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Thursday, May 28, 2009

Love u 2 to bits..
Thanks luh..
Despite their bz schedules..
They are still able to make it for the clubbing session i've planned..
My beauty is still something they cant resist..
LOLS!
You know you love me..
XD
Mon buffet session.. cum movie..
Tues exercise..
Wed clubbing..
Fri ton over at my house..

Tis is what I called true friends..
constantly being thr..
Update not for the sake of it.. but bcuz we cared..
Had fun, chill out tgt.. until the next day down wif serious acheing and headache but was so worthwhile..
Do crazy stuff..
Laugh at stupid things..
Constantly msg or call to disturb..(autie 10 is veri gd at tis.. esp when im always slping)
Dragged ea other down eat but not exercise..(dun watch ur diet anymore prissy)
lols..

Alrites!
I cant wait!
too bad prissy's having camp tml..
If not we would be having fun tml already..

A punishment for tat..
Shall make her drunk on wed ya 10?
then have some P.K match wif u..
HeHeHe..
then one no need to go to sch another no more programme to rush..
LOL!
Oh my..
Im so totful..
haha..

I cant wait for my hol..
To let go of everything..
But b4 tat..
REPORT WRITING!!!!!
omg..
Damn anti-climax..

I wanna be sooo damn bz until hol's over..

Sorry to ME..
For letting myself down..
I shldnt be helping you..
We r not even friends to begin wif..
But I cant help it..

why?
WHY?
why?

I told you BFF never dies..

sighs..

- LifeGoesOn~

Wednesday, May 27, 2009

Hmm.. The mag on horoscope was right..
I guessed I definately needs some chillin session..
However.. I dun think it will be at coffee shop..
lols..
Mon would be fun..
Buffet-ing and maybe catch some movie for add-ons with the usual after auntie 10's exam n prissy's camp..
A break from anything and everything..

haha..
To think of it..
I've been avoiding too much things..
Taking a break from work ever since sch reopens..
Giving swimming a missed everytime wif auntie lisa juz bcuz i dont wish to go her house n see sum1 whom i dun wanna see..
Hiding inside the room juz to avoid conversation wif family..
Nua-ing for the sake of nua-ing..
IDK what im doing.. but.. its what im doing..

Days in school were almost the same..
PBL, breakouts, research, slacked after sch and hm..
However, thr will always be endless chats and laughter wif sweets..
=D

hy:what is pinocchio
peg: the yellow colour..
Peg: *hesistate* the yellow colour.... D....Duck..
all: *burst into laughter*

And 2day was some chilling session topic, BFF..
Best friend forever = Bye friend forever..
Whr we toked our heart out bout some AWESOME friendship..

Sometimes, good friends happens to be juz around us..
but often..
Those we cherish were the 1 that belongs to the "not so good" catergory..
but still..
Im sure.. thr's a reason for the 4 of u to list them BFF..
Bcuz u knew u had some great memories wif tis BFF..

So..
One day, if they wans to be tat BFF again..
When u've pretty much heck everything bout her..
Will u still be firm to tell them its not gonna happen?

Privilege for that BFF isnt it?

However..
If ur situation were like mine,
Sometimes, Ur friend is better off without you if you came to realization..
U have to know when to really let lose of the memories you could no longer possess..

You wished they knew how you feel..
But it aint gonna happen..
Trust me.. They couldnt be bothered..
God teaches you to believe in friends.. yes..
But it didnt teach you to be a foolish..

xoxo

more than happy wif what I have..
Definately.. Maybe..

- LifeGoesOn~

Tuesday, May 26, 2009

I'd really had an awesome friendship that every1 will envy..
However, I often forget this sentence "not anymore"

To think that if I could get emo juzed bcuz of tis 1 msg..
Im still not getting over it..

I've finally understood
"If a true friendship could end, it has never started."
It's really hard for people to comeby to make a difference in life..
Knowing a friend for long..
No only mean how much tears and joy u've gone through with them..
But how long they have supported one another throughout no matter how hard it is or will be..

