Monday, February 11, 2008
hmmm... it has been a damn long day today.. its 12th feb now.. 12.03am... ok... it was 11th feb previously.. have been slacking at hm lying on my bed all day round.. had some guitar practices.. nt bad nt bad.. still can play with those long squared nails.. working at 8am le... sian 1/2..
haven been toking to a fren lately... as well as chatting wif some1 new... as i've been totally bored.. suo lai hua chang... its juz plainly for fun, joy and laughter... but if things possible... y not? playing wun hurt either..
sometimes, thinking... am i the one rejecting love or i dun even noe how to love or who i really love... this type of feeling sux.. bcuz i noe it myself that i need love but i wun bother to have 1 because i lack the courage to accept something called "love".. I do oso fear that im not perfect, therefore i cant love anyone.. at times, seeing my cousin n frens have the one they truly love, i tend to feel that i'll forever be a lone soul.. where no 1 will notice my existence.. this truly makes me feel that im a failure...
some other reasons is.. perhaps.. i fear ppl... fear of being hurt n used... fear the sweet toks of guys as well as their actions to their gf... juz dun like.. -.-''' this proves that im totally "traditional".. haha...
i dunno if im gonna stay 4eva like tis, not being able to conquer my own feelings, giving people false hope or anything... i juz hope that my heart will change to like sum1 else....
lol... tis blog is only for myself... 10 cannot ask me bout it.. =P my lips r sealed... but if i got gd news i'll definately tell u! gd luck to u too!!!
alrite... my bro's back... gtg... blog soonz!
loves, huiling
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