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Monday, June 29, 2009

Im lazy to post..
pinic, kite flying and freesbie on saturday wif cuxz and relatives..
It's been a long while ever since the 4 of us sat down n have a hearty chat..
haha.. shall not elaborate much.. pics r wif lian.. so i'll post bout it when its sent to me..
N.. bee sent me the "sister" photo le..
Shall post it when i free like it..

Haha.
Plain lazy..
Pon wafer..
*ROCKS*
Ask me to pon 1000000X i swear i will..
LOL! I did today.. >.< pon for movie n arcade-ed..
WAFER SUX TO THE MAX!
anyway..
Im lazy.. HAHA!

so..
Till then..
Ciao..

- LifeGoesOn~

Thursday, June 25, 2009

Have been rather temperamental lately..
Dun really like tis unfamiliar intruder inside me..
msn and internet is giving me tons n tons of problem..
I haven been slping well lately either, im tired.. but I juz couldnt fall aslp..
my ulcer hurts..
I gets angry easily and vented it on my family..
I lose my cool so much that I didnt even realise until I started recalling what i've said..
Somehow.. Tis devil that i've been trying to suppress is getting a lil out of hands..
Maybe... pms is on it way...
But a lot of things seems to be getting on my nerves..

Dread to go to work on sat..
A promise is a promise..
Maybe I should find means to quit tis job..
I basically getting sick of everything..
Even when it comes to love ones, I wished I could be away from them..
All I need is my room and music at its full blast..

When the devil overcame the angel..
I cant be bothered bout how ppl thinks or feel..
Perhaps miss nice had gone for a holiday and miss bad is taking over her shift?

Sometimes, I juz feel that I shouldnt lived to pleased people..
Because im burying myself so much tat I dun even understand what do I really wans from myself..
I tot happiness is by making the people I cared happy..
But..
It felt as thou im drowning from the cruel reality that no 1 actually bothers bout how I feel..
So, for wat i cared how u feel?
I dunno why i can sucks so much that even some strangers I would be concern bout..
Y do I feel what others feel?
If I can wish for something...
I really wished I could be as selfish as you...
At least I would be better off being a self centered me..

Well..
I juz wanna vent it all..
not on some innocent party..
Sometimes, I really wonder if selfish exist in my dictionary..
AAAAAAAARRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
im tired of repetition..
STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
wadever.

- LifeGoesOn~

Sunday, June 21, 2009

Kelong trip~
I got to watch sunrise as well as rainbow..
Thr's no sunset bcuz it's always raining in the afternoon..
Gambled, fishing and delicious meals every 2hrs frequently
*ps.. cuz thr's lots of chopstick b4 i could take any pictures, I decided not to take them anymore.. haha..

the night view.. too bad my hp isnt gd enough..
if not i'll show u lotsa lotsa stars..
XD
In the middle of nowhr..
Slacking all day long..

Life may seems veri simple thr..
thr's no air con, u sleep on double decks..
the fresh water shower drips lil water out..
U fish for food..
U lived like thr's no tomorrow..
A stress free life..
I desire..
Next trip wif my family and relatives would be redang..
=D

However...
I'm still hoping for those trip wif friends..
haha..
*hint hint*

Owww..
I've got sunburn!
Owww..
I've got pimples pooping out..
But..
It was so damn GREAT!
and fun!
saw the biggest rainbow in my life..
XD

Now im back..
I dread to go to sch tml..
However, i miss my bed..
HAHA!
Report still undone..
But..
I dun really care..
Juz finish up my citation n no need to wry..
cuz wun drag the rest of my fyp team down..
O's exam is during oct..
sighs..

I wish to have a longer holiday..
If gg on a holiday can make us 4get bout everything..
I wan more.. more.. MORE!
>.<

I wanna lived like thr's no tml!!!
alrites..
im tired..
n the after effect of sunburn hurts..
So..
ciao~

- LifeGoesOn~

Thursday, June 18, 2009

It's expected..
So expected...

