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Friday, January 30, 2009

I'll be away for chalet..
till then i'll blog again..
haha!
miss me..
yeah~ gonna watch late night movie wif my 2 besties.. auntie 10 and prissy..
It's a miracle that prissy suggested the outing..
Owwww..
Im sooo gonna enjoy 2day...
wif the 1 btl of vodka and gin that i've brought to the chalet..
hehehe..
so gonna enjoy wif my family and relatives..
=)
I've quit gambling..
yes! I've quit!
ok..
im juz joking..
bye~

- LifeGoesOn~

****ing lil bro..
ARGH!!!!
I swear my 8 characters and his not compatible..
He juz cant stop pissing me off..
ok..
which idiot will still squat on the fcuking toilet bowl to shit?
and after shitting.. the shit got stuck on the corners which is like..
IM SO FUCKINGLY GG TO KILL U WHEN I ENTER THE TOILET..
zzz.. I dun understand whr he learnt from to squat on top of it..
N its the second time i've wash the toilet..
FARKKK!!!
even siao X..
he can make the toilet stinks like public toilet..
worst.. his aiming.. CMI!
-.-'''
the next time he makes me was the toilet again..
I SWEAR i'll give him a punch till it bcums blueblack..
*cracking my nuckles*
he better not be hm that early..
god muz have gave me a brother to shorten my life..
-.-'''
I WAN A SISTER INSTEAD!!!
=(
I think my lil browie is picked from the garbage..
even cny can wear like some beggars..
dun wear new clothes.. wear those that SUX; came out like giam cai..
I anti him so much man..
thr's nth.. NTH! I am similar to him..
he sucks.. his dirty.. his fuking attitude.. kiam pak face.. his noobness im gaming.. his horrible results...
NO DOUBT!
his picked from the garbage..
HOPELESS CREATURE..
no wonder only dad will treat him like baobei..
N mum will treat big bro as her god..
sucks..
Tis 2 brothers makes me feel that guys are juz eeeeeeeeewwwwwwwww...
I truly wish that there wouldnt be much disgusting guys out thr..
thanks to them..
I've become a full time cinderella at hm..
FFFFAAAAAAARRRRRRRRKKKKKKKKK!

- LifeGoesOn~

im back~
OWWWW..
im extremely exhausted!
hmmm.. chu 3.. went out wif sweetgirls and miss eugene and daniel to celebrate Ah ME's birthday..
sing K at topone..
pls visit facebook if u wanna view those photos..
haha..
chu 4.. went for mj session..
ok... i shall skip that part...
LOL!
new yr has always been sooo bz for me..
I have such BIG family that I haven even complete this bai nian thingy..
anyway.. I juz miss every1 of them..
used to have the chance to meet every1 of them when grandma was still ard..
haha.. now I got not a single grandparents left..
Sometimes.. its often to late to treasure..
until everything is gone..
what's left is memories for u to cherish..
Therefore.. tis is what i've promise myself..
To never let go of anything until they themselves suggested to...
Be it my family,cuxz and friends..
=)
thank you for being important..
haha..

Bascially.. im juz feeling great for what I have and disappointed over what i've lost..
juz like the smiles I've used to give..
they were no longer as beautiful and often..
could it be i've seen to much of this "practical" and "realistic" world?
Or am I juz too tired of life..
Happiness..
Something I've always strived for..
believeing that if I could make sum1 happy..
I will too.. be happy..
However..
Im really getting tired..
To see others being happy..
Yet im the only 1 that is constantly trying to grasp happiness..
juz in order to fill my hollow heart..

