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Friday, November 28, 2008

Tis time..
Im REALLY REALLY REALLY attracted by him luh...
-.-'''

haiz...

- LifeGoesOn~

Thursday, November 27, 2008

Hmmm... pon sch, yet stayed in sch...
To think that i've even got facebook today...
So -.-'''
Peer influence...
Bad bad peer influence..
But I LIKE..
Haha...

Finally completed manga "ichigo 100%"
Basic theory test coming up..
I've got to stop slacking..

Rather tired recently..
Been practicing guitar real hard.. *nails chipping off*
I really wished to play a song for my soon to be married cousin...
As usual... IM SWEET!

haha... but not every1 appreciates music..
so I shall keep the songs to just myself for now..

Nevertheless!
Im still saving up...
for smth...
I shall pospone the date buying a new HP...

bcuz...
its for smth...
something I tot would be worth more than getting myself a hp..
haha..

UT's tml... totally got no mood to study..
My mind is just filled wif loads of happiness...
Im soo sooo soooo happy to be blessed with true friends..
the 1 that brings out the biatch in me..
the 1 that called just to disturb..
the 1 that is always a call away from u..
Tis is what friends are for isnt it?
To be able to be thr for ur up's n down.. n even nothing!
my flavour to life...

Another thing...
Hmmm...
=)
A capricorn I would wish to noe more about...
hopefully the silence wun kill...
ok... dun ask me anything... TIRED!

ciao..

- LifeGoesOn~

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

Alrites!
This post shld be meant just for me to voice what my heart wish to say for once..
Haiz..
It does really sux when no matter how hard u strive.. It just cant changed anything..
And.. I've been stupidly doing it for years..

The more I hate losing..
The more I strive..
The more I strive, The more tired I became..

But.. What am I actually striving for?

Perhaps...
afterall, Im the selfish 1...
Wanting people to see my good...
In order to be recognized..

Sometimes... I think that I've gone too far...
Till I denies what my heart feels..
Why is it just so hard to receive appreciation?
But what can such appreciation do?

Why shld I force myself to do things in turn that will makes me sad bout the outcome?
why is it that even just for a nobody... I still wanna give my best to that person?
I FELT STUPID!
but what's worst shld be doing things for people for years without return...

I just felt extremely tired today...

Perhaps its just what i've seen...
Someday...
Will everything come to an end...

will u cherish my existence?
Im really tired to "feel" everything everytime...
Can I hear it instead?
haiz..

mayb im just tired...

- LifeGoesOn~

Monday, November 24, 2008

Im veri happy 2day..
Went to booklink and realise "BLEACH 35" released..
Called browie.. and was told to buy it..
HAHA! did I tell u i was going to con him $10.. when i've brought the book for $5.50?
Its great having a big bro..
Bcuz he gave me $50... without conning or asking..
WOW?
yup.. this is my bro..
generous.. intelligent.. sporty..
-.-''' skinny, small, messy.. LOL!
im still the best.. haha...
JOKING!
thou I got more "talent".. but I felt that his always my role model..
In studies and in sports..
ARGH!
y is he just smaller size than me???
I'm just 3-5kg lighter than him.. haiz.. =(
Who cares!
Haha.. from today's convo bout FAMILY..
Haha... seems like my bro is awesome afterall..
Except for that blood related trash.. LOL!
That 1 that doesnt even has his unique talent..
stupid spoilt brat..
I do have loving family..
that supports me... financially..
=\ haha.

Another thing...
Im happy bcuz i've made some1 happy too..

BTW!
sorry to everyone..
bcuz im quiet..
often ppl may felt that im anti or neglect..
but..
haha.. I just dunno what to tok bout..
Tis is y all my besties r 100% bitchy..
OOPS!
JK.. Im much of a listerner..
N someday.. U'll find that useful... =D

Tired..
I've studied too hard 2day...
ciao...

- LifeGoesOn~

Saturday, November 22, 2008

Went out wif my cuxz
bee,lian, ling and rachel..
Tis is the dress i brought for bee's wedding..
U muz be wondering how'd look in it rite?
yeaa... I does look pretty HORRIBLE..
Wif the broad shoulders like those of a man..
legs and sumo size figure..
that manly appearance...
lol..
Seriously... I sux...
Haiz.. If it wasn't for bee's wedding..
I rather u kill me that to wear it..
Im simply too macho and it doesnt suits me, be it char or appearance...