A true friendship will never end..
Bcuz even if u tried to ignore, to let tis best friend fade..
U noe it urself that deep down inside..
U still see the glim weak light guilding u to them..
Perhaps that's the power of girls friendship?
That u forgive bcuz u noe ur pride doesnt weighs as much as the bestie right infront of u..

Emo is for a reason..
Not bcuz of the stupid da dao li above..
But..
It takes 2 hands to clap.. 1 hand to slap..
It's juz not right to do anything.. worst, wanting to help the situation..
Its not something for me to cherish..

sighs.
It's not as if I have no besties..
some sort of loner shit..
that I would get emo over tis kind of 'fren'..
haiz..
i dunno la..
watever it is..
U're not a friend anymore..

Lies, Betrays, Bragger, Irritates..
Even for so long..
U still get it rite..
Perhaps you know y u're the only 1 getting it right..

Knows the best, disappoint the most..

Peeps.. if u realise..
Im not in a good mood recently..
provoking the dark side of me is putting ur life at risk...
so..
Play at ur own risk..
ciao..

I wished for an answer..
but the prayers has never been heard..

- LifeGoesOn~

Sunday, May 24, 2009

Great!
I looked like a fucking retard..
All thanks to my most trusted hairdresser..
-.-'''

Was planning to get rid of those "qiao qiao" hair..
So.. it was like 1cm him to trim..
Think he find that its too simple..
Instead he recommended me to try something new for once..
N.. I did!

Having one side of the hair longer than the other is..
omf-ing god..
Firstly, it'd looked funny..
Secondly, I've lost my coolness..
Thirdly, It's so attention seeking..
Lastly, Its Fugly Fugly Fugly..
T_____T

I can only wait until the shorter side grows back..
(If I cut short both side.. It'll be even worst)
I DUN WANNA GO SCH~
lol..
Luckily my fringe still looks fine..
If not i'll really bang my head against the wall n die..
=.=
So.. U have to keep ur comments to urself..
ARGGGHHH!
I WAN MY COOL BACK!

- LifeGoesOn~

Saturday, May 23, 2009

Was blog hopping..
Came to realise that I've missed a lot of things bcuz I was sick..
AUNTIE..
Dun give up no matter how hard things is coming by..
Even at my worst situation..
Weren't u the 1 that alway comes up with the best solution?

Hmmm..
Thou we're the same, Vent on blog bcuz thr doesnt seems to be any other way..
juz rmb, always.. im always a phone call away..
Of course im more human than a com rite?
*beat chest*
We're so gonna update ea other when the 3 of us meet up..
=)
thanks for the random get well soon greetings..
haha..
Saturday,
outing wif the sweets were cancelled as ame was having some hangover..
tsk tsk tsk.. lol..
So.. I stayed at hm..
gambling session wif relatives..
xtra $28 income..
Have been wondering if I should get lesser pocket $..
I'd really dun like
"u noe how fortunate u r being my daughter?"
"wa.. got so much pocket $ dun wan gamble ar?"
"y always no $"
First, I aint fortunate..
the fortunate one.. they are ur 2 precious sons..
Second, I cant afford to lose $ wif my "shocking" spendings..
Third, Bcuz i've just lost my $ to you..
So, even if I get more $,
Im giving it to the others bcuz its once in a blue moon if i win..
N.. I dun need $ to make myself fortunate..
sighs.
i've been pms-ing..
Am rather tired..
Sometimes..
I wished I stand TALL alone..
Whr no 1 in the world could affect me..
Especially something I called priority..
'It doesnt seems to help at all..
The power u posessed,
Even if it means to destroy oneself..
.........

- LifeGoesOn~

Friday, May 22, 2009

Lols..
Superwomen have her days of falling sick too..
>.<
To slp in the library like a dead fish,
I muz have disgraced myself..
=(
But I was too seh to bother..
38.4 is like literally putting my head and organs in hot oven..
Was supposed to go to the doc..
But gave it a missed when I didnt even have any strength left when it reaches 39.1
Haha..
So dramama..

