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Sunday, July 26, 2009

Changed my retro songs..
Acutally I personally like leona lewis(Here I am)..
But.. Was afraid that it'll be too emo for others..
So.. put it last and the 2 other songs above..
Enjoy..

Btw..
PPL!
IDK if i'll get that chalet!
Will try to book tml..
-.-'''

WOOOOOOOOO~
rotting..
Skipped badminton session wif bro..
Cuz i noe i'll probably be dead the next day..

will blog when I have thing to update..

dun ask me..
wo bu zhi dao..
wo zen de bu zhi dao..

- LifeGoesOn~

Saturday, July 25, 2009

Might be holding her 21st bday over here..
SAF changi seaview resort..
=(
Thou its big..
But I dun like..
Thr's no facilities..
N most probably its 2 story kinda crap..

SIGHS!!
It felt as thou it isnt my bday celebration cuz
I DUN GET TO CALL THE SHOT!

Mummy n daddy are organizing it for the sake of their "FAMILY"

Its so fuking retarted..
then.. what bout my friends that doesnt have easy accessibility?

I seriously tot of backing up..
Since i'll be losing $ anyway..
Would it be better if I organize a chalet that will makes me happier? only my friends?
=(

ITS SO SELFISH OF THEM..
Firstly.. I doubt there will be facilities over thr..
Meaning, friends are bound to leave after celebrating..
=(
they juz wanted it cuz they only need to OCCUPY the chalet and gamble..
EAT and gamble..
Slp and gamble throughout the 2 wkend..
=(

Thou its 4days chalet..
I wonder how am I able to kope wif tat much ppl?
I dun like mixing ppl up..
The old vs the youngster..
=(
If I really had no choice..
PLEASE PARDON MY RELATIVES from my mummy's side..

HAIZ!
FUKING WASTE $ WHEN I NOE I WOULDNT BE ENJOYING..
I really dun like it when mummy n daddy says that they will be sponsoring for everything for my happiness..
Im starting to think..
Is it really for my happiness or their own leisure..

ihya..
ydeuhif..

worst comes to worst..
I'll only entertain my friends n cuxz..
ARGH!
wadever..

miss....

- LifeGoesOn~

Thursday, July 23, 2009

Am rather tired 2day..
Thr's UT tml..
=(

FB.
Qns: What does your true best friends name start with?
Ans: M.
I suddenly recalled..
That ur name used to start with M..
Happy cuz its M or sad cuz it used to be M?
=)

haha.. FB is crap to be exact..

Recently..
I've noticed a guy..
It has been quite a while since i've last noticed sum1.. HAHA!
I never do.. unless I sense ppl looking at me..
he juz-ed draws my attention..
*raised eyebrow*
my name, helping me out for the 2nd time when I absolutely have no idea how to answer faci's qns, helping me by shouting out to faci that my attendance has been unmarked..
Hmm..
I wonder if its him noticing me or me noticing him..
Tat kind of feeling..
Tat kind of look..
Didnt really noe how to put it..
However,
Obviously..
Even if I stands some chance..
Im not into kids..
Or maybe his older..
HAHA!
But he did caught my attention..
Dun ask me who..
Im so not gonna say..

Anyway..
Lots of activity being planned by sweets..
=)
OWWWW..
I love sch sooo much!
-.-'''
Im juz joking..
CIAO~

Hopefully..
If we eva have the chance to even talk..
But again..
Maybe I've yet to get over my own stage..
Let's not ask anything..
sweet dreams..

- LifeGoesOn~

Tuesday, July 21, 2009

sighs..
sorry for the previous post..
I juz got so irritated that its sch stuff again that keeps u bz all day long..
Its soooo damn ZZZZZZZZZ..

But its really true that ur image seems so vague now..
Can we juz meet up soon before ur exams starts?
If not it will be like..
SEPTEMBER???
n October is my O's le..
SIGHS!
Sometimes I wished im a fucking bitch tat will nag and say so much till u noe everything..
U better update me soon..
BETTER!?!
-______-'''
juz joking..

Seriously..
I sort of need hello miss or mrs "BFF" to give me some advice over lots of things..
Hopefully u're seeing tis..
But.. If its not possible.. nvm..
since im used to it.. maybe i can get thru everything by myself..

Sorry..
BUT!
hey.. I expect u to be sorry too..

tired..
I juz dun wish to make worse worser..

my eyelid kept twitching..
so..
even if i die.. no misunderstanding..
LOL
ciao~
still, detnioppasid..

iwinwyat..
sicctguoho..