Haiz..
Yeaaa.. I dun deny I have the character of a man..
Quiet, Calm, 0% bitchy-ness..
even on the outside..
I do not really doll-up myself..
some may even think im a butch...
HAHA..
Thankfully, I didn't walk the same path as ling..
Bcuz my huge boobs would be a waste if i bcum 1..
LOL!
If I were to be 1, I would definately excel better than ling..
haha! LOL! JOKING...ok.. serious...

HAHA!
Since i was a child, I was brought up in a guy's way...
Fighting wif big bro,
Playing wif my childhood buddy; wil
Even wif my cuxz, I was the caring 1 to look after all of my cuxz..
Even worst, When i got fat,
Girlish stuff juz seems stupid...
Sports was wat mum's put me to..
Swimming is the reason why my shoulders is so broad..
Haha...
Ling n I enjoyed doing Dangerous stuff and stuns in the past..
Still couldnt forget that when we are both fat..
We promise to nv get married as thou guys didnt exist..

U shld be wondering y i didnt became 1?
2 things..
Family, Friends...
I've a perfect family that teaches me well enough to understand what human shld be..
I have friends that is simply too girlish..
Esp that elena that force me into wearing make-ups and dress..
But mayb its perhaps..
I'm liked by a guy back then..
LOL!

In the end..
I changed from a tomboy to some normal gal..
perhaps a lil fuked up..
cuz of the way I present myself ba..
N that char..
HAHA.. cant helped it..
It's only until my sec sch life when I started changing..
but I still looked gd when I wanted to isnt it?
>.<
Haiz.. sorry for being random..
I just dun feel gd when lian had to suit me in buying tis dress..
IM SO F****** UGLY!!!!
=(
just felt rather jealous that ling dun need to wear it..
BUT, i dun wanna disappoint bee..

for ling's sake..
Just wanna say to some ppl that has misunderstanding of butch.. esp elderly...
Although what they've choose may b wrong in ur perception/ ethically...
But..
God create us..
We create law.. and orders...
there isnt right or wrong right at the beginning...
We dun really have the rights to stop people from being themselves...
Therefore lesbians and gays exists in ur dictionary..
-.-'''
Im happy to see bee's happy wif his future husband henry..
Lian's wif her bf sebastian and Ling wif rachel..
Feeling kinda lonely.. haha!
but i belive that..
Someday...
my mr right will come for me..
ok... tat's all..
I simply love my cuxz..
being able to enjoy what I've enjoyed at doing..
Eating and arcade..
I've finally ate pepper lunch! ^^
N... Trust me...
im gonna have INTENSE slimming tis 2 wks..
sad... but i still muz present the best of me...
wish me luck!
Btw... U may not agree with what i said..
But..
Some people that do the wrong thing are actually happier than those who does the right thing everytime..
Believe it or not...

- LifeGoesOn~

Thursday, November 20, 2008

Viewing from the pics..
what I can say is...
I mature since young..
I just hate smiling.. LOLs!
what I have to say is..
I looked different from my 2bro's
haha.. I wonder y im borned a gal when im so much cooler then them..
anyway, be it if im a gal or guy..
My character's just so much better than them.. wahaha!

Random!
I miss my cuxz gang sooooo much!
gg out wif them tis sat..
=)
Miss those days..
haiz.. Bee's getting married..
really hope that everything will remains the same..
yeah yeah...
used to joke bout who will be getting married first..
N it'd really came true..
Shall not elaborate too much until her wedding..

Some things are forever...
hehe...
please be jealous of me having such great cousins..

Next thing I would like to update on..
went to dental appt on wed..
requesting to put braces was a failure..
owwww...
instead, wisdom tooth extraction is needed..
haha?
nvm.. shall use the $ next time on teeth whitenning..

Im rather happy today..
sha asked me for my schedul...
and was told by her that im the best part-timer that she dun wanna lose while I was mentioning to her bout quitting..

I've always liked my effort to be seen and felt...
selfishly yes, I dun deny..
haha..
I'm actually that kind of ppl that seeks sorry and thank you..
=)
but have changed pretty much upon noeing ppl who die die dun do that.. -.-'''
It does sux to be the type that change to suits ppl..
I noe I sux..
but..
sadly, its me... I wish im not like that too.. I wish I have my own decision, my goals, my life..
Thus, I'll just screwed them if im not helped by others, esp frens..
haha.. this is why all my frens are firm and decisive..
the 1 that gives me win win solution...
the 1 that decides for me..
*scratch head* cant seems to change any single bit..

