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` NAME: Huiling
` D.O.B: 12/01/89
` Age: 20
` School: Republic Poly
` Course: Diploma In Material Science
` part-time/full-time: Student cum Barista
` characteristic: Emo-ism
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Sunday, September 28, 2008


Skipped guitar on fri..26th sept..
the first thing i do when i reach hm..
SLEEP!
SO happy to see mummy n daddy heartache bcuz of me..
this is the only moment I can feel that im being pampered..
childish? haha.. but i LONGED for my family to love me as much as how the other family..
being quiet every moment shall proves how my





family brought me up..
IM ALWAYS SO COOL?! lol...


but!
im cold on the outside warm on the inside de!!
esp when it come to my frens and cousins..
haha.. BHB~

Saturday! 27th sept
HAPPY BDAY LING!

Ling organize chalet instead of pubbing..
therefore more of our cousins and relatives could join in..
it was a bit disheartening.. where we could on meet every1 once in a while ever since MaaMaa's death..
X)
still misses her...
she's my only grandparent I get to meet..
I wonder y ppl juz treat their grandparents like shit,
scolding them, say they are smelly..
such people dun deserve to live..
HAIZ..
If I eva had more time for her...
understand her situation facing life and death..
other than not telling me she has been sent into the hospital to fight wif the deathgod..
arn't my parents juz unfair?
but crying just couldnt bring her back..
that is when my i start bottling up my feelings..
lock my heart..
bearing in mind that I shld treasure every1 that loves me..
I cant afford to lose anymore of my pillars of support.

OMG! off topic!
the bonding of me n cousins is basically close and strong is bcuz of maamaa!
the 1 that brings us tgt..
at her house..
all we do is creating fights, ride bicycle ard neighobourhood, catching on the whole apartment..
this proves y all my cousins is ah lian n ah beng ba..
im well reserved.. LOL!
Nevertheless, I wished ling could be happy wif whateva thing she do..
even if she was to walk the wrong path of life getting involved wif stupid stuff..
I just admired her spirit of doing things her way..
at times.. we shld think for ourself that we only get to lived once...
so.. we shld be stopped by rules made by idiotic mankind..
at least we are happy doing what we WAN?
haiz..
im so emotional 2day..
perhaps cuz i have too lil slp..
tonn until 5am wor!
I can feel myself having fever soon..
SUNDAY!
sry prissy n 10..
PS u all..
If gym my bone really will cui..
too tired..
haha.. luckily u all are tired too..
shall have it next sunday! misses! gathering gather~
WOHOOO!

huiling's so lucky to be huiling..
to be able to have wonderful cuxs and frens..
never forgetting, love my family..
at least im the miss NICE u all get to see how..
GENES GENES!!!
but i juz wonder i dun have their 3 8 mouth..
OOPS!
cool cool always..
ciaos..
loves!!!!

- LifeGoesOn~

Friday, September 26, 2008



Worked for events..
the working environment are mainly ANG MOs..
I wun be surprise if I have their slang n accent someday..
hopefully I dun.. X)
this r all the picture i could take over thr as I was working with ppl from the PANTRY school..
awesome ppl.. cool chefs, waiter and waitress..
(****) the chef that earns $65/hr..
but.. his steak sandwich n lamb burger is so so so delicious..
too bad they were well done..

to think that the ANG MOs can actually enjoy to such extend where they held events just for ppl to shop, attend fashion shows and indulge in mouth watering food.. Y cant singaporean enjoy it tis way?



we're just to practical bout $ dun we?
bcuz of this, do u noe that a large population of ppl in singapore are actually unhappy with their life?



this proves it man.. we deserved it...
not my problem anyway.