I'd often tell myself that its juz bullshit that people could actually believes that we need the other half to complete ourselves..
and for what I thinks.. friends and family are juz sufficient..
but..
why?
wheneva loneliness strikes..
All I could do is call or msg the same person?
juz bcuz my besties werent free to be thr for me?
oh my.. WATEVER!
Sometimes I juz dun understand my heart..
I shldnt let anymore ppl entering my life..
Im sastisfied with what I have..
with my love ones..
dun really feel like being used foolishly for ppl that are not worth..
juz not gg to leave my heart for any guys.. for now..
I noe I dun need 1..
hmm... sooo screwed...

sucks!!!
haha.. im joking!
-.-'''
nevertheless... im happy as long as i have great friends ard me..
thanks for calling to disturb..
that lil something that brightens up my day..
however.. only a few can do that..
N duh... its definately not him ba..
I juz missed my secondary sch life..
I wish we I could turn back time...

hmm! alrite!
I noe what I wan onced again..
should never be affect by ppl easily..
muz learn to IGNORE and say NO...
rubbish entries..
LOL?
and u're still reading it..
how foolish! -.-'''

- LifeGoesOn~

Tuesday, January 27, 2009

alrite.. a tiring day today..
a veri quiet chu 2..
every1 was tired..
didnt get to meet ling and lian..
only get to meet bee..
her baby's delievery date is near..
OWWW!
cant wait to see her baby..
anyway.. haha..
had tis fake smile cuz i was damn tired..
forced by my parents to wake up early too..
so.. i dun wanna smile...

house visiting..
HATE IT when force by daddy to go place that I dun wish to go..
SUX!

Thou I noe its the matter of respect..
but.. I juz dun like gg to places whr i dunno the person..
N! i hate being forced..
dun like it!
hate being nag by daddy n mummy..
I swear im not gg to bai nian wif them next yr..
cant stand their nagging..

Even when opening the car..
they can ****ingly nag at me when I opened the door without looking..
-.-'''
I noe its my fault..
but its juz irritating..
a supper is not gg to lessen my anger..
ARGH!
dun like u 2!!!
mood spoiler..
chu er entirely ruined..
chu san will be XD
sooo tired!

bye!!

OH!
I rmb-ed!
HAPPY BDAY AH ME!!
welcome to the 20yr old club!
Woooohooo!
stay happy always~

- LifeGoesOn~

Monday, January 26, 2009

Happy Nu Year!
<-- isnt she cute?
she's my newphew!
my hand vs her's is like.. WOW?
>.<

haha.. anyway..
chu 1..
this shirt which i've brought @ $23..
nice right?
but!
it could only be worned for a day..

HAHA?
y?
bcuz..
the material is too thin..
It hooked onto smth..
N.. wif a slight pull..
gone~
it slit open..
WOW?
haha..
DAMN.. I like tis shirt soooo much..

btw.. brought a chain..
sooo.. notice my pandant..
hehee..

Sry.. I hardly zi lian de..
So..
Pls pardon me for this few days..
haha!

N... N...
lol!

Im great at candid short aint I?
they looked super ugly..
LOL!
2day was disasterous..
Had to wait for browie..
irritating basket that dun wanna wear new clothes on new yr..
juz dun understand y he prefer T's n that stupid rubbery shorts..

Again, big browie didnt bai nian..
This is the dunno how many year he didnt pai nian..
His so fortunate to have me as her sis to not kooped his ang pao $..
But!
still, I got more $ than my 2 other browie...
Thanks auntie annie!
for her generous $100!
hehehe..

hmm.. shall see if I will blog again tml..
Im tired...
lol... I noe u all wun wish to see my Zi lian-ness oso..
alrites!
completed mummy's side..
tml daddy's side le!
OHHHHHH...
I miss my cuxz so much..
Nevertheless..
I had a great day 2day too..
despite a few "taken adv of" by my pervertic cousins..
pull my shirt down..
poke my.......
Its true..
Its big..
Hmmm... perhaps.. Juz bigger than theirs..
WAHAHAHA!

Hmm...
ok..
that's all..
imy..
N..
I getting fatter..
nites~
2.15am n I had to wake up at 7.30am..
CIAO!