Have been feeling rather happy yet tired recently..
Perhaps its bcuz of me not working at all..
Perhaps im happy on wednesday...
Perhaps its the comics..
Perhaps its my frens ard me...

hmmm... another thing...
right or wrong feelings...
I no longer wanna care...
I may not noe what u wans...
but I shld noe what I wan...
I just have to grow up and be sure of myself..
no wonder big browie says im childish when it comes to feelings..
phone call!
gtg! update soon!

- LifeGoesOn~

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

Met up with ahyan, emily and peggy early in the morning to get breakfast today..
It was indeed a miracle! lols.. the 1 that is always late is early today... I shall not disclosed her.. haha!
u noe.. we noe... X)
Meeting up to get breakfast is great...
Bcuz im able to get what I wanted to eat and thus not be late for sch..
Next time I shall make ahxiang come along too..
So we will not have the MOST late records.. haha..
Awaiting for thursday...
So I can get breakfast again??? that MEGAAAA griddles is indeed MAGA!! =)
Can actually last 1 whole day as mention by peggy..
WOW! I wan! MEGA MAC MUFFIN WIF EGG! *DROOL*

It was another EMO day...
hecking the rest and plain slacking..
haha.. I felt the same aura coming from ahxiang 2day..
*thumbs up*
That rueul or whatever couldnt stand that EMOness!
haha.. I think no 1 can survive with the 2 of us in their team..
pardon my PMS mood and MOOD SWING.. cuz its in its critical stage nowadays...
Cuz im soooo sooo sooo tired...

Owww.. how long should I save to fill u up?
$1... So big yet so small...
I NEED $$$$$$...
Dental appt tml...
Kinda worried if im not able to put braces..
Cuz my teeth arrangement is veri compact...
Extracting 4 wisdom tooth and braces will definately cost me a bomb..
So if i needs extraction, I shall skipped wanting a better set of teeth..

$$$$$... can u fall from the sky?
lol!
Bee's wedding is nearing!! dress, props, gift!
=(
Worst, Spinelli is giving me problems...
they are either not giving me schedul or not giving my schedul which I expected..
SUX!
Wif my capability, IM SO GONNA CHANGE MY JOB!
Shall make them regret making my life difficult...
that $5/hr job is nothing!

but!
haiz...
Im in such pathetic state..
dental appt, braces, bee's wedding, btt ftt, holidays, saving up for smth..
all bcuz my pay is too little
and my expense is too high...
this is soo #$&@ irritating...
sooo tired...
I really wished daddy can work asap..
jobless for 4 mths le..
been so hardworking for 4mths...
=(
jiayou huiling!!
I must buck up!

- LifeGoesOn~

Friday, November 14, 2008

It's 7.23pm now..
Pon sch half-way.. wif amelia and yingxiang..
PS-ed by huiyan, peggy and cindy.. =\
It was a tiring day indeed..
Waited at airport from 2pm-3pm..
Thus after meeting up wif elena we only went to the photo shop to get her loving photos wif her bf printed..
Shopped for a while and went back..
Not really in the mood to eat..
Came back and watched tv... one litre of tears(movie version)
This movie never fails to cry...
Even if its infront of my parents( that AHIYO y u cry is so damn insulting)
But they, crying over "made up" stories is even more stupid..

Life's is indeed short and unpredictable..
However, we often take things for granted...
Spend our day meaninglessly,
Take ppl's care and concern as if it is what they should do and
Only take action when everything is too late..

Her stories never fails to make my heart ache..
Seeing how I treat my life,
Always being EMO when people are trying so hard to be happy...
Y do people likes treasuring when they lose them or when its too late?
humans...

=)
I wonder if I will have people that will be thr to support me if it happens to me..

Lifted for a part of the show
From the conversation from a mother and a son.
The mother was lecturing her son,
Saying that he will become like aya(main actress) if blar blar blar..
I HATE TIS KIND OF PPL!
Planting their happiness onto ppl wound..
I guess only I understand this kind of feelings..
bcuz it onced happened to me..
bout my hair..

It is truly memorable...
Because the pain is unforgettable..
Why do they wan to look down on ppl..
We didnt even offend them in the first place and they come as if they understand ur situation..
But the pain overpowered the anger, that we will just stay silent..