I uses the expresso machine, the chef uses the grill...

cool huh?
see the container or smth?
that's the ****ing 20litres of water/waste..
the tap to refill water was actually at my shoulder length n guess how long it took me to carry it until its done refilling water?
helped the waitress to carry buckets of dirty plates too..
IM ACHING REAL BADLY.. couldn't stop complaining..
$ dun come easy... im tired yet im still pushing myself hard!
backed, feeling tired, i've skipped dinner..
the amt i ate in the morning 2day proves it all.. haha..

received scolding from elena.. bout guitar, bout working..
she sure noes what's right or wrong.. is everything alrite or not..
she can read me like a book..
haiz..
10 helped me figure out what i really wans..
at least..
they noe what's best for me..
1 waking me up with scoldings.. (smtimes.. i really need them and she noes when to interupt)
another, giving me 100% win win solutions.. encouragements..
im so so so fortunate to have such pillars of support to keep me gg..
THANK YOU N SORRY!

i noe i shldnt skip sch to work..
i noe i shldnt complain being tired..
i noe it may not be rite to join back guitar..
i noe i shldnt push myself off limits..

didnt attend guitar 2 day..
give me time to reconsider...
im really tired to make decision..

so tired.. working tml.. i need my rest.. haiz..
im 19 already.. yet.. i still couldnt make decision? haiz..
u're so damn rite?
why do i always rely on others?
FUKIT...

- LifeGoesOn~

Wednesday, September 24, 2008


yoz yoz!

<--- back to the square ones..

guitar..

yup.. i've joined back guitar le..

ppl.. pls do not disheartened me..

hmm.. actually its true that im happier without an IG..


less tired..

more commitment to work..


more carefree,freedom..


more time wif my frens... clique.. besties.. families.. bla bla bla...



but! the decision has been made..

haiz.. i noe ppl cared for me..

noeing that i'll be extremely tired..

returning hm late every night and continues the next day by either working morning shifts or studying..

yea... it drains me dry..

-.-''' its right that u all scold me when i joined back la..

esp mummy..

cuz she noe that without enough rest my temper will rise, i wun feel like toking and I wun even smile..

shouted at my family 2day...

haiz.. i hate it! its so wrong to lose myself juz bcuz im tired..

things may gets worst.. but.. its my decision...








right or wrong..
i cant go back..
so pls support me alrites?
i need them..

Good thing,

im back to my veri veri veri bz lifestyle..

now worst.. thurs oso got guitar.. LOL!

mon is my only rest day after sch..

tue, thur n fri will be guitar 5pm-9pm
wed and sat will be working..

random days will be spinelli's events!

so HUILING! JIA YOU!

hopefully.... i wun die of exhaustion!!

my temper will not rise..

GUITAR is my passion!

i muz tell myself tat! hahas..





Oops.. Toked to much bout guitar..
really hope that im not regretting of the choice i've made!
haiz..
PIA!!!! CHIONG!! wateva.. I MUZ keep myself gg..








BTW~~
the picture are taken on tuesday..
fieldtrip to bukit timah nature reserve..
thanks 4 the posting yx and mar..
went thr full of energy and back to campus half dead..
guess we all had fun..
act; plucking leaves, tired, dulan, hot, stepping on grass,running..
so funny.. all yx's idea..

so that its better than the next class whr the other few clique is in..

N.. we did tat didnt we?






too long!
as usual..

CIAOS!

tml got event!
working 10hrs again..
$150 here i come!

At least working got $ to keep me motivated la..

and mastering my latte art..
ROSETTA!

but.. 1 comments for gg back to guitar..

my passion will still be my passion

I just have to keep gg..

its ok to have lil rest..

=D

and thr's ginny to be in the same boat..

haha! JIA YOU!