- LifeGoesOn~

I really dun need that sorry when it no longer serve any meaning inside..

I wish to understand..
That its bcuz of sch work.. bcuz u're bz.. bcuz ur priority comes first.. bcuz its tiring..

But..
sometimes..
I felt that its wanting to take the initiative or not..

Wed is all that I looked forward to..
wif 2 msges.. u solved everything.. and its as thou it doesnt matter at all if thr's meet ups or not..

Im not angry u noe..
I juz felt soooo pathetic..
Something which i've tot will be able make myself happy bcuz im able to enjoy by eating and chatting..
Yet..
It doesnt really matters to you..

It sux..
Bcuz im the only 1 trying my best to believe in you..
U dun have to.. cuz it doesnt bothers you..

If so..
Y meet up in the first place?
I dun believe what im doing is childish..
Bcuz u noe me veri well..
I will not tolerate sudden changes..
Neither do u..

But i think it really doesnt matters anymore..
Im speaking from the btm of my heart..
Im sort of getting used to ea doing our own things..
nt updating n such..
Or maybe in a better words..
Having you as a friend or not..

What i say may be hurtful or maybe not..
I only wished to say..
I've tried my best to understand.. and I still will..
But..
Im getting tired of having a friend that is almost imaginery..
mayb.. u tot of only when troubles arises..
I've always been understanding for all situation..
Idk y.. urs get compiled soooo much that I could barely even try to understand..

Trust me..
It doesnt matters anymore..
I dun need u to do anything anymore..
It might be better tis way..

Sorry that I didnt what to understand tis time..
Perhaps Im starting to understand that..
It doesnt matter if friends meet up or not..
there's no such things called friends forever..
Idk what u think.. N never will..
Mind my own business..

I've tried..
I'm tired..
I've lost..
thank you for letting me noe tis friendship is a lil too incorrigible..

Perhaps im a lil too fucked up..
sick n tired of life..
y do i need to study so much? y repeat? y work? y am i juz not happy? y am i always tat empty?
If living is to be happy..
Does my situation fits the purpose of living?

please do not comment.
I juz wanna vent it all out.

- LifeGoesOn~

Sunday, July 19, 2009

SUX!
=(
bluetooth not working..
so.. no pictures..
Actually wanna blog that I've finally brought something ben dan likes..
Its a cooling plate!
COOL HUH?
=D
Its fav sunflower seeds and a rocket bath..
-.-'''
I've already tried my best..
guessed so..

Sometimes I really find desperate ppl dumb..
Juz by looking at ur DP, u wanna chat..
N next is asking if I got bf..
If u claimed that u noe me for 3,4 yrs already..
Seriously..
-.-''' Do I noe u?
Perhaps some1 that has took away my..... NVM..
Guys can really be such a jerk.. fucker.. shitass..
I hope u die!
But thanks to you.. I no longer thrust guys..
Oh well..
Past memories..

The game I used to play..
I've grown up..
Have you?
Nope..
Poor thing aint you?

- LifeGoesOn~

Saturday, July 18, 2009

lol.. u really makes me smile from the btm of my heart..
(text msg)
10:aunty aunty aunty aunty aunty aunty aunty aunty.....(she really did tis.. n its hell lots i tell u)
me: -.-''' yes ah ma? how can I help u?
10: nth.. just to say hi.. :)
me: idiot! -.-'''

she enjoys doing tis..
so do I..
XD
tis is how we disturb ea other for the sake of disturbing..
Somehow.. its a way we're constantly updating ea other too ba.. cuz after idiotic moments, chatting always starts..

haha!
her bday is coming..
(text msg)
10:btw, rmb to buy me meaningful and usable present..
me: meaningful and useful ar? LOL! mayb I can consider wrapping myself.. but I scared late I suffocate.. so tell me what u wan..
10: i dun mind u suffocate.. Im tell you early is for u to look for present..
me: -.-'''

HAHA!
but its still as idiotic!
you noe i love you..
=D

I alwaits ur 21st..
BEWARE~
LOL!
*grins*
tis time lets see who wins..

- LifeGoesOn~

Friday, July 17, 2009

Gave sch a miss 2day..
I really felt like giving myself a break..
Sorry to pang seh..

As usual..
I'll be occupied tis wkend..
Working tml and working for mum on sunday..
nvm..
Im getting myself a new phone next mth..
thus, camera will be delayed a lil..
Its alright.. cuz IT fair is still a in sept..
samsung pixon here I come..
or maybe smth wif full touch screen since im intending to get a camera..
Well.. i dunno..