Perhaps, because of people like them,
I tried my veri best to be as perfect as possible..
but however...
Its only on the inside...
just inside..
haiz..
dun wish to continue..

- LifeGoesOn~

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

No work 2day..
Finally given myself a day off..
1.30pm went to woodland to meet up wif amelia,huiyan and peggy(3 mj kaki)..
Had lunch at pizza hut..(yum yum)
Shopped (saving up for ........ and gonna buy myself a thumb drive too... peer influence.. tsktsk)
During late afternoon bused to huiyan house for majong session...
Her house is so so so so neat and tidy..
Modern too..
As compared to mine..
lol! haha... thrash!
Perhaps maybe due to my 3 idiotic guys at hm..
Daddy, 2 too sucky bros... =X
Lil browie books is like garbage ard every corner of the house..
Big browie rm sux totally too..
Damn 80's de la.. matress..
Even I had a queen sized bed he elder than me got matress..
to think he give away his queen size bed juz for the space he needs..
his clothes lying ard outside but juz not inside his empty cupboard..
hmmm... his is moron.. weird isnt it?
lol... my entire family is weird..
EMO-ISM rocks! haha!
we do have different style of being emo...
he likes to lived in his world of comics and pc-ing..
I liked shutting myself, lying on my bed, reading my books,tving, laptop gaming,drinking&snacking..
but no matter what.. the best place at hm is still my room..
elsewhr simply sux..
HAHA!
But without them, there wouldnt be the ME now...
slacking at bro's room, reading his comics and pc-ing..
using lil bro's worksheets/hmwk as waste paper, creating fights.. LMAO!
I could be zi bi without them!
LOVES!
I believe each house, each family has their story to tell...
im truly happy with mine..
my loving parents..

Ok!
Overall, My off day is so worthwhile spending!
thanks huiyan for inviting us over!
and thanks for the mj-ing ka amelia, huiyan and peggy!
lol... wonder whose house visiting next.. *tiko face*

- LifeGoesOn~

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

Tuesday, 11/11/08
Went to airport after school today..
Elena went for the interview..
As my clothing was too shag..
I only get to watch.. T.T
Nevertheless, I've alway noe how to make use of time..
So I brought CHOCOLATES instead.. yummy~
pardon the hand of that vain girl..
Was wondering if I shld take on another job..
It's $6.50/hr..
Kinda tempting isnt it?
Summore its at T3..
Secret Recipe is juz right opp lah... *drool*
-.-'''
dinner at popeye and hm sweet hm...
been thinking a lot..
whenevr its nearing jan..
I worried bout $$..
bcuz its sum1's bday(16/1/09) I worried other than my own bday..
sux!
N its not juz some plain saving..
its literally my entire savings for mths or even years..
believed it or not..
hais..

My dearest cousin; bee's wedding is coming up too(6/12/08)..
Have to buy a dress...
buy props for the games activity..
and im the eldest in the sisters gang(it juz mean I have to come out will all of the $)
Christmas and New Year is not exceptional too!
hates to the core..
I NEED $$..
Daddy's still jobless..
=(
Worst..
Bee's wedding n Chinese New Year is ard the corner..
Im still stuck wif my current weight..
to think of that..
I HAVEN BEEN EXCERCISING!!!!
Sharks!
I need to stop eating and thus help myself save up some $$..
So... its really true that I need u guys to help me..
Control what im buying when u're with me...
I'll be damn grateful... *BEG*
OMG... I really have to stop spending $$ on food..
If not I cant even slim down and save $$..
OK!.. my day is so ruined!
CHOCOLATE is all urs browieS..
FUKING FAT AND $$LESS ME!
ARGH!
I swear I did own u too much in my past life elena..
T.T
hope u gets fatter n i dunt.. =X juz get fatter than me PLUEEESSSEEEE!!
>.<
need some motivation to start exercising again!
10! call me! CALL ME!!!
haha!
YET!
Im still a happy girl~
Eating juz makes ppl happier..
OMG!
STOP STOP STOP!
LOL!
I wonder if thr's 2 ppl living inside me..
so damn contradicting..
*AAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHH*
HELP!!!!
=(
I'm serious...

- LifeGoesOn~

Monday, November 10, 2008

FINALLY got my blogskin changed!

AMELIA! u're the best!
ILOVEEMILYROSEEE`
>.<

Isnt this blog juz perfect?
Comparing to the previous one,
Tis just brightens up my day..
=D
thanks a million!

will be very bz planning on bee's wedding, getting on another job and preparing my BTT..

jiayou huiling!