- LifeGoesOn~

Saturday, September 20, 2008


Saturday, 20th september 2008..
huihui's so so so so tired..
=(
didnt had enough slp.. as i had outing wif elena yesterday..
slpt at 2am woke up at 5.45am.. as im working 7am today..
SHAGGED!
Leonard: gal! r u ok?
Me: ya.. do i look like im not? im tired.. Veri!
Leonard: yea..looks like it.. U've lost ur smiles..
Sometime I find it really hard to just be myself..
smiling for the sake of smiling makes me so tired..
work was alrite.. heard from Leonard that Marcus is gg to put me as "event barista"
was rather happy upon hearing it as IM the best barista.. WAKAKA..
$15/hr wor...
this proves that i may be skipping lesson next thur!
OMG OMG!?
met up wif elena after work..
as i happened to pass by tampinese..
she brought a lot of junk stuff..
SINFUL chocolates, marshmellows, potato chips..
lols.. looks like her PMS day is nearing..
-.-'''
as usual, nothing stops us from enjoying good food..
stop at haggen dazs..
she had 3 scoops choice(left)
and i had passion waffle delight(right)
nice? yea...
billed at $46.80..
haha.. plus yesterday's dinner..
2/3 my pay from event is gone..
lols..
-.-''' to think if i could eva earned back my watch n vodka's $..
WATEVA~
what's gonna stop me?
simply enjoys good food with great ppl..
but i seriously muz start saving..
oh god..
ling's bday on the 27.. pubbing!
FARKED!
when will i eva know how to save up?
oh well.. that's me.. $ is not meant to be saved.. as you'll never noe when is going to be the last chance u'll get to spend them..
CHEERS!
im so gonna con u when u receive ur pay.. Xp u freaking ego stupidly ZZZ..
hmm.. bout ...........
my personal tots n feelings ever since............
it may seems rather ridiculous..
that huiling's being liked and appreciated..
encountering such problems..
its has made my life pretty out of hands..
having people to intrude ur life,
asked u about almost everything about you..
have people to start looking at ur direction
where you became pretty conscience bout ur movements and attitude..
SERIOUSLY..
it kinda pissed the boyish, self-conscience, quiet, shy me...
no 1 eva dares to disturb me, calls me old maid(as i dun really thinks life's just about love)
says that im EMO or DAO when i dun reply..
looked at me and says that im different..
a guy that noticed and says that im pretty when i dolled up myself..
perhaps.. its juz him doing so..
it actually makes me felt that people do actually cared for me..
Indeed.. those who noes me... noes that i wished to be controlled..
due to my blurness, heck attitude, a gal that has too much freedom from her family..
Acknowledgement, a better word to be exact..
it kinda makes me sad..
because what's stopping me to like sum1 is myself..
my own conscience of how i see myself stops me from wanting love and accepting who i am..
i really don't know what to do if u asked me one day..
not really a person that needs to be loved by guys or BFs
i dont noe what to do next..
i shall juz escape..
ESCAPE from everything..
Someday.. things will fade..
I just wanna avoid being hurt once again...
please don't be so nice to me...
haiz..
ahem.. those who noes who im mentioning..
please keep it to urself too..
i dont wish to upset any1..
WAKE UP HUILING!

- LifeGoesOn~

Friday, September 19, 2008


went to work at Grand Copthrone Waterfront on thurs..
spinelli's event..
so COOL..
an espresso machine of ur own,
serve coffee like u're the boss..
working wif foreign ppl
$15/hr.. $150 a day..
envy? u should..
Another Event on thur..26th sept..9am-9pm..
Should I? TEMPTING! $180! if i go i'll be skipping thurs lesson again!!
wat to do??
ps/dun ps? haha! i shall decide tml!
Friday, 19th sept..
went to sch late..
AGAIN!
seriously school sux..
need smth to keep me motivated in gg to sch.. if not i'll be skipping n ponning a lot of lesson!
ppl! help me out yea?!

put on make up..
as im gg shopping wif vain elena..
"im trying to act chio oso.." LOL!
thanks ppl for ur compliments that i look better wif make ups or smth..
but im just not tat make up kind of ppl..
seriously.. wif make up or not..
i still look sucky..
so doesnt really matters..
haha..
dont try to make me happy..
dinner at breeks with elena..
went shopping after dinner..
as usual..
chit chated(secret)
hm sweet hm..
its great to have a fren that noes the shit out of u..
bitch about the same stuff..
enjoys gd food..


its a pity that people change for a reason..
shall keep that to myself..

anyway...
IM SCREWED WIF U!
why do ppl actually fall in love wif ea other?
TIRED! working tml! CIAO! dun tell u!









- LifeGoesOn~

Saturday, September 13, 2008



Look what i've got 4 myself?
escada perfume n absolut MANGO..
omg.. i've gotta stop spending $$..
sharks! watch, perfume, alcohol..
luckily 4 perfume i've my voucher to minus off some cash.. if not i'll be damn broke.. or rather.. im broke liao.. X)
sort of regretting buying escada.. actually wanted to buy anna sui.. but tot its too light.. this escada.. on second tot.. its like what mum's said.. "ppl will get sick of that smell" ARGH!
watever~
stupid elena.. told me she already brought it since its release n she aiming for DIOR at $114..