- LifeGoesOn~

Wednesday, January 21, 2009

ok..
thank you miss eugene
for writing so many of my gd pts of me..
LOL!
with the help of others im sure..
=)
thanks.. liked it a lot..
-.-'''
haha! weird me.. I seems to like the card so much more than the voodoo..
once again.. What that comes from the heart matters..
An 'angel' voodoo.. -.-''' how come every1 seems to get things that I liked? AMAZING~ thanks anyway.. too bad.. no sweet toks for guys.. WAHAHA!

Finally went to work..
A long day at work..
thus.. had coffee made by myself..
double latte wif choco sause topping..
simple cross-es to something so abstract.. NICE?
damn that choosy uncle..
waited for him so long to choose the food he wans and hai my milk become dead and cannot do latte art..(rosetta)
did a veri nice rosetta for a lady..
N bcuz she was staring at how i make coffee, i was unable to take a picture of it..
next time perhaps..
have been working for almost 2 yrs in spinelli..
time to get a better paying job..
but tis mean that i cant do latte art anymore..
what shld i do???
4get it.. I NEED $$$$$..
I'll have 2 job them.. O_O haha...

Next,
smth serious..
thank you for giving me ur resume for referrence..
cuz without ur help i wun noe what to write..
or even.. fill the application form..
bcuz i dun even bother the duration I worked at which company..
or worst, dun even noe which yr i graduated..

Haha..
to others..
Im the 1 that almost every1 could relied on..
Im great at this or that bcuz I was matured and understand a lot of things and circumstances..
However.. there is this stupid gal..
A fren that i tot to be childish..
turned out to be so matured.. hitting right at the bulleyes in what i SUX..
In education, At work, making firm decision, judging the importance of differnet things at critical moments N even guilding me up till now..
the things that she's good at is the flaws of my imperfection..
perhaps this is the reason y u are my best friend..
ARGH! y r u juz so gd at what im not?
haiz..
U seems to have matured so much that im the 1 that is becoming so childish..
=(
had a short conversation 2day..
its kinda weird..
perhaps due the fact that we didnt chat for quite a while..
it ended up being a dead convo..
However.. thank you for explaining ur bzness until when..
perhaps u really have to much things to handle..
especially when its nearing ur exam..
no hesistation..
U'll neglect everything n the only thing in ur mind is juz studies..
yea.. tis type of fren.. realistic.. sux ya?
too bad..
this is 1 frenship that i've listed best friend FOREVER..
U're gonna be soooo sry when ur exams r over..
u ZZZZ pang seh kia..
haiz.. im sry..

ARGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHH!
i hate tis fuked up feeling..
I really wish to be understanding..
Im feeling so corrupted inside me..
thinking that which is my right path?
Am i doing it wrong?
Am i ready for a r/s?
Is admin job suitable for me?
shld i quit spinelli?
juz soo many things that I wanted to ask..
bcuz u're the only 1 that will answer what I really wish for and wanted..
U're needed juz so much!
U stupid Best friend forever!
thanks..
for being stupid enough to be my friend...

- LifeGoesOn~

Monday, January 19, 2009

>.<
haha!
It may be a bit weird to post tis..
but.. for the ppl that get me smth for my bday..
Thanks..
LOL! Ah xiang.. I may juz get killed by those that only says happy birthday to me..
ok..
Serious..
Im really greatful to those that gave me smth..
Qiao3 ke1 photoframe by sweetest ah xiang..
cute isnt it? trust me.. the first time i've received it.. N its definately coming up wif gd use..
HAHA! thanks for choosing smth related to food and yet I can keep them.. so totful.. SOOO KE AI~

Next would be pretty prettynecklace from ahyan..
Its a veri nice necklace..
and haha..
I wanted to get 1 from ages ago ever since I lost my angel necklace..
N now..
=D its again, up to good use!
however.. sorry ahyan!
because the chain were shorter than usual as -.-''' my neck was too thick and fat, it looked like a choker instead of a necklace..
=(
Wait till i get a chain alrites? U'll definately see me wearing the pendant..
but im really happy as it happened to be one of my wishlist..

