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Saturday, October 31, 2009

"Relationship ends, experience remains.. Every relationship you go through, lives on forever inside your heart.."
Well, I dun really tot of things as much as 2day..
But wun u agree wif me?
The 1st r/s might be the hardest..
However, the 2nd, you learnt from ur past mistakes or even the romance u've the from the previous to prevent harming ur love and love them more..
Yet, U wouldn't be hurt as much as before anymore.. The pain wouldn't hurt that much because u've grown from love..

Hmm.. I don't know..
I just feel that if a relationship is bound to end, it has its own reasons..
We will never learn unless we start moving on, be it having a new r/s or remains single forever..

HAHA..
I guess im bored..
Life's juz like the clothes im wearing..
Black and white..
lols..
made pizza bread as im rly bored..
I noe I shld b studying..
But I don't really care..
>.< perhaps tat's the reason I need 1 person to be bothered bout my life..
Tell me what's right and what's wrong..
Teach me what to do..
Decide stuff for me..
I dun like deciding..
perhaps that's why I have decisive friends..
It kills a million of my brain cells to decide something on my own..
SWEAR..
haha..
I noe im useless..
I juz preferred to be led..
Doesnt seems like the me in reality huh?
Well..
What u see could be deceiving..
You can't understand one perfectly if they themselves dun even understand what they truly are..

PS. I might..

- LifeGoesOn~

Thursday, October 29, 2009

Wow.. it actually does cost a lot if u 4got to bring ur ez-link..
LOL! moreover I was using notes instead of coins while gg to sch.. -.-'''
well.. I couldnt be any blurrer..
Bcuz... nah.. im not gonna say it.. =)

Sometimes, I juz enjoyed look up at the sky..
Feel the breeze a little and continue my path back towards hm..
Have a cold bath and followed by a simple dinner..(thou it was a lil to spicy for my stomach to digest)

On ur laptop..
N stare blank..
Cuz its sooooo irritating to do rj,quiz n evaluation when u're pretty much drained after sch work..

And after getting ur job done..
*blank*
U don't know what to do next besides nuaing..
I dun deny it kinda felt gd..
But.. somehow..
A little too empty with all this routine gg round..

hmmm...
I dunno what to blog..
HAHA!

*The more you can't get something, the more you want to obtain it..
*deepest memories is only kept by the 1 whom can hurt you most.. weird isnt it?

ps. Im not 1 that is hard to communicate if u communicate wif me using ur heart..
Sighs..
silent. killer.

- LifeGoesOn~

Wednesday, October 28, 2009

Im feeling kinda crazy n happy recently..
I dunno y..
Maybe bcuz my life's got entertained..
It felt a little empty..
But at least things r finally going the right way..
How it should be..

Friends come and go..
Only true one stays..

Doubled ur joy n halfed ur sorrows..
Helped n be help in return..

Guess that's what friends are for.. =)
Idk..
I only get to live once..
y give half of what u can if u could give ur all for every1 since its only for this life?
Thr's nothing to be tat tiring bout..

Im soooo "energetic" at night..
Im bored yet tired..
haha?

I hope tis smile nv dies..
Cuz I really meant my smile..
=)

Sometimes its better count on urself than others..
But! U better not buy that gucci bcuz of watever reason it is!
DUH~

What can be so gd bout stuff when it cant makes u full?
dumb ppl..
TSK!

- LifeGoesOn~

Tuesday, October 27, 2009

I supposed this is what auntie was showing me over at youtube yesterday bout the 2 grp "girls generation" and "super junior"..
Haha.. thou its quite old already..
She still can tok bout it..
Damn random..
I wonder how she jumps from singing to watching the grp..
10:do u noe which is the only 1 that doesnt undergo plastic surgery..
me: hmmm.. I noe! the ugliest 1!
10:which 1?
me: -.-''' they looked the same..
dun believe u go see their mv..
O.O n its still looked the same..
But koreans sure noes how to dance..

Super junior, prissy's fav!
lol.. no more plastic surgery.. i guess..
Cuz not all handsome..
HAHA!
But if u see their mv again..
Hell, u'll not noe which is which..
auntie showed me the youtube
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AB18uvq1OJs&NR=1
haha! whr they helped them make up for contest and dance girl generation song..
see if u could differentiate which is which..
-.-'''
But still, thanks for the updating.. u nv failed to take almost everything to chat huh? =)

=)
hmmm..
thanks bff for the mail too..
I dunno how to do without ur help..
appreciated it!

