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Friday, January 29, 2010

For a while, I felt happy..
I've learned from my lesson that perhaps we should cherish those that truly meant us well..
Despite watever obstacles, he/she would still be there for you as ur friend..
If all im asking for is a true friend..
Shouldnt I be doing things to make them feel more worthwhile being my friend that to make them feel otherwise?

Quit ur nonsense huiling..
didnt you always believe in "action speaks louder than words?

Let's not allow any1 to influence you so easily ar huiling!
peace, myself, think, think , think!

haha..
I think its bcuz of not getting to meet bff..
Basically im juz talking more n more..
Wif bff, I could listen more..
Sometimes she juz covers my mouth to allow herself to talk..
Mon mon mon.. =)

more rest, REST and REST~

- LifeGoesOn~

Thursday, January 28, 2010

Will you wished to be urself, or go with the crowd?
What auntie 10 told me was true..
Perhaps it was after my birthday, I got tired of being the "me" whom i alway portrait to others..
Quiet,understanding, totful.. watever it may be..
She's right..
Somehow.. I did really feel tat I shld start living for myself.. not anymore for others..
In a way, I became more selfish, but wiser..
Perhaps bcuz of peer influene, I became loud..
I think without speaking..
I feel how i wanna feel.. instead of putting others before my veri own shoes..
Being cranky have my veri own attitude n tolerance.. Other than sum1 that doesnt have temper..
It's somehow made me feels more like a human..
Like 10 always said..
Im only my true self when im wif my close friends..
My flaws became obvious when im with them..
Its the only time which i could put down my masks..
N be the kid whom i nv showed..
hitting ard, playing, say out watever i wanna say, teased the both of them..
Its the only time i can stop being serious..
wif bestie, I dun have to show a single perfection..
she noes me more than I myself could realised..
I dunno if im better quiet to listen.. or 1 that could be the 1 that can chat wif you wholeheartedly(it might hurts if i said smth wrong; i juz don't noe how to think n talk)..

But it doesnt mean im fake..
I will be me.. again..
Listen and comment after thinking..
choose not to be close wif any single 1..
Be solo..
Its time to stop being cranky..
its a gd thing tat im gg back to being emo..
=)

sighs..however..
It only means that i wouldnt open up my heart to allow you to understand me better..
Im quiet by natural..
If only you could be the few tat says that im noisy.. and ask me to shut up and listen to you..
=)

<3 you guys always..

Some time for myself..
Away from being bonded too closely tgt..
But still, together..
Back to being myself wif short replies..
to think before i say..

jiayou huiling!

P.S. Im changing back for myself.. i dunno if it might be a lil too dramatic for the rest to accept..
but i should stop hurting ppl..

Sometimes I really wished that people will stop thinking about being fair or not.. But to really give ur all to the other juz to exceed the pt of human's selfishness.. A pt where u would sacrifice to see ones happiness instead of ur own..
i juz dun wan to believe in wat bff's said.. "every1 is selfish"
But.. even i myself gets tired of not being self centered n selfish..

Humans..
Horrible arent they?

- LifeGoesOn~

Wednesday, January 27, 2010

HOW COULD I DO WITHOUT U?
LOW EE LING!
<3

To tell me what went wrong.. when im totally clueless bout myself..
To cheer me up when i deep down...
thank you for always being thr for me..
guilding me out of the darkness when i call out for help..
=D
xie xie ni! auntie 10!

- LifeGoesOn~

It's kinda saddening to find urself changing..
But u cant do anything to it..

Juz that I didnt noe the truth will hurt so badly..
I've became selfish, self-centered, cranky and annoying..
I didnt noe what went wrong wif me..
But I noe my words went out without thinking about how others feels..
I dun bother explaining myself or things when it isnt right..
I got easily agitated.. that i'll vent everything even without thinking..

It's unlike me..
It really is unlike me..
Its not who i used to be..
to be able to feel how others feel..
To understand and give my helping hand..

Y do i seems so flawed now?
If things were only bcuz im juz tired,
y do i not sees or feels it tis way but thinking that im changing for the worse?

Im sorry..
but what else could i do to prove u wrong besides saying sorry?

Is this a year filled wif tears?
why am i crying this much when its juz january?
Im tired..

how much can you understand?