Im sooooo tired...

I wanna be away from everything...

Life's such a bore recently..
Sometimes.. I juz wished I could slp slp n slp without waking up..
Im getting a little too tired...

Give me a break from all this fcuking humans..

The sea breeze will take away my sorrows..
Kelong here i come..

- LifeGoesOn~

Monday, June 15, 2009

Lets tok bout FYP~
I wanna be sacastic to.......
XD
As compared to other FYP team in 5's..
Perhaps we aint that happening..
We dun have tat much time to everything tgt..
We dun have fools in our team to keep us entertained everytime..
We dun take as much photos tgt in 5's..
N lots of things we haven done tgt..
-.-'''
Ahiya.. I dunno how to be sarcastic la..
screw myself.. lols..

Let me tell you bout these FYP team?
HAHA!
Anyway.. guessed its juz for them..

Amelia.
hmm..I would say.. She's the sweetest friend of all.. one that bakes, make card and give lil stuff for friends.. how many friend could actually does that? From the outside.. she's extremely guai.. but from the inside she's 1 bad girl.. I bet she watched too much gossip girls.. LOLS! she sure can go very hyper if she wans to.. One that is easily bored and has to alway keep herself occupied to keep herself from rotting.. somehow, expression tells it all?.. you know you love me.. xoxo..hahas..

peggy.
Words that she says often comes out funny.. even when it wasnt meant to be a joke.. its juz funny.. >.< the much more popular,outstanding type, she has the ability to capture 1's heart ea sem from her class..if im not wrong.. am i? haha.. Is clever, but often hide her true potential bcuz she doesnt like taking charge or be in control of situations. she's observant, but seldom shows.. haha.. lots of unknown/unclear situation in her I would say.. It all depends on her mood of the day.. or is it try harder to understand?

Huiyan.
She's 1 smartass.. clever by nature? seriously.. good grades and result kind.. hmmm.. If u think that the younger 1's are more stress-free and easy to understand.. not for her.. she's as complicated as her blog post.. haha.. she seldom shows her true feelings.. not even to those that were closed enough to understand when she doesnt wans.. however, she understand situation well enough..she noe when things is right or wrong.. that's y she's the leader in this FYP team.. asked her anything.. she'll try her best to help.. always..

Yingxiang.
emotions is what she excel in.. expressing and handling.. Even without telling, just by looking at the face, she noe u're having problems with difficulty.. Sharing is what that is good about her.. Helped and be helped in return? One that have the peservarance and determination that she should always rely on herself.. Strong back bone in short.. Often she doesnt speak bcuz she's tired or really have nth to say.. N if its bcuz she's having some tots inside her, hopefully she'll shares it wif u.. if not.. too bad.. She's 100% truthful if u eva got to ask her question sincerely..

oh my.. im tired.. will edit it.. Maybe..! 1am le..
xoxo
ciao~
RANDOMNESS~

- LifeGoesOn~

Sunday, June 14, 2009

omg omg omg..
Sighs..
Its the end of holiday already..
Juz when i'm starting to enjoy life..

Anyway..
Im in deep shit..
2100+ words for report writing..
Wafer fab UT n lesson tml..
GREAT?

Haha..
Even so..
I couldnt be bothered..
Because..
=D
Im ssooooooo happy..
got some friendship fuel recharge..
N I blogged juz to say..
Thank you..

truth.laughters.share.concern.acknowledgement.happiness.

Got myself a guess wallet..
Loving it!
Will be getting a polaroid by june..
=D
hmm..
what bout fossil watch, crumbler bag n pixon hp?
lols..
I need more $$$$$$$..
Hopefully dad dun kill me..
Need to start working soon..
Nites!