Life's couldnt be any better..
cant they?
*MUACKZ*
^________^

- LifeGoesOn~

Sunday, November 9, 2008

Sunday, 09/11/08.. 9.42pm..
Back...
Did some shopping and watched high school musical 3..
It has been ages since i've last movie..

Felt rather down..
Because of some unspoken words perhaps..
Afterall, I'm the 1 that made myself like that...

Sometimes...
things kept pounding on me..
Am I too emotional, overly sensitive, self-centered and always feeling down..
and bcuz of tis, I've constantly hurt myself and others..
Taking an example..
When some1 called me out...
I always have negative mindset that people have no other choice but juz me...
It spoils my mood.. N I spoil theirs if I lose control..
but frequently, wearing a mask an be miss nice had actually becums a habit..

It felt extremely exhausting..
because im not being me..
I've countlessly wish 4 the best for others..
That i've ignore how painfully my heart is bleeding..
But everything seems to be too late to regret..
I wonder if its my character to be miss "nice" I people I value veri much or im juz faking myself..

The harder I try to be myself..
the more my doubts arise...
Im a person whom couldn't even guage right or wrong...
Its so hard decide everything for ourself..

can it all stops?

- LifeGoesOn~

Friday, November 7, 2008

Sat 08/11/08 liao.. 12.44am
I'm so tired after doing the tag thing.. lol! sux! -.-'''
haha! my mood swing getting worst..
1 moment u can see me like siao gi na.. the next moment pms freak..
been slping in class like everyday routine..lols..
FINALLY, im able to have my long long beauty slp...
im so tired cans?
polymer UT2 was exceptionally easier than UT1..
pray god that i dun get D,E,F again.. if not I'll bang my head against the wall...

oh ya! HAPPY BIRTHDAY FISHY~08/11/08
received some songs from peggy.. NICE~
haha.. everytime take songs from her n yx.. thanks!
also.. hana yori dango 2 from amelia..
gonna finish it up when i wake up the next moring!
FINALLY, my chance to relax..

took quite a no of pics 2day..
haha!
to think of it.. i had to train my smiles le..
-.-'''
smile until sibei fake recently..
damn... or is it juz bcuz im plain ugly.. lol.. nvm!

btw! thx eugene 4 the ice cream while walking to cw..

THEN!
met up wif elena after UT at bugis..
and got myself a leather planner which i wanted it for long..
classy~
thanks 4 bring me thr juz to get the book..
head back to tam and had dinner as the restaurant @ bugis is like FOC, filled wif ppl..
old obasang elena cannot tolerate squeezy and noisy place.. so bo bian.. eat at tam bi feng tang again..
-.-'''
thus, it was zi de~

cuz.. we had sweet &sour fish, prawn w sld cream, roast chicken(yummiest) and sambal veggie 4 dinner..
billed at $57.60
lol... i actually grade chk 1st, prawn 2nd, veg 3rd n fish 4th..

n tis stupid elena.. chk 1st.. n the rest 4th..
one thing i've realised oso..
the 1 tat is not veri the nice..
-.-''' we will always leave sample behind..
next time I shld juz stuff it inside her mouth!

after dinner, got myself ear pierce, pierce the closed up de holes..

done quite a lot of things 2day..
and had some chat..
=)
its always *thumbs up* to enjoy dinner wif besties..
have chats to update ea others..
giving ea other opinions and solutions to our problems..
what could be better than that??

haha!
the photos taken with the sweetgirls shall be updated soon after i get it from ahyan..
hmmm! she posted it!
shall let u all see some!
post the rest soon!

- LifeGoesOn~

Tagged by YingXiang,Huiyan & Melia

Tis IS SO OMG? -.-''' I really tagged them 4 ur sake man! -.-'''

1. The person who tagged you is?
u noe whoSSS... lols

2. Your relationship with him/her?
my sweet gals! that's of course..

3. Your 5 impressions of him/her

yx: the 1 that has the same aura as me;EMO, person wif her sets of principles and rules,like to crack super cold joke which is damn funny, caring and sweet!

hy:genius(she god damn clever, ut tells it all lol B! paiseh loh.. B for buang u still get!)lol.. xiao mei mei =X, a fren that can be thr 24/7(being punctual meeting frens, 1st to reply tells it all) supporting ya?, funny and talkable person

melia: wai leng nei re tat kind of ppl..( when tok a lot really can tok a lot.. dun feel like toking jitao bo hiew type), funny, loving(still rmbs that sweet card u make 4 every1), friendly and can be veri crazy at times..