then.. shld be smth i'll nv 4get..
cupcakes made by Ah Me..
Written "happy 20"
the best "something made by heart and $ cant buy!"
TOP!
cuz she gave me her heart!
Xp
I can say its one in a million fren that bakes u smth on ur birthday..

yup.. next would be ang paos..
from the elderly..
basically..
nth much to say..
LOL!
0% sincerity.. 0% something made by heart..
but.. ZZZ
something that i desperately need..
SHARKS!!
-___-'''

haha!
card made by auntie 10 wif prissy greetings
and then 10's Li Wu voucher..
something that stated "used to exchange the present she has yet to buy"
but from wat prissy said..
LOL!
can i dun wan present..
WAHAHA!
validity 1 yr..
So u shall be my maid for 1 yr!
maria~ whr's my water?
maria~ why nv mop the floor?haha!

hmmm.. its really not a good thing to be january babies..
cuz..
ppl start own u present..
4eva..
hur hur...
even besties loh..
haha! trust me.. it can drag all the way to their bday's..
but!
what I need is not presents..
Its ur frenships which I wans..
Bcuz im more than happy to have true and good frens by my side..
Being thr wheneva I need them..
Im sastisfied..
So..
=)
dun po fei le..
For those that already given..
thanks..
I really appreciated it..
trust me..
I'll make ur present worthwhile giving..
haha...
CIAO~

- LifeGoesOn~

Sunday, January 18, 2009

Mummy woke me up early in the morning..
had to accompany her to meet up wif her SISTERS..
once again.. Im wif a bunch of aunties and uncles..
luckily i have my cousin eunice to accompany me..
Had dim sum at tian wang; sembawang shopping centre..
Sry ppl.. I was too obsessed with the dim sum..
Another reason is.. lol.. their chopsticks is faster than my hp..
Its also rude to ask the elderly to wait..
So.. U can only see the lightings and the empty table..
OWWW?
=)
I've always felt that if accompanying mummy would makes her happy, I would do everything to see her smiles..

haha.. but.. Always tagging wif mummy juz makes me becoming more n more of a person wif few words..
or shld I 'anti-social'
cuz wheneva mummy goes to a relative house, she would either mj-ing or play cards..
N.. I will be thr to rot..
The words coming out from my mouth seems to be getting lesser n lesser..
Becoming more and more closed up to the ppl ard me..
It seems like im refusing to talk as much as I did b4..
Sometimes.. It did really makes me pouder..
Am I the 1 that make myself alone, left out..
It seems to be getting harder n harder to live my everyday life..
I wished to be happier..
FUKED UP!

SO FUKING FUKED UP wif life and yet ppl is making my life more difficult..
SERIOUSLY!
Im starting to think that guys are a nuisance..
its so fuking irritating!
N worst.. If u dun understand whr im coming from when I said so much..
U juz fukingly dun get me when I wanted peace..
N u sort of make use of my good to noe that I wun reject ppl if they needs help..
ZZZ!
U KNNB-ly bring out the dark side of me..
Bcuz of u I lost my FUCKING frenship..
U're getting on my nerves..
One more time n I will aim all my anger right at ur fucking face..
ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Sometimes its juz so hard to always be nice..
cuz not every1 appreciates ur kindness..
N worst takes it for granted..
I juz hate it when ppl provoke me..
I have good patience.. but that doesnt mean i wun lose my patience..
4 heaven's sake..
Grow up..
ZZZ

Im so screwed up..
If u read tis..
Juz.. Dun messed wif me..
I cant gurantee ur safety..
Cuz.. my words can hurt more than any1 else..
Juz bcuz u only noe the 1 sided me...