Feeling much better 2day..
37.5..
haha..
N every1 was like..
"got see doc?" "feeling better?" "still having fever?" "*touch forehead*"
=D
tyvm 4 every1's concern..
Im feeling much better now..
Signature statement..
"im strong"
haha..
So wheneva im eating less..
U noe what it meant already..
-.-'''

funny convo
Me: I've good body resistance, I got well within a day, im strong..
Bro: If u have good body resistance, u wun even fall sick in the first place..
Me: -.-'''

haha.. tat's all folks..
I needa rest more..
Shopping tml wif sweets..
=)

xoxo

- LifeGoesOn~

Tuesday, May 19, 2009

Trust
Respect
Understanding
Empathy

Forgiveness
Responsiveness
Insight
Expression of love
Needing one another
Dependability
Spritual connection

ABC's?
Accept you
Belive in your potential
Comfort you when u're sad
Delight in your successes
Empathize with your struggle
Forgive you when you hurt their feelings, just as you do for them.
Give you time and attention
Hug you.. often
Inspire you to do your best
Just love you
Keep your secrets
Listen with their hearts
Make you want to be a better person
Never judge you
Ocassionally disappoint you, 'cause they're humans, too
Point out your good qualities when you forget
Question you when you're about to do something really dumb
Respect your boundaries
Share their hopes and fears with you
Tell you truth
Understand you, even when you don't understand yourself
Value your ideas and opinions
Will do anything they can to help you
Xtend you the benfit of the doubt
Yearn to her from you when you're away
Zing with joy cause you're the friend

R u thinking of sum1 now?
If so..
thank them for being that friend..

Cuz you never know when it'll be gone..

Haha..
Sighs..
Even if u're an A-Z friend..
Does true friendship really exists?

- LifeGoesOn~

Monday, May 18, 2009

Im kinda having some slight difficulty smiling nowadays..
I wonder if its juz me..
Too tired, Or having some depression emo shit in me..
sighs..

Ponned sch 2day..
As usual a sudden decision made by tsk tsk tsk..
shall not mention the culprit names..
LOL...

This kind of life,
I desire..

Shopping wif frens..
study-free lifestyle..
No work..
Plain eating out n buying things to pamper oneself..

btw..
Peg house is DAMN big can?
got 3 sofa set la!
2 story summore!
-.-'''
bambi's super cute too..
How I wish I could have 1 too..
XD

Some words impacted on me a lot today..
Seriously speaking..
Sometimes I couldnt even judge if my friends were true..
Or its juz bcuz I may came in "handy"..

I do understand that $ is hard to earn..
Moreover, Its what my family tot would bring me happiness..
N.. Something which proves the SIZE im currently stucked wif..
But..
haiz..
A family that literally cares bout u controls ur spending..
One that provide monetary needs when u asked or even better, dun even need to ask..
Isnt concern..
Until I really bought something some..
They'll come asking..
Hey girl.. whr u buy it from?
it looked nice.
have u been eating lot?
or watever..
That's the moment I noticed I still have a family..

ARGH..
I dun like mention bout family stuff..
Neither will I tok bout BFF's crap eva again..
*SCREWED*

Life's complicated..
It's not as simple as it looks..
Being happy on the outside doesnt mean u're happy on the inside..
Worst, both ways..

Meeting up tis sat..
love u two to the max..
the silly 2 that perfected the imperfect world..
7yrs ongoing to 8..
Looked how old u became!
aunties!!
Xp

- LifeGoesOn~

Saturday, May 16, 2009

I didnt noe receiving msg from sum1 u've been wanting 2 forget could actually hurt so much..

Sometimes..
When i tot to myself,
Am I really underappreciated?

Why am I the 1 that can only shares ppl's sorrows?
N the happiness was never shared?