Hmm..
Im wondering if it's coincident or u've actually read my blog..
Juzed so happened that im free on wed..
Obviously I wished it wasn't for this blog that u decided to meet la..
However I really appreciate it..
Bcuz if not.. to wait after august, after ur exam is too LONG..
but it also means.. the next meet up is sept..
HA!?

gtg.. mummy not feeling well..
ciao..

- LifeGoesOn~

Thursday, July 16, 2009

Emo~~~
Lol.. actually its ben dan..
brought her a hammy's cage..
=D i can bring her out anytime le..

Anyway, Im kinda lost touched with time..
Basically, I juzed dun feel like doing anything..
Emo's making me emo.. not the other way round..

Fyp for G301 is finally over..
hopefully the hard work for all 5 of us paid off..
Next would be O's retake le..
sighs..
Im sooooo tired..
I wan a break..
It feels as thou im suffocating..
wkdays for sch..
wkend for work..
And I had to entertain my relatives on sunday..
Or even work for mummy on sunday..
Sometimes, I feel that nobody understands..
Im not a robot.. im merely a human..

Sighs..
Perhaps its due to lack of slp bcuz of fyp presentation..

Haha..
random?
Sometimes.. I really wonder whom I can confide in when im at my worst moment, when trouble came..
I does pissed me off.. Seriously..
When u understand that humans are soo selfish..
idky is it that I can be thr when u need..
but.. its never the other way round..
I cant accept anymore sorry?
haiz..
4get.. its juz childish again..
If u ever have a tot about it..
Tell me what's the difference of having u as a friend or not?
Sometimes I dun even noe it myself..
SIGHS!
U BETTER GET BACK TO ME ASAP AFTER WATEVER THING IT IS..
if u noe u're making me lose hope in u..
I seriously dun understand y u're doing it when u actually noes everything..
sometimes I really wished to burn down ur sch..
=(

Nvm..

Somehow..
Im glad..
Source of happiness dun usually comes in one form..
If it weren't because the 4 of u..
I would have be a loner..
A emo, zi bi 1..

Live would juz be black and white..
plainly work, studies and nothing else..

Oh ya.
OF COURSE..
My 2 idiotic friends as well..
auntie 10 n prissy..
thanks for making me realise that u both actually cared if i die or not..
LOL!..
idk.. but.. ever since the last outing..
I couldnt helped but loved u all more..
u all r the 1 that actually cared and tried to understand..
msging until i reach hm bcuz its reaching 4am n im still not hm..
trying to make me happy when im sort of angry..
N not even being angry when im actually trying to vent my anger on u..
thanks for always wanting n trying to have meet ups and chilling session despite being sooo bz..
n auntie for the constant DISTURB spams..
EH! say i zi bi! i still haven scold u.. becareful ar u!

I dun rely on my family for support..
=)
I relied on friends to keep me alive..
Some may understand..
Some may not..

I may be complicated..
But.. often.. the 1 that actually understands read me like a book..
The reason for me being quiet is basically bcuz we've yet to noe each other better..
If I ever tried..
=)
Do be happy bout it..
Cuz.. I seldom do..
Selective friendship..

Who take de??
SOOOOO PRETTY..
LOL!
juz trying to cheer myself up luh..
Im blogging bcuz its rotting..
ciao..

It will be a hetic wkend..
goodnight.

- LifeGoesOn~

Tuesday, July 14, 2009

- LifeGoesOn~

Friday, July 10, 2009

Ahling is saving up for digital camera and photo printer..
XD

oww...
but its EXPENSIVE~
T_________T
no more buying lotsa food le..

wondering if i shld get 10mp or 12.1mp one..
Nvm..
I should just try to save $ now..

TOOOOO many things to get..
=(
fossil watch, crumbler, samsung pixon n soooo much more..

But..
I wonder how to saving $..
tml.. late night movie session wif auntie 10 n prissy..
relatives outing..
sure gamble all my $$ away juz bcuz i MUZ entertain them..
all those delicious temptations..
=(
I wish cameras could be eaten..
-.-'''
haha!
I want to buy it juz bcuz..
I GOT NO PHOTOS TO PUT INSIDE MY PHOTO FRAME..

A lil worried that its juz an act of impulse..
Cuz I dun really like taking photos..
nvm..
=)
everything is a choice..
having emo is a choice too..
I shld start buying things than eating all my $ away..
I shld start slimming down too..
LOLS
tired..
Working tml..
hopefully can have a gd rest after work before meeting them..

Feeling a lil complicated and confused..
I wished u were here to help..