=\ arsehole la u..
-.-''' does perfumes has to go wif trend too?
at least there still NEW label on this escada luh..
argh.. another "watever"



next is absolut MANGO!
mango is my fav
liquer is my fav..
Overall its fav + fav!
im so not gonna regret buying tis l..
my jiu liang is getting weaker...
lol.. was too proud b4 that i wun get drunk.. -.-'''

Since im gg on a diet.. HOPEFULLY.. on mon..
I shall start saving back this money i've spent..
LG secret! Im so gonna wan it when my contract is 1yr..(still cant upgrade now)
the crack on my phone is so irritating..
SAVE UP!
gonna spend more when im meeting up my besties..
T.T its gg to be another out of budget mth..
events not enough to cover.. lol?

haiz.. ok.. seriously.. nowadays im too tired to be thinking what i do is right or wrong..
its juz so unlike me to do things without 2nd tots..
i desperately need my besties help..


i dun really noe ur motive of doing this..
but.. im not gg to hurt myself again..
im not gonna try..
not falling into stupid tricks
not trusting any1..
I deserve nothing..
dun make me contradict my own perception of myself..

Im juz thinking too much..
for fun or for the sake of doing..
im hecking it..

I cant even think wif 4-6hrs of slp everyday..
im slping until 12pm 2day.. 2.11am now..
will solve everything when i regained my energy..
i haven been resting well for 2wks..
no wonder i look so much like a zombie nowadays..

=( i awaits saturday!
u're needed!

guessed its bcuz of ken's baby first mth on sun.. make my whole wk so packed..

physically,mentally breakdown..
HAIZ! wat am i writting..
FUK..
SO FUKING CORRUPTED WITHIN MYSELF...

- LifeGoesOn~

Thursday, September 11, 2008


OK!!!
this is my new watch...
its SPEEDO brand.. the same as my Goggles..
its able to count LAPS and timer..
but i've yet to find out its function..
i sux at figuring.. so hehe.. need sum1 help when i meet her..
Actually its $148 i supposed..
but ^^ manage to cut $3..
thank to sweet gals...
it cost:$145..
Worth? tell me seriously..
esp 10!
but i still likes elena's watch.. =( fossil de..
cant find that watch anymore!
SHARKS..
but im oso liking tis watch! cause it suits my sporty sporty de attitude.. ^^ n its the recommendation from 3 veri good taste de ladies..-.-''' haha..

haa.. btw.. want to thank 3 wonderful frens..peggy,huiyan and amelia.. thanks lots luh.. kinda make u all pon sch cuz I dun feel like staying in class.. haha.. didnt expect my mei li to be so big in psyco-ing ppl.. *YEAHNESS*

then still accompanied me to buy watch which i've really really wanted to buy 1 for long.. thus.. waited so long just for me to get a watch.. LOVES! thanks for the wait.. sry 4 taking such a long time.. (im a picky person)

movie was great; boys over flowers.

received gd news from bee bee(ai si ni le) that i'll be working for events $15/hr.. tue n wed..

thus i'll be ponning sch on tue..

but! im still happy cause within 1day i can sort of earn back my watch de $$..

SUPER HAPPY 2DAY..

but im REAL tired..

im still left wif LG secret to buy!

SAVING UP ONCE AGAIN..

lol.. am i literally saving at all? OMG.. It's OK.. Im HAPPY!

even MSGing was happy.. =) ok.. gtg!

*ps: i need ur help wif tis watch.. i totally sux at reading instruction manual.. >.<>



- LifeGoesOn~

Wednesday, September 10, 2008


10th sept 08!
Kooped pics here n thr.. N...
ta dah!

Happy 18th Birthday to ah yan!
Celebration turns out great..
As we did manage to surprise her.. i guess..
haha..
at least we tried our best..
rushed here n thr.. like siao gi na..
N our effort does paid off..
XD



tooked a lot of pictures..
but i wasnt able to upload all.. (stupid browie wans to use)

AH Yan!

i noe ur birthday wishes! = Grow taller..

LOL.. ur friends mean sia..