=( bro got a super chio lappy 2day..
from acer too.. pure black..
DAMN HIM FOR BEING SOO RICH!
desktop, lappy..
I wanna go out into society n work too..
but no matter what..
$ doesnt matters..
Its the ppl that believes $ matters that matters to me..
ciao~

- LifeGoesOn~

Thursday, June 11, 2009

Thursday,
Went to auntie 10 mum's shop..
Its.. A lil.. erm.. gold~
WAHAHAHA!
Auntie oso got a few strains of her hair dyed, same colour..
I expected even brighter effect.. but was already unacceptable for auntie..
Haha.. But I supposed I looked even "cooler" cuz it was supposed to match tis idiotic unbalanced hair until it grows back..

Thanks for the accompaniment..
N the never ending chat..
But.. not the waiting huh..
U better change ur late habit..
-.-''' make me wait almost 1hr..
Next time I wan abalone! Xp
haha.. but i think the cab fare is enough to burn a big hole in ur pocket..
tsk tsk tsk.. *shake head* lol..

How to tell if one is a gd friend?
One that showers you with care and concern..
Agrees with you..
Will not leave u behind..
Had lots of fun tgt.. N is always not enough.. thus have never ending meeting ups during the holidays..
Do stupid things tgt..
Understand how you feels..
N nv stop trying to make ur life a lil chaotic yet colourful..

A: whr r u? fast fast come..
B:ok.. I rushing the uncle..
A: -.-''' huh??? u rushing the bus uncle ar? omg.. rush the uncle the entire bus de ppl life is in ur hand.. dun luan lai!
B:then if dun rush how?
*In the end, B took a cab instead of bus..*
Its easy to make ur frens smile/laugh wif a juz a few smses..
The initiative taken is what it takes to keep friendship alive and sustainable..
ps. I dare u to really rush the bus uncle next time u're late..
=)

.........
Currently have not much mood to proceed with report writing..
Couldnt be bothered..
But.. cannot drag the rest down bcuz of me.. so..
CHIONG AR!
tml.. tml.. lol!

Something to BFF,
Thanks for asking..
I'd really wished you were giving in bcuz u wans to.. not bcuz u have to..
However..
thank you for trying to explain n clear my doubts unlike b4 of not even trying to bother..
I noe that u're often bz.. or rather free only once in a blue moon..
Perhaps tis made our friendship stronger or even fragile..
Its hard to tell..
Supposed to be or shldnt be..
Being happy is all it takes in life..
Not the ppl u r wif..
"Cuz we all lived for ourself?"
Im starting to think so too..

*its all about being happy or not at the end of the day..*
Perhaps u're the 1 that should think twice if tis friendship is worth ur precious time and effort..
im seriously saying it for ur sake..

sighs..
tired.. nitez..

- LifeGoesOn~

Monday, June 8, 2009

Ppl says my blog is bout friendship friendship friendship..

Shall blog something else 2day since im feeling a lot better 2day..

Try to make things more reader friendly..
-.-''' N will we react n do the same.. Or, otherwise..

Ur fyp team were to help out ur facilitator..
To assist RP students and ppl from outside..
U'd helped out as usual..
Everything goes fine and the entire workshop ended..

*names were not used to protect the innocent*

..Situation..
A girl then suddenly approaches and asked for the no from one of the girl inside the team..
Will u give ur no. if u were her?
Ask the reasons or juz give it?

To me, I personally feels that bcuz that out of the 5fyp teammates..
Tat 1 that is being approach may perhaps looks cleverer, maybe smarter and would be helpful as a senior..
Anyway, girls r less harmless than guys isnt it?
Giving a no. is not that bad..
To be rejecting some1 that asked sincerely in front of the other 4 then is what I called bad..
Moreover, its a girl.. not a guy..

Somehow I wouldnt ask for reasons too.. cuz.. either ways.. ask or not.. The results is still the same..
Disgrace her, or make a fool out of urself for the rest?
School stuff, or some other motive..
Does it matters?

That's the way ahling does it her way..
Perhaps I would agree with what Ahem did..

But poor her to kana that joke of the day entertainment..
To think bout it..
If everything is what they tot was..
God blast her..
It would be their joke of the year..
-.-'''

Anyway!
Went to airportT3, T2 then Tam library and lastly settle down at century square coffee bean juz to find 2 pathetic sockets..
I wonder whose that swayz.. -.-'''
Anyway.. 137/3000 words..
Wow?
Am soooooo dead..