I really wished to be a perfect friend that every1 would envy..
But..
Instead of being envy, im being trampled on by people whom I actually wanna give my best to..

Im a useless friend aint I?
Sum1 that only follows..
didnt have much temper..
Wun quarrel bcuz I often seems so dead..
Will not show how I really feel bcuz I DON'T KNOW HOW?

sighs..
That msges juz makes my heart feels tat im only a tool..
Even if we're not friends..
U still would share things wif me cuz whatever thing I say is melody to ur ears..

I do felt a lil stupid..
Trying to 4get everything once again..
But..
How could I not help?

I dunno why am I crying for small matters..
I juz felt that I've disappoint myself too much for a friend..

U're my BFF..
U understand what im saying..
I've given in juz too much..
Im tired..
I wished u could put urself in my shoes for once..
Am I really such a lousy friend that being friends or not seems so redundant?

haha!
Y am i asking something over n over again when thr's no ans?
juvenile..

Who could be thr for me when i really need sum1 to talk to?
have u ever tot of tat?

- LifeGoesOn~

Thursday, May 14, 2009

Have been soooo tired recently..
Didnt wished to blog at all..
But.. dun feel like seeing my blog rot..
So.. updates..
Nth much happened recently.
schling..
ponning..
fyp..
eating out..
exercising..
N prissy bday celeb..
All wif the usual gang..

2day..
A lil something special..
A small family outing..
Went giant to grab wateva stuff we need..
A bit here n thr.. the trolley was full..
All thanks to my never-fat-brothers..
thr's so much food tempting me to open it..
But it was.. =)
What i've always wanted from my family..
Updating ea other..
Being happy tgt united as one..
haha? Lame?
U wouldnt know how hard I wanted my family to be tgt..
How silent n peaceful my family could be..
A family that cares..
Nvm!
Have been using the $10 a day plan..
However..
It'd always hit the limit..
tsk tsk tsk..
those ppl loh..
THR.. those that tempt me to go gelare n pizzahut de loh..
haha?
But I kinda felt happy..
Perhaps I noe that I can no longer enjoy gd food bcuz I've lost a fren that often does tat..
N thr are actually others that didnt make me lose hope of enjoying gd food..
Thanks..

Being a lil too tired, physically, mentally..
I think i'll pass bout friendship..

Sometimes..
I dun even noe what I wan..
That kind of desperation of wanting to shout out to the entire world..
Yet, It was a silent scream whr no1 could hear u..
U have family and friends that we're constantly thr for u..
But u juz cant get away from ur closest companion;loneliness and emptiness..
Its really not about having a bf or not..
Being happy juz seems to be so far out of reach..
Do you understand tis kind of feelings?
U can smile, laugh, play and whatever it takes for u to feel happiness..
Yet.. It never lasted long..
N all u wan is to make a difference..
The more u tried, the more tired u became..
Im sorry for always not making my post a happy 1..
I juz dunno how..
It makes me feel like closing it down..
haiz..

joke of the day..
Chinese: "wo de ming zi jiao xie xie ni"
english name: thank-you xie..
X)
I glad I have them..
The reason why sch dun sux anymore..
And, Losing the anti social side of me..
xoxo

- LifeGoesOn~

Monday, May 11, 2009

My DP..
Cute huh?

Its monday..
N mr Blue is always catching up..
Especially when its wafer module..

Didnt slpt well yesterday..
I looked like a zombie now..
haha!

Oh well..
Im loving my blog song sooo much..
However, I cant put too many..
Cuz u'll have a hard time loading it..

WOOT~
Cancelled my working schedule again..
>.<
Im gonna be soooo broke..
However.. This new wallet is gonna help me save $..
Cuz.. I cannot put too much $ inside..
YEAH~
thanks to auntie 10 for recommending to buy for 3 of us..
$10/day..
Hopefully im able to survive..
Im so gonna start saving $!
fossil, crumbler, hp n more more more!
no more eating like a pig..
I guess..
LOL!
Control~ control~
If not i'll will die of being broke next mth..
Cuz i have $0 earnings..
AH!!
-.-'''
Luckily I have mummy n daddy..
LOVES!
alrites..
Lil bro is in my room..
no blogging le..
ciao~
Priority..
Someday.. It'll change..