I tot im the only 1 that says that..

Life's in RP can nv be any better

Those gals actually makes everyday so happening n fun.. LOVES!

gonna take MORE pictures of 6..

when the gal gets back her smiles!

waiting 4 u oh.. =)

Nevertheless the pics of 6 rocks..

cause we're pretty mah.. haha...

zzz.. gotta pass back to bro..

IM so tired after work...

sry to PS u elena.. X/

meet up soon!

btw.. random..

"i seriously wonder y those ppl are so freee.. r they just bored or what?"

hiss getting a bit too in depth wif my personal life..

haiz.. i dun like it.. nvm.. CIAOs..

- LifeGoesOn~

Monday, September 8, 2008


monday,8 sept.
Finally..
My PP is being accepted!
Thanks to my dearest browie for editing my gramma..
Bee Bee for helping me rework
Elena for giving me pts for SWOT..
*twist* dun be jealous..

Haiz.. aint happy at all..
Class sux.. Its super competitve..
if yx wasnt in my class.. i would have rot badly..
despite class being sucky, thr's still the "clique" ard to make everyday so "happening"..
skipping in btw andy sim lesson n i've got comment like: pls be present throughtout all 3 meetings..
chatting wif frens on MSN for today's leson, and when faci asked if i have anything to contribute.. I was TOTALLY blank..
Worst, Its only the 1st wk of sch..
Goddammit..
Im slacking too much.. way too much...
Perhaps i'm too tired..
anyway! heck.. as long as im happy, who is thr to stop me?
met up wif elena after sch 2day.. it was a rather tiring day for the both of us as she worked from 7am-5pm and i've studied from 8.30am-4pm.. thus, we took the initiative to meet up as it has been yrss ever since we've last met..

had dinner at bi fenf tang, tam century.. billed @ only $35.20.. bcuz sum1 got gastric.. stupid idiotic idiot.. serve u rite 4 having gastric.. please eat ur meals on time la.. its not as if its a trend in having gastric loh.. now the both of us got gastric problems.. haha.. but i had quite a good laugh when u tell me u tot its actually stomache..

hmm.. to think about the past.. juz the 2 of us, plain eating could spend up to $80;no alcohol.. only eating.. indulging in mouth watering food.. oww.. i miss the past..

Sometimes.. it is really hard to maintain friendship.. as it does drift apart faster than we've imagined it to be.. people focused on other priority, like work, r/s, family,studies etc... ppl gets MIA(pris im not saying u) haha.. jking! many factors that makes us unable to have "bonding period"... juz bcuz we all are getting bzier, we lost track of how to get back to the past..

HOWEVER, what counts in friendship is a matter of trust.. like wat i've onced said.. Friends forever is not how long we will be friends.. but how long we trust each other to sustain that something called friends forever..

but it does really sucky when u noe friendship drifts apart and thr's nth we could do.. standing, watching and despair...

I STILL TRUST MY FRIENDSHIP.. X) i'ma GOOD friend..


I just missed those fun that i've used to have..
my beng's and lian's cux.. CMI.. lols..
my besties..

why do ppl change??
haiz...


Randomness: shld i quit MSN entertaining ppl?
y do ppl msn u when they are bored?
i shldnt think otherwise... lols...
PMS gone.. I shall start jogging tml..
HOPEFULLY..
TIRED... physically,mentally...

- LifeGoesOn~

Tuesday, September 2, 2008


I'm back!
spent my holiday when i'm down with fever n PMS...
SWAYNESS..
thus.. i was unable to take a lot of pictures..
all i could recalled is slping n eating at genting..
nevertheless..
KL trip was the best..
SHOPPING like siao despite me being sick..
got a few nice scenery of genting..

4days wasted..

PP still not done..500words...
FUK FUK FUK FUK FUK...
OMG.. its getting EMO..
ciaos..
tilt ur head to view..
lols...
im tired...
i wan more holidays..
i've yet to spend my holidays wif my frens..
dammit..
y do my hol always clash wif their exams?
SUX!!!!
BOOOOOOOO!
=(
gonna give self declared holidays again..
n tats so gonna affect my grades again..
ARGH!
$%^@% everything...















- LifeGoesOn~