4. The most memorable thing he/she had done for you.
double my happiness and half my sorrows...
times where we laughed,play and 4eva gg siao siao tgt..
and how they have cheered me up when I am feeling down...
be it msn, tag msg or anything.. without them, poly will juz be another task than my life journey.. Thanks!

5. The most memorable thing they had said to u?(some may be rephrase)
yx: "the more you ignore, the greater the problem will arise.. " and another 1 bout her blog.. *mi mi* from her, I really learnt a lot from her..

huiyan n amelia: "huiling, gia~ *pon* lai la lai la! im always veri happy to hear that from her.. haha! cause it basically means gg out to have fun... the both always comes in pair.. lol so its better to write like tis.. the encouragements of UT and the gossips that always shoot aimlessly at ppl( im so lucky its not me they r saying.. haha

6. If he/she becomes your lover, thing he/she has to improve on will be?
yx: peng you bu shi yong jing qian lai heng liang.. and cannot always stick to ur own principles if u regard us as ur frens.. frens is always the 1 u can rely on de.. im serious! lols!

hy: dun be so clever! so that my ut wun suffer(moderation)... LOL!

amelia: cannot always psyco me on ponning.. and oso cannot say... CANNOT PON! -.-'''

7. If he/she become your enemy, you will?
I will... I WILL! I dunno man... I dun have enemy.. I dun even noe how it feels to have 1.. lol..

8. What is it you want to tell him/her now?
Thanks huh SWEETGALS! now i got spend hrs doing 4 3 ppl...

9.Your overall impression of him/her is?
sweet, sweet gals...

10.How do u think ppl around you will feel about you?
emo-ist, heck care attitude and like got zi bi zhen? LOL!

11.The characters you love of yourself are?
Im me.. but I cant tell my own characters...

12.On the contrary,the characters you hate yourself are?
obsessive, spending $ like nobody's business, workaholic..

13.The most ideal person you want to be is?
I'm the most ideal person I wanna be... dunt u wanna be me? haha

14.For people that care and like you, say something to them.
forever and always...

15.Pass this quiz to 10 people,
nil! dun wanna cont le!
i wanna blog my own things.. haha!
juz did it for the sake of doing it...
the rest is rubbish... so nv do.. lol!
ciao!

- LifeGoesOn~

Wednesday, November 5, 2008

Environmental science UT: F
Polymers and Composite Science UT: D
Analytical Science UT: C
Applied Chemistry UT: F

Seriously... Seeing tis is so fuking upsetting..
polymer and composite faci give me predicted module grade E..

Haiz.. with all my daily grade which is like 4eva C downgrade = D
Those X = absent
Can any1 juz KILL me?
I wish that everything is juz a dream, a nightmare...

Feeling so lost..
To think of it...
I've nv understand lessons since the beginning of the sem..
environmental science answers are just too broad..
skipped too much polymers lesson..
chemistry faci too CMI.. with my current knowledge bout chem = DIE! (do u noe I've only scored 1/30?)

I totally lost my fighting spirit to study for UT2..

Perhaps till the end..
I'm the letdown to myself..
no1 is to blame..
its all bcuz of me..

My heart ache seeing tis kind of grades im having..
can any1 understand this kind of feeling?
what if the same thing happens to my UT 2,3 &4?
I wish to stop tis pain...
I hate to cry for my studies..
y am i always such a failure in life?
haiz..
tis grades juz spoils everything..

"what's the point of crying?" i told myself..
because it simply hurts... i think this is what my heart tells me..
I CANT DO ANYTHING!!
nothing...
haiz..

- LifeGoesOn~

Tagged by huiyan to do this quiz.
1.) Do you have secrets?
-Its hard to believe if I say I dun.. -.-'''

2.) Would you fall in love with a girl/guy younger than you?
-age is juz a number... BUT! I mind.. haha

3.) Do you enjoy going to school?
-with gd frens ard.. yes.. see that horrible grades.. NO!

4.) What would you do with a billion dollars?
-I'll buy a land by sea, set my own bussiness and lived a life that has no worries~ WOOT!

5.) Will you fall in love with your best friend?
-A gal n a guy can never be best friend.. that's what i've always believed... so its impossible to fall in love with your best friend..

