. y nt?
haiz... had to go attend guitar real soon... it's alrite.. my passion anyway.. been real happy nowadays... or rather... dun wanna think bout the bad times... i had all i wan... hard to think otherwise! ok ba... end here... hope i'll update soon.. you yi wan sui~

- LifeGoesOn~