What will you do it it was you?

FB:
It feels like nobody loves you, for your worst fear is loneliness. No matter how many or how little friends you have, you feel as if they all hate you and that eventually the whole world will turn its back on you. You try to hold onto whoever you can, but it seems the more you try to hold on, the more people push away. Will you ever fit in? Ending things is tempting... However, remember that there is ALWAYS one person who cares.

Any1 by the name of 'one person'?
tired!
ciao~

- LifeGoesOn~

Sunday, June 7, 2009

Friends are my most valuable assets..
They are my source of happiness..
The ones that makes me have more feelings for this practical world..

Being my BFF isnt a simple task..
Bcuz, I will nv express out my own feelings..
It not only needs 1's heart to understand.. It needed countless effort and initiative..
I dunno why.. But this idiot juz seems to have all it takes to be my BFF...

Countless things have been putting strains eva since we graduated..
Indeed, things were different from before..
But, despite all those differences,
BFF is still that BFF we always wan ea other to noe..

Sometimes I wonder..
If I am a failure in friendship, in everything..
I couldnt even find a reason for my friends to be my friend..

I really dunno what else I can do..
3 or 1..
I told myself I can do it for those that cared..
I cried, cried really hard so that I could feel better thinking everything would be over..
However, things nv goes well for me..
If it was all god's prank for tat msg, 'It' did it really well..
Tears falls even more as 'It' wishes..

Ignoring it is painful..
Doing smth bout it is even more tormenting..
I truly needs a break from everything..
Im veri tired..
Thr's nothing I could do but watch everything dies..
Sometimes I really wished u're the 1 reading it..
Sometimes I really wished I could do without friends..
Please pardon me..
Emo or actings..
Its the only place I could express myself..
take it or leave it..

- LifeGoesOn~

Thursday, June 4, 2009

I WILL SERIOUSLY KILL THE TWO OF U IF U POST MY UNGLAM PHOTOS!
omg!
BIATCH!
you know u love me..
dun liddat la!!!!
post it in FB n im sooooo dead!

LOLS!
Tis is so dumb..
Basically tis 2 idiots juz enjoys screwing me up veri much..

ps. pls do not ask how unglam it is..
I was drunk..
It couldnt get any better...

U two r sooooo dead! -.-'''
OK OK! pls! I beg u! can die leh! both of u r simply enjoying it!
asses!
haha!
so much loves n hates..
juz dun let my friends see it..
if not i'll burnt ur phone to ashes..
>.<

Somehow tis is the reason y i hated inventions of cameras!
ur day will come..
*grins*

- LifeGoesOn~

Wednesday, June 3, 2009

Clubbing was oh my f-king god crazieeee...
Thr was.. ame, peg-taging(baoyan n caiyan), fish, jac, changyi-tagging(couldnt rmb) lols..
N 2 idiots I asked to tag along.. 10 n prissy..

Things started off slow..
Until we felt some kicks..
We started dancing..

LOLS.. fell down while climbing the stairs to reach the stage..
-.-'''
ame make me fall down.. T.T haha..
She's too fast n granny 10 is too slow..

But didnt regret bring those 2 along..
bcuz thr were no guys to protect..
It's kinda easy to taken adv of..
But we had fun immitating..
LOLS..
N.. Auntie noes when to leave the dancefloor at the apporiate time..
So.. Saved

However!
Bcuz I was kinda.. Seh.. After some repeated shots..
We went to jazz bar..
Definately if sit at 1 comfy couch will seh 1 mah..
After that all I know was they kept slamming me onto the couch..
Prissy.. I will nv 4get tat..lol!
Honestly speaking..
Am I drunk?