- LifeGoesOn~

Friday, January 16, 2009

Ok...
Great!
The 2nd time I 4got to do quiz,rj and evaluation...
LOL~
N haha! its bcuz of the same 2 person..
had too much fun, totally 4got bout my hmwk..
Anyway.. who cares...
fri, 16, after sch..
had auntie 10 n prissy to stay come over my house..
MINI gathering? yea.. to finish the CAKE!
did some shopping for snacks and WUUHOOO~

Stay Over~
Snacking at the corner, wif the air con set at a perfect temperature..
watching tv, slacking, medicure-ing(10's great at tis.. too bad i brought cheap nail poilish from daiso..) -_-'''
I think its something that all girls will enjoy..
to have countless chat bout almost everything..
Squeezing 3 ppl inside a queen sized bed..
snatching for blankets bcuz its simply too cold..
haha! couldnt recalled much as i was too tired..
BUT! thanks..
my 4eva besties!
4eva the 1's that can make me laugh from the btm of my heart when i meet them..
U all r simply GREAT... great jokers.. LOL! jk...
=)
shall not say so much bout it.. Xp
U shall envy my frenship.. LOL!

Oh ya.. finally gave ah xiang her bday present..
LOL! they r the reason y i psed bitching wif my besties and fall aslp asap while waiting for the medicure to dry..
small birthday present made by the sweetgirls +miss eugene..
99 hearts...
99 de frenship..
YING XIANG!
Dun disclosed the angpao..
-.-'''
luckily u didnt read the card out loud too..
1 lesson learnt..
dun use yalkut straw to make hearts..
sweet to see the heart.. but not so sweet in the process of making..
But what could be sweeter than seeing the 1 receiving it being exceptionally happy?
haha..
mission accomplish..
hip hip huuurrraaayyyyy...
I gotta slp early from tml!
my pimples shows it all..
=(

- LifeGoesOn~

Wednesday, January 14, 2009

Sometimes, I wonder if im selfish..
Sometimes, I think that I dun even make a good friend..
Sometimes, I wonder if im really the 1 making things incorrigible...
Sometimes, I tot to myself if im really the 1 turning things to hates..
Sometimes, I try believing in ur words that I have new frens that I didnt shower another frenship wif care and concern...
That sometimes, has already bcum something that is constantly making me feel bad..
Perhaps..
Im the 1 not being understanding..
Im the 1 being selfish..
Im the 1 being childish..
Im the 1 that enjoys making a fuss out of everything..
Im the 1 that cause everything to drift..
BUT!
If its over a guy, I've caused myself to lose my frenship..
Sry.. I wun accept..
I trust that u're bz to leave my bday aside...
I trust that u're bz, all u could do is msg me on my bday.. that few msgs..
I trust that u're bz, u didnt reply..
I trust that u're bz, u dun have time to be wif frens...
N bcuz u're bz,
you dun have time to entertain my childishness,
you dun have time to tell me what's happening,
you dun have time to listen to what i wanna say..
you dun have time to...

even be my friend...

Perhaps.. I shld juz believe that u're bz...

but please...

when everything is done..

Rmb me once again..

huiling, the fren that believes in ur best friend forever...

- LifeGoesOn~

Tuesday, January 13, 2009

A veri belated birthday to myself...
For what I can say..
Everything I have now.. Its more than enough..
People I would like to thanks..
my family and relative..
ning ning that shares the same bday as me..
U all r my greatest assests..
N the 1 that contributes to my assets($$)
I really enjoyed being wif u all..
my gambling KA's to settle family day...
LOVE U ALL LOADS!

Next, would be my irresistably sweet de sweetgirls...
cum miss eugene..
OH YA!
happy belated birthday tan ying xiang..10th jan
celebrated my birthday tgt wif ah xiang's..
had dinner at swensen..
received HAPPY BDAY CUPCAKES from dearest emilyy..
how sswwwweeeeeeettttt of her..
the first time sum1 bake a cake for my bday..
haha! seriously!
I was super touched..
nevertheless, On the actual day, 12th
was warmly welcomed by the LOUD birthday song sang by them...