Owww...
Things finally is getting back to normal after pms-ing..
at least i nv attitude anymore..

Not into O's anymore..
how GREAT!
>.<

I wish.. to holiday with friends..
I wish I wish to start working..
I wish I wish I wish to take course for dance, music and exercise..
XD
Haha..
Its feels tat im blogging shit..
no link..
Physically, mentally..
thank god im not emo..
N.. thr's motivation..

=)

Everything's getting a little toooooo boring..
11th nov..
O's fast fast end pls..

- LifeGoesOn~

Monday, October 26, 2009

Ate, bowl-ed,chit-chatted..
Sch?
-.-'''
I think i've 4gotten what's that..
Only for 2day.. >.<
I noe I noe..
I still have O's to study for..

=)
It has been rather long since i've last went out to enjoy..
Thanks luh.. to those that dun wanna come..
N those that insisted on wanting all to come..
Cuz things wouldn't be the same without ea n every1..

Hmmmm..
mentioning bout criteria..
Guessed his attached le.. hahaha..(DP)
Nah.. its alright..

What I need now is all I need..
haha..
Thou.. I do believe u'll be a gd choice..
For all, I juz need one tat will keep my interest alive, for me to not get tired toking to..
For me to learn and appreciates life better..
-.-'''
Like I've said.. Its difficult to constantly draws my attention and keeps me on track, in focus..

I'll be perfect..
If u only know how to use me best..
Allowing u to be the most fortunate 1 living..

Do you believe me?
haha..
I think i'll be the 1 pampering him than him pampering me..
XD

Auntie 10 singing song~
over at the phone..
lol..
ciao~

- LifeGoesOn~

Thursday, October 22, 2009

Luxuria (Lust)(undesired love) sin of having an inordinate and intense longing or appetite for sexual cravings.

Gula (Gluttony)(overindulgence)indulges excessively in eating or drinking.

Avaritia (Greed)(avarice) love of possessions and desire of wealth or more than one needs.

Acedia (Sloth)(laziness)The sin of being lazy. Ignoring spiritual well-being of personal duty.

Ira (Wrath)(anger)The sin of anger, the sin that kills. Sin of rejecting the Love and Patience that one should have, turning it to violent or hate.

Invidia (Envy)(jealousy) love to own what belongs to someone else.

Superbia (Pride)(vanity) The chief of all sins.excessive belief in one's abilities.

Sometimes, I really wished to be a psychologist to really understand human behavior.. It does provoke me to wan to read minds.. haha.. sounded like a psyco..

A bit of the sin here.. A bit of the sin there..
N we all became sinners..
We humans are actually a bit of everything which makes up 'us'..
But why do humans have such desire of bring oneself or others down..
Perhaps its reality that made us who we are today..

Sighs..
=( didnt do well for phy practical..
Well.. it over..
Maybe not tat over..
1 down, 3 to go..
I muz do well.. MUZ
I cant disappoint..

Im tired..
Shall juz leave the matter alone..

Explaination can makes one sick, and the other tired..
Let's stop this for a while..
=)
pms will be gone soooon sooon sooooon..
not at my best.. but will be..
Jiayou huiling!

- LifeGoesOn~

Wednesday, October 21, 2009

Emo's injured its leg..
N its like..
Swelling a bit..

Researched a bit n was recommend to give him special care..
Cuz its has self healing ability..
If problem still persist n its still limping..
Im bringing it to the vet..
=(

Owww.. it spoils my mood to study..

Took out its wheel to let it heals faster..
N supplment added for it to have fast recovery..
Get well soon emo!
Thou its still so hyper..( trying to get "jump" out.. as if)

But its getting old as well..
=(
Sighs..

Y does everything seems so upside down?

- LifeGoesOn~

For others to be happy will be her happiness..
But if hate were what she brings upon for others..
She'll rather not do anything to keep them..

Friends to me r juz like tat..
If I feel that im making ur life difficult or feels you dislike me..
I will distant from you..
I do that bcuz I treat you as my true friend..