- LifeGoesOn~

Thursday, July 9, 2009

So fortunate of ben dan..
To have the 4 of them coming over juz to see her..
They even gave u a super long name..
Emo pang ben dan..
Sweet isnt it?
-.-'''

haha..
Well well..
It's actually doing fyp poster at my house..
N.. YEAH~ its finally done...
HOOORRRAAAYY~

oh-mi-god..
172pics..
but im lazy to upload them all.. =)
<--heeheehaha photo..

ame's idea..
lol.. does bending up and bending down really have different outcome?

who is more sadako alike contest..
AHHHH.. I lost!
tooo short..
XD

Presenting their classic hand cover face picture..
N i was thr asking..
"y ea of u is covering part of the face?"
haha?

N lastly..
Random-ness..
The thing we excel in..
HAHAHA!

P.S. To whom it may concern..
Maybe not now..
But u'll juz have to stop thinking bout it..
Keep distract urself..
It aint easy crying every moment when u recalled moments with him or how things became..
Surpressing ur feelings everytime even when you're at hm..
N only letting it all out bcuz its too painful..
People may think that its stupid.. But I really understand that kind of feeling..
U juz have tobelieve that if its urs, it bounds to be urs..
Dun hope.. try getting over it first instead..
Jiayou is all I can say to help..
Dun cry le.. If not next time I will cry wif u.. T______T
If its bound to be a challenge in ur life..
Face it.. U're not tat easily defeated aren't you?
=)
Like how we always felt..
Let's hope for miracles to happen..
jiayou luh..

- LifeGoesOn~

Monday, July 6, 2009

Ah ling finally brought herself a hamster..
-.-'''
N she's being scold dumb by the entire family cuz hamsters weren't supposed to be living alone..

=(
indeed..
Its eating into my spendings..
Now I need to buy another roboski..

So.. ppl called me dumb bcuz of u..
So u'll be named "dumb"
dumb is too hyper active..
Perhaps due to its small size..
-.-'''
Im actually struggling wif its speed..
Sighs..
Its oso a lil emo sometimes..
Finding means to entertain it..
If not I really had to buy another 1...
N it means a bigger container..
N then, more food, more bedding, more random stuff..

haha..
Im so affected by it..
Actually i wanna name it sway..
LOL?
Cuz it suddenly raining heavily when I dropped off from the bus..
N.. I had to get myself drenched while prevent it from getting wet..
Imagine carrying my bag, laptop, n hamster stuff n itself..
sway right?
nvm.. dumb is the perfect name..
hopefully it bring joy to my life...
=D

alrite..
Im tired being out the entire day..
misses..

- LifeGoesOn~

Sunday, July 5, 2009

Overdue pictures again..
=)
idk y...
simple things makes me happy..
N being wif my love ones is all it takes..
Take tis cuxz outing for example..
I yearned so much for it..
But I seldom get them to come tgt..
Perhaps tis is y simple things may not be tat simple in reality..

Haha..
Moreover, there's a lil princess for bee now..
Its hard for her to actually tagged wif us to have fun anymore..
Hmm..
Sometimes, I wonder..
Do I really had to be tied down wif juz 1 person..
Have a family and be happy wif what I have..

Perhaps.. I dun..

Not now..
I dunno what kind of happiness I wan..
But its juz not family..

In this modern society now..
Its hard to find some1 that can loves you more Than loving themselves..
Until that day whr some1 proves me wrong..

ciao~

- LifeGoesOn~

Ok..
Im finally back..
here's some overdue pictures..
Bee's wedding..

N her lil princess yu ying..
=D

While daddy was trying to arrange the store room..
He asked if I wanna throw tis away..
Owwww...
I miss having hamsters..
haha..
But its definately gonna eat into my expense..
So.. having second tots bout tat.. lol..
Next time i'll try to show u the hamsters that i once had..
=D

Next!
I wanna complain bout this patetic sch!
-.-'''
Thermomter collection?
I wished I had such weird habits..
ARGH!!!
1) no thermomter = cannot attend lesson
2) break time shortened
3) restrict us to only 1 canteen
4) Had to go home late because they we cannot be released the same time as junior yr student
WTFWTFWTF? u think its logical? I think its nonsensical..
I can start selling thermomters bcuz of tis lame shit excuses the sch gave..
In the end, do we get to take our temperature?
Excuses of earning $..
-_______-'''
I really wish to burn all tis thermomter to ashes..
lol..
Unless I could eat them I dun mind la..
But.. do i need 4 personal thermomters?
Lelong~
Lelong~
sighs..
Fuckit..

- LifeGoesOn~