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` NAME: Huiling
` D.O.B: 12/01/89
` Age: 20
` School: Republic Poly
` Course: Diploma In Material Science
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Thursday, April 19, 2007

hmm... its day 5... hmm... i was unable to blog yesterday cuz i was 2 tired.. haha? now it's 12.41pm..20th april... gonna make my payment later.. 2day is kinda tired oso.. cuz i've not been able to rest well 4 the past few days... but i muz say that i would prefer to hang out than to stay at hm n lead a simple n boring life... tis few days was tiring... cuz i woke up early in the morning for sch until 4 n had to meet elena? lol? mayb xian would b a better name 4 me 2 call.. the waiting duration was long.. cuz i've always ended my sch earlier than the time she wanted 2 meet n will always b late... but dunno y... im nt angry... perhaps.... y would i b angry if its my habit in the past of doing so? this few days de outting kinda reminds me bout both of us de past... meeting up frequently juz to eat n chat... or mayb even juz eating.. it may seems super duper bored... but its juz tat kind of frenship de connection tat brings us 2gather even if it boing stuff ba.. but it's a thing frens shld do 2 frens... cuz tis routine fade frenship even faster than u could imagine... i've got a huge experience... haha.. i did appreciate her effort of meeting me up... i did! ^___^ if nt i wun make the effort 2 meet her le... but from all tis... i felt that its hard... real HARD 4 me 2 get used 2 another best fren? bcuz they r nt as simple as i think... perhaps in poly life its all bout having either best fren or boyfriend... cuz tat may b the duration that we need FULL support.. i say this bcuz im now totally loss in nowhr... without supports n everything... tat kind of emptiness... thou i have frens in rp lah... its not difficult to find a bf lah... its really not... but... can i have a boyfren juz bcuz that i wanna treat him as a fren????? no way rite? shld say dun have tat kind of intimacy or urge to have... cuz having 1 makes ur life complicated.. so... i juz prefer leading my simple life... oh ya... thr's a lot things i wish to share... now im stuck in the poly wif no true frens... bcuz... im nt the onli 1 wearing masks.. they all r... or perhaps im tired of exploring wat they really r... i've tried b4... its tiring..gd... ba... im being solo now... any1 b my soli? haha...tis feel days xian share wif me bout a lot of things.. bout frens in poly bf n all... it will b easier 4 her 2 find frens... cuz she's the sociable 1... if me being the sociable 1... im nt myself... hahaz... but i'v kinda feel tat she wanted more from her bf... but she cant... mayb its juz her loneliness tat she find me tis fren 2 accompany her... haha... dun mind.. cuz no 1 understands me...y shld she let any1 understand her? it would b unfair... so im already starting 2 accept those dun ask so much n its how i think things... but its kinda tiring... always from 6wake up study until 4pm.. meet her n spend time until reaching 10 or later... hahaz.. im nt complaining.. juz 2 compliment myself.. haha... giving myself encouragemnt 2 push myself forward ba... hmm... have tat kind of feelings tat we will nt even see ea other after her sch starts.... so.... 2 bad 4 myself lah... im the abandoned kid left out by god... ok lah... i gonna stp complaining n hope 4 her best n my best as well ba... huiling jia you! push as far whr ur limitation can go 4 tis frenship ba.... wun b able to have the chance soon................

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