- LifeGoesOn~

Sunday, May 10, 2009

After celebrating mother's day wif family..
Meet up wif besties to have A.bday celebration wif prissy..
(pictures wif prissy..)

As auntie 10 n I had to rushed to prepare everything..
Poor lil girl has to wait all alone at ehub for.. if im not wrong 1.5hr..
Lol!

I'm really glad that I have them..
Being such a great friend that skipped having fun at K and watched horror movie(uninvited) bcuz I so wanted to watch..
Trying to scare ea other after watching movie.. at the beach ard 2am..
bugs, rats or.......... -.-'''
Eating like non-stop..
Sharing and gossiping..
Stayed wif me.. juz bcuz i didnt wanna cabbed hm..
Despite being scolded by parents or having to work the next day..
N gets soooo tired but felt as thou everything was worth that jiu jiu yi ci stuff..

love you 2 loads!

The after taste of happiness..
Still smiling away..
=D
MORE MORE MORE!
I couldnt wait for the trip!!

oh yea..
readers.. nice song i have isnt it?
WAHAHA!
ok.. im stuck in btw happy n sad..
It's alrite cuz it'll be over soon..

xoxo
huiling.. LOL!

- LifeGoesOn~

I wished u knew how much I wanted to tell u..
But.. I'd juz expressed it differently..
Happy mummy's day..
=D
Love u always..

Sorry for being a girl that couldnt express my gratitude better than lil browie..

Being the rebellious 1 that failed ur expection times after times in studies..
Spending ur's n daddy $ like nobody's business..

I'm learning to change..
For I noe that U and daddy have aged so much..
It'd pain to see myself still stretching my hands for $..

=(
But im juz different from bro..
im not as dominant, not as hardworking and not as clever..
However, For one thing I noe..
I'll always be ur filial daughter that everyone would be proud to have..
Even if im the not so pampered child..
I swear i'll strive to do better than them..

HA?
If only u noe that I will always be ur pillar of support..

- LifeGoesOn~

Wednesday, May 6, 2009

Im tired..
Physically and mentally..

Had a great day wif auntie lisa..
Swam..
Chatted..
(friendship)
Its hard not to believe in what she've said..
Somehow,It juzed ring a bell in my heart..
All my doubts I have in my bestie.. her daughter..

I really wished that I have my entire trust wif u..
To sustain tis friendship because its worth..
But..
How should I when ur mum is the 1 that tells me u're not a good friend?
I tried to find excuses..
Like.. u're not like tis.. Bcuz of sch work or stress..
But..
Can I argue with ur mum that understands u ever since u were born?

Its true..
If I have no respect for myself..
Who would respect me?

Asked yourself..
How many times do u wish to lie before u tell the truth?
N u've nv apologise or even feel a single bit of regrets?
How u've ignored the existence of ur friends and family?
How long have i been stucked in tis cuz his not free then u start finding ur friends shit?
The only bad times its me.. gd times its him kinda things? juz for u to vent ur anger..

I couldnt deny what auntie lisa said..
U're no longer who u used to be when u've entered poly..

Perhaps my BFF has already died when i've graduated from sec 5..
What im holding is juz memories..

Im getting so so so confused in if u're taking me for granted..
If u're using me for ur own benefits..

I didnt noe the truth could hurt so much..
I've been trying so hard to believe in tis friendship..
Not think too much, not a single comments from my friends, trying not to pick a quarrel..
Now.. ur mum..

So much that i've been wanting to tell u,argue for an ans..
I've been stopping myself bcuz I didnt wanna make this friendship worst..

I really dunno what to do next..
U noe u're my bestest friend..
But I have to give it all up..