Ahem... Ahem..
Ermm... I guessed.. maybe..
I only noe I had no energy to do otherwise,
I dunno how crazieee I became..
A little overly high n happy,
a no no to being touchy.. lols.. I always heard keep ur hands to urself..
I was juz-ed trying to get up.. -.-'''
Falling here n thr proving them wrong is almost impossible cuz they will slam be back on the couch..
Nv protect me well loh..
Let my hand get touch repeatedly by some despo face i rmb vaguely..
luckily we're sitting couch by couch..
If not.. jialat..
First time I got drunk..
One thing I noe..
I couldnt control my own body..
I controlled my mind..

Me: I still can drink a few more shots..
Prissy: ok.. we go hm and drink ok?
Me: im not drunk.. juz *seh* (its so f-king useless trying.. lols)

U 2 had fun hor?
Laughed at my falling back n forth..
Even my words oso dun believe...
Worst! tooked my unglam photos while they r cam-whoring..
10 I swear i will kill u if i sees them in FB or ur blog..
*At hm*
Watch me fall off from bed n laughed so hard over it hur?
-.-'''
haha!
I even vomited at hm by the after effect of their slammings..
It was hell crazy..

Being drunk
That short period of happiness..
High on almost everything..
Letting lose all troubles and saddness..

Here I am having tots of bcuming a hardcore clubber..
HAHA!

For a moment, I was TTTTTTTTTTHHHHHHHHHHHHHIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIISSSSSSSSSSSSSS
happy in life..
However,the merlion part was some anti climax end..
Well, Nv been drunk is a now legend..
So now I noe my limit..
3 more shots after 50% drunk like yesterday, U'll watch ur shirt turn brown..
has..
Juz joking..
Im always glam..
REALLY!!

- LifeGoesOn~

Monday, June 1, 2009

WOOHOO~
Im back..
Cuz auntie 10 has some jap buffet craving..
<-- So.. here goes..
Prissy wasnt able to tag alone as she's having lesson..
So..
Again..
PK-ed wif 10..
N.. Lost!
Basically bcuz I drank 3 big cups of drinks n she merely even finish 1..
Its always such a coincident..
cut hair, cravings..
N now menses oso sama sama come tgt..
tsk tsk tsk.. copy me rite?
Haha.. JK..
She's my kaki.. How could we be different?
*beat chest* juz tat im a lil better in everything.. WAHAHAHA!
Xp
Im so looking forward to wed..
PK!! Hopefully I wun be merlion b4 her..
has..
=)

A lil update bout BFF,
Guessed im being hit back to square one..
I dunno if its good or bad..
What I know is that im still ur best friend forever..
Whr it couldnt be any better..
If only u understand what BFF means..

A girl that puts studies as priorities.. 1 tat can hit GPA 3.8..
A dominant one that lived for her future.. enjoys all sorts of challenge..
Hot tempered, stuck up attitude.. nv lose cuz she nv will allow..
Keep others comments shut cuz.. she dun bother what u're trying or gonna say..
A bf girl..
Somewhat a person that can live without friends..

A complete opposite in all sorts of ways..
Yet, some irreplaceable BFF..
If it wasnt for u..
Poly would be somewhr out of reach bcuz i've nv enjoyed studying and nv would..
U mapped ur future so well that I couldnt help but strive for mine as well..
bcuz u're so 0% patient.. the 100% patient me often lose my cool n fake miss nice faded away..
As friends were nv veri much into consideration, I've matured pretty much as well..

Something we shared the same.. before.. or maybe now still..
Always, BFF..

I have the friends..
but its without the forever..

I wonder how long can I support u without fail being that pillar of support in life..
I really hope its forever..
However, often..
U're the 1 too, that makes me lose hope in friends..
I wished u have clearer perception of what BFF means to you..
Even if it wasnt me..
I noe i've tried my best to help my BFF..

Good times.. bad times.. tears or joy..
U should share it all..
Its not bout having time, it matters or not..
Its bout being fair to those that constantly shared ur tears n bad times..

haha..
sighs..
u wun be reading it anyway..
Will any1 understand tis kind of BFF?
haiz..

- LifeGoesOn~