- LifeGoesOn~

Sunday, January 24, 2010

Im back~
HAHA..
It has been dinosaurs years since i've last updated.. XD
Anyway, tis is what tat i've not upload to fb..
Thank you sweets for the $..
N ame for the wonderful handmade cake..
=D
Hope u enjoyed ur celebration too..
Wonder if ur cake is worthwhile making..
haha

Is thr 2 idiots that has yet to give me any present?
HAHA.. i believe it will be on prissy birthday tat i'll receive mine.. -.-'''
January babies are often at lost bcuz we'll be soooo damn broke from dec events; christmas n new yr..
Well.. but i still love the both of u for helping me tat much during my birthday...
Anyway.. for the rest.. Thanks lots for the wonderful present and angbao..
Appreciated it lots..

Skipped bff's birthday..
Somehow i felt guilty bout it..
Will celebrate wif you soon!
Blated!
=D

Anyway, the picture are so overdue so i post them juz to have some updates and ppl can kooped some of the pics that they wans..
So.. it will be a lil unrelated..
HAHA?

Y does medicine taste so bitter?
Y muz paracetamol be so big tat i had to chew on them?
EEEEWWWW..
hates medicine..

Well, this is taken at ahyan's coffeeshop..
Thanks for the treat!
the zicha thr tasted great!
The serving is BIG~

Next, I have something that was gg on round my head after yesterday's event..
Whr we had "true-true" games..
The sentence "do i have a lot of friends ponders me"

Haha..
I dunno if i have lots of friends..
But i do draw the lines veri clearly..
Till things became..
important and redundant..
-.-'''

If u realised, If im without my friends,
I don't like to smile..
There are commitment in friendship..
Those hi-bye friends, 1day class friends are not considered as friends to me..
Yes, friends if u wan.. But juz not those that I will show you "me"..
I believe the me if you don't know well..
Would be cold, unapproachable..
N.. Trust me..
I would speak more than 1 sentence unless its related to sch work..

Owwww..
My friend..
U're glad tat u're my friends isnt it?
I've talked more than 5sentences to you!
XD
LOL!
juz joking..

You noe u're the friend that i need..
The one whom i can relied on..
The friend whom will be there when im at my worst moment..
The one that double my happiness when im wif u all..
One that allows me to understand myself evenmore..
Teach me to be the best of myself..
noes that im 4getful and dumb.. N yet.. will constantly be thr to get me out of the difficult times..

Noes me so well that you will noe what i want without even saying..
The one that I dun have to act like another person while talking to..
For you allow me to be me..

I dun need lots of friends to be by my side..
Juz the right friends to be there for me..
Forever and always..( can you say tis?)
that makes u different from those I dun regard as friends isnt it?

You noe u're important..
=)
The clear difference from the treatement you receive..

- LifeGoesOn~

Tuesday, January 5, 2010

The neither up nor down feeling for birthday..
=(=

Its veri tiring/a waste to celebrate..
Seriously.
cater a buffet, bbq ordering, cake ordering, inviting guest, thing-do-buy n to-do..

Instead of feeling happy, I kinda felt sad..
lol..

I HATE DECIDING AND BEING FORCED..
I hate the two of them to be exact, I'll get angry n pissed over it..(lose my cool)
I hate to choose what every1 has to eat..
I hate to choose wat cake n what bbq stuff i muz buy..
I hate to choose dresscode..
I hate to have 100guest when I have to smile till my jaw's drop..
I hate it when relatives rushed me to get things done..
I hate it when they want me to spend more when i've already told them im SAVING for my friends present..
I hate it when i've already i have to do everything myself..
=(

the only thing tat brightens up me is that..
family to be asking, you wanna buy key a not? or juz give angbao? I help u settle tis n tat?
bff would panicked over buying my 21st present..
seeing auntie 10 n prissy de cunning smiles n seeing them planning everything in place, and nicely for me in buying the deco n small gift makes me happy..
n friends will be like asking what you wan? n have no idea what to get all bcuz I dun really need anything else..

haha..
To be exact, all i need is you ppl..
=)
to share my joy..
juz those people whom I cared, n cared bout me..

but haha..
y do i have a bad feeling that most aint free..
sighs..

Wondering if =( will over power =)

If i noe, I would rather make it a small celebration..

at least i'll feel happy from the btm of my heart..

- LifeGoesOn~