If I never get back to tis frienship..
At least I noe i've tried my best in respecting myself as well as tis BFF theory..
In accepting what auntie lisa said, to make u more aware of situations..

haiz..
Perhaps u wun be reading it at all..

Im so tired.
Y did u bcum such a total stranger?
When will u start telling the truth n stop all those ignorings/hidings?
I really had enough of myself being childish..

sighs..
I noe if im not a gd friend..
but.. sometimes.. I wonder if u noe r u a gd friend urself?

- LifeGoesOn~

Sunday, May 3, 2009

Guess u noe how boring fyp could be..
<-- *rotting* =) Oh well.. Be it being boring, hard or time consuming.. They are the one that makes it worthwhile and fun.. How bad can fyp be? Wohooo~ Its almost done!
Hmmm..
Im starting to have 2nd tots bout continueing wif tis module(wafer fab and packaging)
Seriously its killing me..
Those chiongster is getting on my nerves..
ZZZ..
Y cant u fuking retard faci sees that I dun understand bcuz im not an engineering student?
keep giving me C I swear I'll F*** u upside down..
Be glad that im only ignoring ur existence n juz doesnt wished to reply..
-.-''' noobshit class..

AHHH!
wateva..
1st may..
=D
outing wif auntie 10 n prissy..
thanks prissy for accompanying me to buy mp4..
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3rd may..
went out wif elena..
haha..
Had haggen daz..
Lol..
$63+ gone..
but its nice rite?
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Juz 2 days..
I think i've spent $200..
Excluding to paying school fees to mummy's gambler relative..
haha..
>.< Yet..
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- LifeGoesOn~

Acted harsh on everything again..

But i've finally understood how should I do things better..

If u cant make a difference,
U never will..

I have what that is sufficient for me..
Shall not be bothered bout it anymore..

No more gg out on wkend..
Its juz nightmares 4 me now..

Will be saving up that $100/wk makes myself filthy rich!
Since im starting to hate enjoying good food..
Even better start..

Perhaps I should start living for myself..
Stop all those living to eat but eating to live..
Start my extreme intensive exercise..

Guessed I've been stuck at situation for too long..
Its like taking yrs to solve..
What that is left of me is take it or leave it time..

I'll try to keep up to my words..
For once im so firm..

Sometimes..
Things are better if u juz 4get bout everything..
The more memories u hold..
The lesser difference u'll make for NOW..

Be firm wif ur decision as well..
Sorry..

- LifeGoesOn~

Sunday, 3rd may 2009, 2153hr

Cried in the bus again..

Juvenile..
I only noe I couldnt control my tears..

Have u eva felt of wanting to give in so much..
Juz to prove sum1 wrong..
Nv once succeed..
But u juz kept trying..
Until it reaches ur limit then u fall back n cry?

U felt so weak..
Bcuz..
It only matters to you..
U wanted to tell..
But it'll nv help..
U wanted to give up or shut urself completely..
But it goes back to being "childish"

I dunno why im lost for words..
I only felt sorry for everything..

I've tried..
Tried.. N tried..

But it juz doesnt seems to help..
I've tried thinking that bcuz im not my best yet..
I'll bcum better..

Now..
I really wish to tell u..
Sorry..
I seems to not wanna try anymore..
Its more than juz being tired..

When im tired..
I noe resting could help..
When i've failed..
I noe the trust i have in u keeps me gg..
But..
I only wished to be treated more fairly..
Telling the truth is all i asked for..
Not lies to make me feel better...

Not hecking to think that tml the problem will be solved by itself..

Im juz a lil too tired..

ps ppl.. dun ask me what happened.. dun ask me not to emo n tok.. dun bother about me..
I'll be a lil too emotional to reply..
I swear im not kidding..
U dun wanna see me cry..

*deep breathe*
im taking a break from acting happy..
juz leave me alone..
cuz u're not the 1 that can help solve.
Yet the 1 that shld bothers will no longer bother..
I juzed write bcuz i have no other place to do so..

I'll stop trying..

- LifeGoesOn~