Again, I cried.. is it juz bcuz im not able to cope, or u're juz making my life even more complicated? Haiz.. seriously.. I wonder what ppl wish to expect from me... I'm so tired to even think...
its always so stupid to cry in the bus.. wondering why am i crying.. tears just flow...
perhaps, im too STRESSED.. perhaps, i dun have enough slp.. perhaps, u made me felt so helpless.. I really really wished i had more time...
exercising is juz my excuse.. I juz wished to be bz... to not feel that im alone.. weak? i am... i used to have routines that im always outside.. not anymore now.. I juz have to keep moving forward...
thank you people 4 caring 4 me.. love u mum n dad.. 4 asking me to stop all my work n excise.. great to see them caring bout me.. Or am i going too far? mon,tue,thur,fri -->sch tue n fri --> guitar after sch until 9pm wed, thur and sat -->swim/jog/basketball/badminton.. sunday --> exercise? see the world? hide in the room? household chores..
I'm losing myself... shld i listen ppl's advice to quit.. shld i stop everything? Or is it really myself that is making me felt so miserable? I wish this thing would stop affecting my grades.. I wan myself back... Im struggling... can u see it?? haiz...