I don't like seeing faces that can tells that people are disliking me..

Idk..
But im really a veri simple friend..
If i regard u as one, i only wished for them to be happy and i'll be happier..

lol..
I feels stupid explaining tis..
Its juz like..
When having exam tml..
Jiayous really brightens up my mood and spirit..
You give, I wun forget to give u either..
give and get..
(its my logic)

Ahiya..
I don't know hate in friendship..
don't teach me how to either..
Please trust me for who I am..
I wun disappoint..

Sighs..
Perhaps im not myself recently..
But I really don't know what's wrong..

Thanks bff for the study veri veri hard as tips huh! top students..
ITS SOOOOO USEFUL!
-.-'''

Don't bring me down when you know that you are those that could affects me..
.........
Weakness, as well as strength..

- LifeGoesOn~

Sunday, October 18, 2009

I guess this would be my mood recently too..
=(
I've got tis fuked up, messed up feeling inside me..
What I wished to do is juz blasting emo music into my ears..
Not doing anything.. Nothing else..
But time doesnt allow..

I seems to stop having the motivation to study..
I don't know why..
I only feel like emoing with emo at hm..

Cute?
=(
It's getting old..
But still so fun..
Stuffed him 10sunflower seeds..
N it was his maximum.. LOL!
But its getting more n more bored cuz I wasnt able to entertain him everyday..
Or rather him entertaining me.. HAHA!
Jl told me tat he got his furball a new friend..
=( envy..
Mine is too old 4 a new hamster..

Dun think too far..
I noe what u're thinking..
-.-'''
Fate is what I believe in..
I don't know him.. Yet.. It feels as thou i've known him..
However, if fate doesnt comes my way..
I don't really know what to do..
=)
N.. Its not gonna happen..
ah.. but we sure r hamsters siao..
4 him to tell me he got furball a new friend..
MUZ BE.. HAHAHA..
P.S.New msn account. please add! ongjunliang@live.com (jl's fb)
-.-''' haha? Of course im not adding..
duh..

Sometimes, what's important to me is juz those that cares for me..
=
But I no longer know whom will be the 1 doing tat anymore..

I need to stop thinking bout everything and start focusing on O's..
I have to..

But on the other hand..
Do I really need to anymore?
sighs.

- LifeGoesOn~

Saturday, October 17, 2009

Happy 21st Birthday Ginny..
=)

Sighs..
Im worried bout my own 21st..
80+- adult from my relatives.. (NOTE, its only adults)
plus friends..
100+-?
Dun u think tis is INSANE?

Sighs..
I dun really like discussing my birthday with my parents and relative(mother side)
I've mention countlessly.. that I didnt want them to go on fri 8/1 bcuz if only my friends were gg.. then.. whr will they be slping when there is only 2 rooms?
But they kept insisting that they wanna go thr to help out in the deco and such..
*five fingers sticks to one..*

I do think that buffet +bbq is already veri costly..
They still insist that they wanted extra orders..
*five fingers sticks to one..*

Uncle requested to dunno bring what karoke set..
Seriously..
Teach me how to entertain my guest when it will be so fuking loud?
*five fingers sticks to one..*

I allow u all to occupy 2 fuking rooms on sat onwards..
For u all to fuking gamble n let ur fuking kids to stay in the rooms to have their own space..
Y cant you juz give me mine?

IT'S my BIRTHDAY!
For goodness sake..
Y would you wanna bring ur relatives and add-on to my buffet list?
I dun fuking noe them!
ITS MY BIRTHDAY!!!
Its so fuking fuking fuking irritating..
Worst, My mum is agreeing to it..

ITS JUZ NOT UR CHALET!
ITS MY FUKING BIRTHDAY!
Even my simplest request of having only my friends to come on fri..
y do u wanna make it impossible?
Then what's the point?

Even on discussing the cake..
Its juz so ridiculous..
They even wanted to took away my fun of playing..
Saying.. bcuz the cake is exp, pls do not throw cakes..

Sighs..
Sometimes, I juz wished to tell relatives of my mum's side..
PLEASE!
Im not really that close with u all..
U cake tat my chalet.. yes..
but u cant take away the fun i'll be having wif my friends..
Its true that u all r filthy rich..
Wo bu xi han..
It was supposed to be my happiness of planning my own birthday..
Y would u want to destory them?