6.) Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
-selfishly, being loved is more blessed... loving someone too deeply mayb tiring...

7.) List out your 15 favourite songs
-its too troublesome... lol

8.) If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
-I will still like that person secretly... loving some1 is not wanting that person to be your 4eva, its giving what you can for that person stupidly.. that's love..

9.) Is there anything that has made you extremely happy?
-those Fssssss of my UT results simply spoils my mood.. @$^#^

10.) What makes you angry?
-basically I dunno how to get angry wif anything.. its not in my dictionary.. *proud*

11.) How could you see yourselves in 10 years?
-am I still living? -___-'''

12.) Who are currently the most important people to you?
-Family,4eva bestie, kakis, cuxz gang, sweetgals...

13.) What is the most important thing in life?
-to love and be loved unconditionally.. to spend our life without regrets...

14.) Single or attached?
-complicated..

15.) What is your favorite colour?
-white

16.) Would you give all in a relationship?
yes, because girls r stupid when it comes to love... they use their butt to think.. X)

17.) If you fall in love with 2 people simultaneously, who would you pick?
-there will only be one.. im veri zuan yi de!

18.) Would you forgive & forget no matter how horrible a thing the someone has done?
-forgive and forget.. what done is done.. u'll nv be happy if you dun forget.. and if the person truly cares for u, he/she wun feel gd seeing you hurt either...

19.) What do you want to tell the person you like?
-huh?

20.) 5 people I have tagged
-i shall skip tat.. ^^

- LifeGoesOn~

Monday, November 3, 2008

3rd nov 08. Monday. 9.12pm
Its juz another day..
I'd really need some break..
slpt in school 2day..
I hate to tok to ppl I dun wish to tok to when im tired..
tis is ME..

My mood is extremly bad..
luckily I was being cheered by some phone calls..
BUT.. Im still having that FUKED up feeling..
Perhaps its those UT..
FFFFFFF
daily grades CCCCCC
or downgrade
$^&^$*%@#

wil came to me and brag bout his pp results..
I always felt that his way too inferior...
be it daily grades or UT or even $$$$..
gives me the pressure..
U sux la!
=X

Often... We like to have tis concept...
"what if im not as good as him"
"why me.. not u"
"its ALWAYS ur fault"

but do u noe..
it all begins wif how we think?
why compare if u noe the issue isnt comparing?
why blame others when u juz want to feel better? and u could actually feel better if u tell urself u can feel juz bout how u wanna feel if u let urself be?
I mean.. Its all about how we perceived things..
some may be hard to accept..
some may be painful..
we shouldnt be afraid to make mistakes..
life couldnt be without mistakes..
because it is a part of growing up..
same as crying..
crying makes us stronger..
(who dun feel better after crying, breaking down?)
as what I've always said,
the journey is more important that its destination..

but everything..
its definately true that we couldnt feel the actual pain of the person's scars..
we can onli imagine it upon us..
so if u're a true fren, always lend them ur shoulders and ur ears...
u cant experience it unless it happens on u..
be happy if u have such frens..

im happy i've mine..

bye~
tired=random

- LifeGoesOn~

Saturday, November 1, 2008

1st of November 08.. Saturday.. 10:03pm
feel like bloggind despite my tiredness..
Ok.. Env.Sci results is fixed.. F.... FANTASTIC! FABULOUS oso can..
Rather sad bout it...
Haven been working hard lately in studies..
wondering what could be the reason..
nvm!

I'm 100% exhausted..
hols gonna be over n im still working like thr's no tml..
GIMME MORE HOLS!
I have a bad feeling that when sch reopen im gonna slack n slp during meetings...

My entire body is aching...
that 20 litres of water is the cause of it..

Doing business alone is GREAT!
you get to working hard for the money u earn..(thou its not my $)
plain selling coffee.. nothing else..
Get to see ppl queueing for ur coffee..
complimenting ur bevereges...
OWWW.. what could be better?
No wonder im a great barista that is up to it to earn $15/hr..
LOL!
self high..

=(
thinking bout that F is my reason here..
Simply spoils my mood...
I need to enjoy more!!!
NEXT HOL FASTER COME PLS!!!
-.-'''
hopefully by then I will not PIA work...
I muz stop tis workaholic attitude..
ok.. im real tired...
bye bye!
$$ is so hard yet so easy to earn...
gimme a break!
I wanna play my guitar!
=(

- LifeGoesOn~