To be honest.. I was really happy..
frens that sing my birthday song out loud..
Being always thr to cheer me up..
Without u ppl..
I wouldnt be this happy in life...
and..
received an ai xin birthday card made by ah xiang..
thou our bday were 2days apart.. I felt that we are similar in many many ways..
N im soooo happy that i've her as a fren..
sharing the same emoism and valueing of similar things and have common thinking..

no doubt, the aura juz make everything click..
sry.. eugene u're out..
girls emoism...
haha..

thank you ppl.. the ones that msg, msn, commented, called me to wish me happy birthday...
LOVE U!
thank you ZAHIDAH BTE RASHID for rmbing my bday.. I MISS U SOO SOO SOO MUCH!

Lastly, I would like to thank my 4eva friendship..
priscilla chin soo ning and low ee ling auntie!
the 1 that always makes me melt...
the 1 that noes me BEST!
LOVE U 2 SOOO MUCH!
the 1 that brings out the bitch in me, the kid in me and just so much more..
the 1's that is alway there for me..
always there to make me smile..
and share my troubles and sorrows..
Can u imagine a me that laugh non stop?
only they 2 have the power to do it..
thank you for chasing the ants..
thank you for attracting ppl to look at those light sticks(happy bday) that was meant for me..
thank you for being there for me making my life so fulfilled and worthwhile living..
Thank you for being the 1 that is so important in my life..

thank you for giving the smiles that is 4eva and always..
thank you...
for being my besties..

EVERYTHING!
I SMILE LIKE AN IDIOT ON MY BIRTHDAY BCUZ U 2 BRING LIGHTS TO MY DARKEST MOMENT..

what more can i say?
my 7yrs of frenship..
=D

rmb to come my house and eat the cake on friday hor!
Xp

maybe they are the reason y i treasure frenship so much...

and mayb...
because of them..
I understand that who are those that cherish my frenship and those that doesnt...

Some friendship..
I can vaguly sense them anymore..
U're the that affects so much of my emotions..

- LifeGoesOn~

Wednesday, January 7, 2009

follows the rules, polite, fears drawing attention to self, dislikes competition, somewhat easily frightened, easily offended, timid, dutiful, private, lower energy, finisher, organized, socially uncomfortable, modest, not confrontational, easily hurt, observer, prone to crying, not spontaneous, does not appreciate strangeness - intolerant to differences, apprehensive, clean, planner, prone to confusion, afraid of many things, responsible, guarded, avoidant, anxious, cautious, suspicious, more interested in relationships and family than intellectual pursuits, not adventurous, fears doing the wrong thing, dislikes change

Introverted (I) 83.33% Extroverted (E) 16.67%
Sensing (S) 61.54% Intuitive (N) 38.46%
Feeling (F) 66.67% Thinking (T) 33.33%
Judging (J) 78.57% Perceiving (P) 21.43%
ISFJ - "Conservator". Desires to be of service and to minister to individual needs - very loyal. 13.8% of total population.

favoured career:
homemaker, stay at home parent, office worker, health care worker, personal assistant, school teacher, administrative assistant, child care worker, clerical employee, receptionist, library assistant, dietician, health educator, librarian

NONONO! impossible that im gonna have a ****ing boring job..
dun really agree wif the career stuff..
-.-'''

http://similarminds.com/jung.html

- LifeGoesOn~

Ok... Im back~
wif 1 overdue pic..
Lol! but still wanna thanks amelia for the gifts..
^____^

Finally, a day to really rest..
Be away from my phone..