BUT Y?
Y would my mum be so selfish to only care for her own happiness instead of mine??
gambling, taking up my rooms, buying the food THEY like instead of what i liked, allowing them to do what they wished, take away my only day to juz enjoy wif friends n cuxz..
What's the point of this fuking birthday?
Y does everything seems to be so painful for me nowadays?
Im really veri tired..
Im exhausted..

I had enough of u all coming every wkends to gamble and drink..
ITS MY FAMILY?
I HATE YOU ALL!
...
I HATE MY FAMILY..
For one that never cares bout my feelings..
Will never be my priority..

- LifeGoesOn~

Thursday, October 15, 2009

- LifeGoesOn~

Wednesday, October 14, 2009

Thank you..
Bcuz tat's all I need..
=)

- LifeGoesOn~

Sometimes, its hard to stay cool when i've already lost my cool..
HAHA..
I'd often Eat, Shop, Enjoy to reduce stress..
Try not to go out 7days/wk so as to prevent myself from being tired..

Unable to reduce stress and yet becoming more and more tired..
That kind of feeling.. im unable to handle it..
Maybe bcuz I think a lot more and further than the rest..
Yet, keeping almost everything to myself, I had no choice but to remain quite when im not alright..

bff, the 1 whom noes me best will noe the best therapy for me..eating favourite food and buy things to cheer me up..

auntie 10 will be giving a hard knock on my head and will always be saying "you think too much" and comes out either wif a win win solution to difficult problems and come out wif all sorts of weird stuff to keep me entertained..

Prissy will be the 1 I could teased and I'll be so damn happy after doing so.. (im not sick luh.. but its fun..haha)

I miss my 2 idiots and bff..

1.5mths more to the end of torture..
=(

hmmm..
I guessed I shld apologise for being emo to my friends..
Im sorry..
But I really dunno how to explain tiredness..
I also dunno how to express how I felt..
Bcuz all I that was in my mind is..
im tired, im fuked up, im fuked up and IM TIRED..
I would break down explaining to you at that moment..

Cuz.. Afterall, im juz tired..
stress comes from tiredness as well..
I'll nv be worried bout O's..
I guess, but bcuz its a promise to pass..
I MUZ try my best..

Sry..
Im not my usual self nowadays bcuz I cant do the things I wan..
Eat the things I wanna eat to make myself feel better..
Act studious when im obviously not..
Trying to be happy when I could hardly even smile..
Im drained..
Being me is tiring, bcuz I've to be perfect..
Tired + tired = sibei tired..
-.-'''
If im quite, trust me..
Sometimes, Im better off being quiet..
Bcuz my words often have BIG impact on others..
I juz dun wish to hurt any1 when I dun think thru my brain juz bcuz im tired..
Bcuz hurting my friends would be hurting myself even more..

HAHA?
Maybe im crazy..
But at least I will think far better when im not tired..
=)
ciao..

- LifeGoesOn~

Friday, October 9, 2009

=D
I've got changi seaview.. 8/1/10- 12/1/10
WOOOHOOO?
better than aloha la..
at least not as much rumors that its haunted..
-.-'''

Celebration will be on saturday 9th of january..
Friday is a stayover for all friends n cuxz..
Thank god I manage to get rid of those OLD GAMBLERS for friday stayover..
Consider urself as my fren, pls stay..
Thou there will only be 2rooms on the 2nd lv..
Pls bear with it..
But! bcuz i have crazy cuxz and hyper friends..
I think u wun have the chance to slp..
Think wif the liquor im bring u'll be able to drink till u drop..
XD
Im make sure every1 will puke!!
Say i weak!!!
WAHAHAHAHAAH!
but wif all gd drinkers ard..
-.-''' let's not say it too early..
LOL?
Will be awaiting for that day to come..
EMO de can EMO, HIGH DE CAN HIGH..
But try not to go solo or mini grps..
Stay tgt for me alright?
=)

Didnt get to meet up wif bff 2day for dinner..
Studied 4 a lil..
N gave up afterwards..
OMG?

