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` NAME: Huiling
` D.O.B: 12/01/89
` Age: 20
` School: Republic Poly
` Course: Diploma In Material Science
` part-time/full-time: Student cum Barista
` characteristic: Emo-ism

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Saturday, April 14, 2007

im so so so so so so so veri tired.. so tired bottling up my feelings!!! shld i smoke? argh... im pissed!! pissed by myself! fuk... dammit... i hate quarrels! haiz... y shld u always list out all my bads? juz y?? when have i been the gd 1's in ur view? y is it nv???????? pissed! juz so pissed by myself... i've tried so hard 2 b better.. juz so hard... but i cant get thru sensitivity n selfishness in u? or is it tat me thinking bout im always the loser,the sucker in frenship is wrong... in fact ur the 1 who is being the loser or sucker? i noe im nt that great... r u greater? so can u juz stop saying? stop... haiz... it hurts... am i acting emo? ACTING? i really dun understand y frens can use such words... it tat can make my fren feel better.. i dun mind... but i PISSED her off... juz wat am i supposed 2 do? die 2 clear my sins? i find no meaning in such frenship... really no meaning... its my limit 2... i cant give in le... im exhausted... haiz... fall back le then wanna give up again... hao lei... giving up last time is already so difficult... n now? i got 2 experience it all over again... haiz... guess its time... i'll stop tis kind of life le... since we seldom have the chance 2 meet up 2 let her regain.. i'll create no chance ba... then she can concentrate on other stuff le... she actually asked me out on wed... mayb its the time when she's totally free... from bf n everything then she find me... im tired of always thinking it tis way... real tired... onli when tat day she wanna make use then use tat date 2 call frens out when others cant... i will nt give in 2 my heart anymore.. give up le... wun msg... wun agree 2 go out wif her n everything... i'll do it! pls... make me do so... i dun wish 2 lose in 2 my heart n hear its cries anymore... juz STOP everything... perhaps... im juz every1's worst fren... need some shoulders... i really dunno wat frens shld b... i cant diffentiate... r u my true fren?? dun bluff or hide from me anymore.. i can barely see myself... i onli wanted frens 2 find the real me.. but the real me sux! i hated myself... hated myself 2 make ppl suffer... 2 make myself live in misery... haiz... im acting emo... gaining pity... forget it.. no 1 bothers how i feel... nv will... will any1 notice my existence? no.... left out by the society,famliy n fren...

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