Hmm.. Im really thankful that I have great poly frens to be thr for me.. my sweetgirls..
Seeking their advice, hearing thier debate over my problem..
funny.. but, always true..
thanks to them.. I've started to sort everything out..
Yeah.. True... his a fren..
Only a fren..
If his worth being my fren, no matter what we'll still be frens..
More than that, I noe it myself im the best fren that every1 could desire.. 4get the "anti-social"
I've also realised that.. why r we msging n calling each other..
It's bcuz his bored..
N im bored.. sometimes..
Its really gonna be so out of hands if things continues like that...
Lynda jie chat wif me 2day again..
haha..
told her that im planning to zhao from him..
understand that in their "traditional" life, we must look out for sum1 after we step into the society..
However, I seems to have grown up through some incidents..
The society now is different isnt it?
We need not get married, find the mr right which we think is right n tot we could be happy 4eva..
I felt that, no matter what, friends r forever the best...
shi dai bu tong le.. shi dai bu tong le!
source of happiness no longer just comes from 1 person...

Im so gonna get back to my usual life...
Hopefully he dun call back le ba..
-___-'''
cuz... LOL!
his not my type.. after realising his petty-ness
even as a fren..
Im bound to suffer..
enough of inconsiderate frens..
im sick of it..

true frens...
I wonder which is true..
the 1 that find million of ways and chance to fork out time to celebrate ur bdays..
or those that says that they arn't free...
I'd really wonder...
but im still happy to have you all!!!!!

Perhaps someday...
I will learn how to rely on myself than others whom I trusts..
what he says is somehow true..
Maybe...
Someday...

- LifeGoesOn~

Saturday, January 3, 2009

Alright!
worked at suntec again..
BORING!
slping at 12.40am and waking up at 5am...
the flaws on my face tells it all..
-.-''' im sooooo tired...
luckily I was able to get away 2day..

People are just walking pass the stall..
Being a barista thr sux..
Actually, I felt that singaporean dun really appreciate gd coffee..
N... STOP! singaporean!
STOP!
its alright if u wanted skinny milk if u mind bout ur precious health.. but!
If u wanted a skinny milk, de-caf, latte with foam..
-.-'''
arnt u here just to enjoy a gd cup of coffee?
Or making my life difficult?

If u wanna act professional..
A latte "without foam" is "flat white" in spinelli..
haha.. ok.. im being mean..
but.. I'd rather have an ang mo to praise me for my latte art and coffee than singaporean...
bz career women and businessman..
Do they really differentiate a nub and a professionally made coffee?
I doubt so..

ok.. shall skipped toking bout work..
FINALLY!
Let down the heavy stone of "sum1" birthday..
thanks!
hmm.. left wif a few to cope..
hopefully its gg to be easy..

To be honest..
I was actually wondering if I shld go out wif chris on the 10th..
and.. perhaps.. on the 14th also..
thou its juz celebrating bday's for the sake of celebrating..
thou it is decided that we wun get ea other anything on our bday..
I'd think that his gg to get me smth..
T.T n i muz get him smth in return..(seriously broke situation)
hopefully not.. cuz lol.. his hint huh..
LOL! but no matter what.. I wun tell him what i wan.. his plan fails..
he changed his plan repeatedly, from not getting ea other thing.. to hinting me to get a $20+ alcohol tester.. n he'll get me smth i wan.. to asking what i wan and gg dutch..
^___^
I juz wanna be fair..
haha!
I really dun have the perception that guys muz bill everything..
and.. If i tell him what i wan..
surly bcuz my bday comes first.. then I wun have the time to buy what he wans..
his clever.. but im not stupid..
but.. its been a while that im touched by others sincerity..
We could become veri gd frens..
and I shall intro it to u all someday..
wahaha!
Nevertheless.. he will always uncomparable to ppl that I noe for long and is more realistic..
thou he can be thr when u need.. to guild u in life..
that doesnt mean his real or true..
HAHA!
tis is me..
play the game or let the game play u..
thou I cant differentiate am i for real or tagging along wif him..
perhaps..
If life is unclear..
shldnt tat be smth blissed than to see the cruel reality?
being in army is boring..
his juz bored.. yea..
no other ways of noeing girls.. yea..
having fun.. yea..
mayb?
but what i can say is...
Im no longer stupid..
love... smth so far away...
for i noe...
I dun have the courage to open up to it once again..

- LifeGoesOn~