I'm really really veri tired after school everyday..
Its tat kind of..
CAN DIE NOT RESTING situation..
Perhaps its bcuz modules are getting tougher..
-.-'''
In short.. its juz tiring to attend class..
Dun u agree?

XD
<-- overdue pictures..
pasta cafe is not veri nice..
LOL..
pasta mania can easily thrash them..
Moreover if its waraku or anything..
eliminated by bff despite the atmosphere..
-.-'''
Same goes to me..
It's the food tat counts..

haha..
Shall get straight to the point..
=)
It a gd thing to have a bff..
They dun come easy..
I believe when sum1 called you, only u her bff..
It will literally proves that u're the best out of the best..
I dun trust the word forever..
but I trust my bff for who she is.. capable of keeping up to her promise wif the word forever..

Sometimes, we should be a little more giving as well as forgiving..

If ur bff lies to you..
It might be bcuz they dun wan u to be hurt upon noeing the truth..
Or maybe they tot its the best for u to accept other reason..
but bcuz they cared bout ur feeling, they lied..

If they r a lil more zong se qing you..
It doesn't mean u're 4gotten..
It only means, u have to give them the time for them to strike a balance..
It may also be true tat.. they are more deared to their partners than a bff..
But..
at least u come 2nd out of their social list..
LOL!

If ur bff doesnt really cares bout you..
Cares bout them..
Im sure they will do the same thing in return the next time..
Bcuz they are the bff we choose to have..

If ur bff drifts away from you..
things are no longer the same..
there's too much unspoken words..
But juz rmb the unspoken word u used to share, not bcuz both have nth to say, but the heart has already told its story..
How many can be like tat?

=)
I believe in being the best in "BestFriendForever" and wif friends..

Bcuz those u trust will not disappoint u..

Explaination only covers part of the story..
We wouldnt hear the explanation either..
Understand the rest of their explaination with your heart..
Bcuz heart doesn't lies if we still regards them as bff..
=)

long~ wooooo..
ciao..

- LifeGoesOn~

Saturday, October 3, 2009

Gg shoping tml or rather.. 2day wif bff..
=)
Awaits tml outing..
WOOOOOHOOOO~

Am gonna look out for tis bag tml~~
CHIO RIGHT? CHIO RIGHT?
Crumpler crumpler here I come..
But am rather worried.. cuz its an old model..
N brown is somewhat no popular in demand, may be out of stock..
Hopefully i can get it..
I've longed for it le..
If dun have.. rly dunno if I will the rest.. Cuz.. I prefer big base bag than V-shaped ones.. esp when its BIGBIG 1 .. colour oso not tat wild..
AHHHHH~~~~
I WAN I WAN I WAN..
lol..

-.-''' but a bit tsk..
cuz i only budget myself to $200 tml..

Im a lil confused wif my mixed emotions..
FOSSIL.. T.T
canon ixus.. T.T

watching bff shop tml will oso tempt me to buy more stuff..
clothes, shoes, shorts..
-.-'''
I think $1k oso will be insufficient..

1 thing, HOPEFULLY that idiot will go orchard tml after bugis..
if not..
hehe..
fossil??
*its even more expensive*
LOL!
OMG
kill me..

but i seriously needs a bag..
nvm.. I have my all time problem solver wif me tml..
=D
Im so gonna enjoy tml..
ciao~

- LifeGoesOn~

Thursday, October 1, 2009

Finally able to post pics..
<-- tis is the bomb..
-.-''' Cuz it cost a bomb..
Cuz its all ph friendly n is made all from aloe vera..
My complexion seems to be better..
Hopefully im not comforting myself..
Haha..
Joined their member as well..

Hopefully $ will be able to last till O's over..
Cuz i've been thinking to stop getting $ from mum.. Nvm..

Ling's 21st..
A surprise bday party organized by rach..
N it made her teared..
Brought her a big btl of gin..
Too bad wasnt able to stay for long..
If not we would have drank till we puke..

Sometimes, I envied n salute her perseverance..
Juz hoped tat she'll be happy always..
But from what i see..
She is..
Family, Best friend, friends and sum1 tat loves her.. =) im happy for her..

TSK!!
Prissy.. 4 tis pic so small de..
anyway..
I'll be packed tis wkend again..
Studies seems to be harder.. but i'll try..
ciao..

- LifeGoesOn~