19th june 2008.. thursday... its an extremely blue day... emo.. feeling so down that i wish to juz shut myself in the room and start crying... It felt as though I need more time everyday.. Im struggling... With studies,work,guitar,money,friends and even my own game(r/s). Im unable to contribute all at a time. ok.. its 9.53pm le! shall continue blogging now.. didnt have the time to blog in sch... feeling much better now.. after gorging down so much food.. and the blissed of frens all ard me;esp my classmates.. i shldnt be emo.. frankly speaking, no matter how things sux, the only thing that can bring down my mood is friendship and r/s.. I dun have time to commit 2 both luh~ or rather.. my besties dun have time to commit to me? hur? auntie 10 n pris.. elena oso.. It sux btw me and jason.. the game that im playing is now playing me in return... being psyco by that "being tgt" thing.. argh.. dunno how 2 explain.. but it's really not the time for me 2 have another priority that adds on to my pain.. now, even he ruined my moods... Ahh... somehow... i shld do the right thing for once... im juz not rdy for now.. what else could spoils my mood? duh.. u la!! u noe who! stupid silent reader.. argh.. super dulan bout what eva things u do.. SUPER! shall not disclose who u r... At time it really sux when you felt so helpless and you don't even know who to approach.. or rather, things are so complicated that u dont even noe what to share.. other than that... people ard u are juz too bz for u to approach... but.. above all... do i wish to share? no.. haiz.. im self destructing myself deep within... shall rely on myself! solve things one at a time... dun even noe what im writing.. too tired to think...